SUNDAY POST.

• WHERE IS THE LOVE?

Where is the time that we spent together? ALL WASTED ON OUR OWN.

My parents? Are busy working day and night. And by the time they got home, they get themselves straight to their bed and sleep. My brother? are also busy working day and night. Now that my sister don't stay with us again anymore, I felt the house I'm staying in, is.. not a house ANYMORE. The bonds we had are loss that I confronted my parents at night & blurted out what I felt from my HEART.

I cried by the front door & vanished through the night.

I'm sure some of my friends are aware about this. Thanks for the positive advices & encouragement. (= LOVE YOU ALL.

• THIS FEELING.. IS JUST TOO HARD TO EXPLAIN.

How am I supposed to say? I'm not strong enough to endure this pain.

• First, was a very awful break-up.
• Next, I met a guy. I remembered that he used to be there for me every day and night. Now, where the hell is he?
• Another guy. He's related to the previous. And when things was right and that I started to fall for him, he's gone. He may be cursed by previous him maybe?

I MSN-ED a guy named FAHMI lately. It's touching that we ended up almost the same way. He gave up, I almost. Mainly because I'm never too scared to fall in love again. IM USED TO IT, that's why.

TUESDAY POST.

• THE WEATHER IS GETTING WORSER THAN I THOUGHT.

Im bored of my schedule today so I decided to hang out at 6pm, ALONE. Last minute, my cute 3rd floor neighbour decided to tag along. She wanted BLUEBERRY WAFFLES badly. Hihs (=

We hang-ed till 8plus and by the time we wanted to set outselves home, the rain was DAMN HEAVY. And i meant DAMN!~ my umbrella did'nt seem to help me at all OKAY! my leg was half-covered with water. ARGH. I complained ALL THE WAY till I set my toes infront of the doorstep.

I chatted with MATT on the phone late night (wednesday morning) . OUW~ he's leaving on thursday morning instead. He stori-ed me about his International school and how he was brought up. INTERESTING BEDTIME STORIES. hihs. (=

Then EEKIN called me up at 4am~ WTHELL!!! that's .. IRRITATING. my beauty sleep is spoiled. HAHAHAH. How could you. =.= HAHAHAH. ANYWAY, I GTG.~

SUNDAY POST.

• WHAT AN UN-LUCKY SUNDAY. RIGHT EEQAH?

Just as I thought that the day would turn out right, DAMN! I WAS SO WRONG.

The moment we reached there, the rain only drizzled. [ OK. NVM] The moment we get ourselves into the pool, the rain.. poured heavily! [ WTH~ ] I only get to feel the water for 1 pathetic minute OKAY! T-S-K.

Guys are everywhere. I turned right, left, behind, infront. GUYS GUYS GUYS~ Except down and up of course. LOLS! dapat juga bersihkan mata. hihs. (x

and.. MATT CAME!~ with his boy-friends. One of them is interested in Eeqah! "hahaha. ada hati yer, tengok lah umurnya. khekhekhe" It was fun though we never actually get to swim EVEN. (=

• HOME ALONE.

Seems like I've been ston-ing at home alone for 2 complete days. Except LATE LATE NIGHTS. I could have go out searching for fun, but the weather.. hold me back home =\ . TSK.

And by the time I woke up, it's like 2PM! Nak watch teevee lain, mamams lain, mandik lain, surf net lain. It took alot of time y'know. =\

Today,

• I ate those MERRY SURPRISE PIZZAS,
• drank BANANA SOY BEAN MILK,
• & 2 plates of NASI W KARI KEPALA IKAN. (=

I love today menus. lols-

I SMSED MATTHEW like from 5pm till now. AND ITS 10PM already! HAHAHA. he's..a very charming chap. (x MIXED OKEH! And he's going back to MLYSIA international school in few days time. Coming back SPORE? MARCH! SOBS. but i'm glad he'll stay here PERMANENTLY.

Besides that, I've been wondering where KIMMIE & AHMAD had gone to. I MISS THEM SO. Hoping to receive a msg from them, soon. SIGHS.

OH GOD. I forgot there's this movie "PEREMPUAN" showing now. I better go.

THURSDAY POST.

• I HATE THIS KIND OF WEATHER.

the weather is odd for 2 days now. One moment it was blazing hot; the next it rained heavily. I even halfway slept on the cold floor even before i could blog. =\

Tried to contact KIMMIE KIUT-NESS about cancelling, but to no avail.

Today I did some mini - shopping. Bought pearls necklace & polkadot scarf. halfway, met DON & TOYOL. off to IMM to meet RAFI. There.. we choked out our usual craps. (= Sorry fo poking & kicking eu guys. WAKHAKA.

Collided into some peoples like..

• 4e4 mates.
• Horng yu and partner.
• Khartik and Fahzil.
• Amalina and partner.
• Alisha etc..

Next we're off to JURONG POINT. Had our yummy dinner. (= Since my big baby stomach is demanding for mamams.

GLENN called. Finally HIDAYAH is back!

my honey girl-friend. Never contacted her since November. I miss her so. Planned to go for a swim at JURONG EAST COMPLEX right after we take our results.

YEAYS! I just can't wait.

• Lamanya bercinta
  Bukan tanda SAYANG.
• Sayang dan menyayang
  Bukan tanda SETIA.
• Setia di bibir
  Tak pasti di hati
  Itulah mainan sewaktu BERKASIH.

love, it's a feeling that is hard to explain.

• I DREAMT OF RUSDAN 4DAYS - STRAIGHT.

Tsk. I wonder why? =\ The same damn dream ok!! ARGH.*pull hairs* I don't even ask for it, ANYWAY.

Lately, I've been busy hanging out.

• With AHMAD. - Vivo & burger king.
• With TUAH. - lepaks like nobodys' business.
• With ELFIAN & KIN - cafe' at JP.
• With PARENTS - TJ complex & BugisJ.
• With GUYFRIENDS - Town & Vivo.
• With DAN & TOYOL - Westmall & burger king.

Thursday I'll be out with KIMMIE (Ahmad's cousin), to Sentosa.

Oh god! I'm so excited. I love beaches. (=

• Pretending to be happy.

" I belong to me I, don't belong to u my, heart is my possesion I, be my own reflection "

Had a mesmorising conversation with Mum last night.

I poured all my miseries/memories : HIM, SHE, HER.
She poured all her miseries/memories drg her teenage years: GUYS, SACRIFISE.

I told her "after all I done for them, this is what I get mum"

I want to thank Ayrill, Tuah, Ahmad etc..
for being there for me.
for being a tissue to wipe my tears.
for being a listening ear.

Whatever ur choice is, I hope u made the right one.

It sucks when people ask u to find someone better than them.
AFTER ALL WE DONE FOR THEM.

After all proofs that we still need them.

Who knows that someone better might be someone worser?
I don't wish to be abandoned-ly, mother fucking-ly hurt again.

I never suffered this much towards someone before, truthfully.
Even after all u done, it won't cause changes to my feelings.

U escaped reality. I'm afraid, u make the wrong move.
It will make your life even un-happier.

LIFE MUST GO ON? after all that happens? D'OH!

Tonight, I hope u fulfill my one last wish.
" Ya Allah, tolonglah hambamu ini. Tiada siapa yg boleh menolong selainmu Ya Allah. "

U thought that by having new, it would solve what we've gone through now.
I'm afraid it wont honey, obviously.
UNFORTUNATELY, u're running away from reality.

but I'm glad. U do not hate me. U accepted the book I've given to u.

• Inside the book, indicates our memories.

I saw u cried, several times.
I know deep down, u do not want this. U're confused.

I won't beg anymore. I'll see what fate will bring me.

"God, I need guidance from U. I need the strength."

I must not be weak. Mum said that, Rafi etc..
I must not let my weakness control my mind, my heart.
I MUST NOT. TSK.

Bought clothes @ U2 by G2000.
Since its associated with Wing Tai company, you should know how high the quality of fabric is.

• One deep purple & One deepest red.

It's not like any other tees, it has its very own unique designs.
OH WELL, Back to my life story. CONGRATULATIONS.

I lost my heart, I lost my soul.

"Setia di bibir, tak pasti di hati. Itulah mainan waktu berkasih"

No one can help me now. I'm HELPLESS.
Mummy has been talking bout him & my ears was like.. BURNING!

Inside the car, Inside my room, Dining room..
the topic of him CONFIRM PLUS GST comes out.

Haiz. I MISS YOU DEARLY.

Thanks Ahmad! for advising me, being there for me when I'm in need.
SIGHS.

What love really is without you?

Cause love is about me and you.

What happenned yesterday; continues to haunt me.
I could cry no more. I could sleep no more.

Life is pathetic.

Yesterday (30 november) was sure a day to note down.
Besides above, I spot many of my friends 'A' @ Vivo.

Weird but true.

From Akashah to Afiq to Asmirah to Anuar to Amin to Ayu to Acel etc!
Hahaha. I wonder if its 'A' day yesterday.

I even got a new job.
My previous @ Zara can throw away jauh-jauh.

The branch is located either at Fareast Plaza or Vivo.
I've yet to choose one.

Deep confusion. But I have to confirm by tonight to the superiour.


Sorry for not being online for 3 solid days btw.
im going out now, be back late night. goodbye.

Finally, Dad & Mum have finalised the right motorcycle to buy.

The colour is a combination of White & Blue.

Now he has a better work, A better pay.
This time, it's located on an island. No more condominiums that sort.
Don't worry, his car is still alive (:

Lately, I don't feel good.
Got bad feelings that someone out there is up to break my heart.

MSN-ed Bib late night yesterday.

Ohmy, hate to say. What he said is really true.

I must ask, I must be brave.
BEFORE ITS TOO LATE.

but when?

Not another one.
Another one who's up to chew & spit me out.

Quit playing games with my heart.

I really had enough of pretenders.
Fellow "friends" who's also just using me as they pleased.
When they don't need me, they just. THROW ME.

All because they found SOMEONE NEW & SHINY.

True lovers and friends know u're a good egg;
even though u're a little cracked.

What matters most is we accept each others' flaws.

ARGH, fine go ahead.
Hurt me all you want.

I guessed I'm pretty used to it.

Had full comfort & services @ Starbucks Coffee.

What's more is the irresistable, addictive aroma.

Bought a black long-sleeve like coat @ Osmose.

It costs alot! But I don't mind since its eye-catching.
Comfortable, silky & tight-fitting. LOVE IT(:

Today is the 3rd day I fell sick.
Instead it gets even worser!

MY voice? gone.
MY temperature? 39degrees.
MY throat? 101% itchy!
MY head? fucking giddy!

ARGH. I even slept with sweaters on.

Darn, I'm really craving for fish porridge & hot mocha. SIGHS.

Now I'm at my sister house.
Chatting & Playing ps2 with Riki.

Omg I just adore "Crash Bandicott"!
Cunning & Cute. Especially its Morhog hair. *smiles*

Brother now has his 2nd bike after the accident happenned recently.
Well.. this time the color was striking orange.

Dad too planned to buy a bike. Since he got a car already.
A bike can be used for other purposes.

ARGH! They are like buying something, and I bought NOTHING.


I need money.


ARGH!

Like I expected, another gruesome quarell took place late at night.

It was 4.10am exactly when I can finally touch my pillows & rest.
Ya rite, I was the cause you dumped your bestfriend huh?
Ppl treat me like I'm always wrong! And they're fucking right.

Blame me all you want. Liars!

Oh yeah, I just want to say for those who are up to fool me,
Just quit playing games with my heart.

I'm a human too, I got feelings like everybody do.

I don't lie, yet you guys have the nerves to lie to me.
And when I found out, all you guys gave was excuses.

OH MY GOD.

Please.

PLEASE. Don't treat me this way.

If we love somebody could it be this strong?

Please don't treat me this way.

Don't play with my feelings.
Don't make my heart cry, once again.


FYI: Doesn't mean the olds' love is true. Doesn't mean the youngs' love is untrue.
Qoute: Age does not protect u from love; But love to some extent protect u from age.(:

Today did something quite practical.
Went all the way to Bedok.
Miss my hometown, TAMPINES!

Yes, I belong there. All my cousins is there.

Only that I'm clueless since a few years ago why must I be at Bukit Botak? *sighs*. East to West siaks. But I love my yusoffians hunnehs.(: Especially the groovy techs! OMG, they're leavink. *loads of sighs*

I myself do not know if I'm leaving YISS for good. *thousands of sighs*
I did my worst for POA! ARGGH.

Ok. enough of songehs. Bye.

Nothing special happened today.
Common stuffs, common ppls that I see on the Mrt.
Zebra-tee. lol.
Only that a few times, I heard somebody calling out to me.
I don't really see who it was. whatever it is..

I'm sorry, Sugardaddy.
It's not that I don't want to expose my overdosed problems.
U know I always tell when I have one.
But this time, I just don't feel the need to.
Even if I tell, I don't think I will feel any better.

PS/Don't think that we guys are leaving u off alone.

I'm missing someone right now. BADLY.
How I wish that someone knew it, that I really (am) mean it.
As days passed, my heart grows even fonder.
Will you ever know? *sighs*

Little as u knew, I always think about u.

I cried. I need someone to talk to. I need to unplugged myself out. But, noone; The suitable one was there to be with me. Only this blog I can turn to. I know it may be a stupid to cry over my weird thinking, but read. Read to what I'm going to type.

Am I really living? I don't believe this. I don't believe that I'm really typing. I don't believe the fact that I'm Sixteen.
I laid on my loved ones. I don't want to loose them. I can't accept the fact I'm going to loose them. I only meet them in this world. What if I never meet them again in another world? I love them! Please.. I love them!
In this world, It's temporary. In other world, it's forever!

Moreover I don't want to loose my MOM. I want to be with her forever. Though nobody is perfect, She's perfect in my eyes. I just.. love her. I don't want any other mom.

Wait a minute, in other world.. I must live forever? No end? Ya ALLAH Ya Tuhanku. Ampun kan lah Dosaku! I wonder how tough it takes to live forever? I'm going crazy.
I must be good, I must repent..


I live once, I must use it wisely.

JEREMY SUMPTER.

I love Jeremy.

Oh my, he's georgeous. I can't resist this irresistable guy. I've been observing, noticing, growing up with him. Since he was a kid, he had started to play several roles until he became.. a Hero. *smiles*

Well. I'm not really obsessed towards him. You know? Kissing posters& stuff like that? Just a huge but plain celebrity crush. Remember Cinta Bollywood? They say : Be obsessed but not too obsessed. You know what will happen in the end don't you? Same goes to the sayings : Don't take your guy as your everything coz when they're gone you have nothing. Watch out. It's really true.

So this really teaches us some things in life, right? Hmm..

18th.a specialDAY.i know, they know, u don' know.it's for me to knowand for you to find out. guess what? Nabila applied for a job @ Rusdan's workplace. Ohno! I was like saying to him, prepare for the worst. He even remind the whole staffs about her. *huahuahua*I went to Vivo AGAIN. yeah, that's our workplace. With my loved ones. So, it's no big deal I went there. I even memorised 3/4 of the vivo map already. *huahuahua*The used-to-go-town peoples even start to hang out over there. Ye.. Mestilah.. town kan dah basi. *huahuahua*OH! BTW,Not only me regard 18th as my special day. My parents too. Guess what again guys? *jengjengjeng* they won a lott......

feeling down, feeling emotional.
But I'm not an emo. you know? slit wrist & stuff? darn, that's not me.

I'm just too.. UPSET.

Im sorry to all my loved ones first&foremostly.
You guys should know.. that I spent little quality time with each & everyone of you. I'm just too busy nowadays. I did not mean to neglect some of you, really.
Sorry to Doinks..
Sorry to my guy-friends..
Sorry to my girl-friends..
Sorry to my Family..
Im Sorry Mum, Dad.. U both still remember how I used to wish you both everyday "goodnight"? Now I did'nt even have the time to. At home from morning til afternoon.. the house was like.. so empty. EVERYBODY in the house have hard times to keep up with each other.

Don't say I will leave u all, I love u. And I will always keep u all close to my heart.
PROMISE.

Sounds lucky!

that 3 person in total treated me eating out today.
& 1 person per different meal, different timing. x)
Oh well, since my tank is full..
Did some lyrics-reading today after reaching home.
I enjoy doing it, REALLY. It's like meaningfull & inspires myself somehow.
The words it use is just too.. beautiful.

Check this out.
Peterpan- Di atas normal.

Pikiranku tak dapat ku mengerti
Kaki di kepala kepala di kaki
Pikiranku patutnya menyadari
Siapa yang harus dan tak harus ku cari
Tetapi tak dapatku mengerti

Sesuatu yang baru ku sadari
Kau tinggalkanku tanpa sebab yang pasti
Sesuatu yang harusnya terjadi
Kau sakiti aku kau yang harus ku benci
Tetapi tak dapatku menyesal dapatku mengerti

Tetapi tak dapatku menertawai
Dapatku menertawai dapatku mengerti
Oooh... ku mencari sesuatu yang telah mati
Ku mencari hati yang ku benci
Oooh... ku mencari sesuatu yang tak kembali
Ku mencari hati yang ku benci

Tetapi tak dapatku menertawai
Dapatku menertawai dapatku
Menertawai dapatku mengerti

Oooh... ku mencari tetap tak dapat ku temui
Ku mencari hati yang ku benci

MONDAY 13november2006. Eaten:3plates of chicken rice.Time I reached home: 6.45pm.
Today was.. tiring I guess? =\ (SORT OF) I felt alive but restless. Accompanied my pretty godsis to apply for a job. Went to.. MANGO(headnods!), WAREHOUSE(headnods!), GAP(headshakes!) & PULL&BEAR(headnods!).I just luurrve those Belts-over-dresses @ WAREHOUSE. =) I'm soo falling in love with it! Especially those Indies-like clothes @ GAP. WOWS.U girls should really check it out. =)

Back from: Interview @ Vivo.C Miss-ing: Doinks.
Feeling: CRESTFALLEN :((
Reason for feeling "CRESTFALLEN": Well.. This is how it goes.

Lately, seems that NOTHING was right between me & one of that twin. In the end, as we all might expected : A heavy quarell occured between us. And I meant VERY HEAVY. We're like.. treating each other like a VOODOO DOLL! poking & cursing each other. :(( I would like to keep the inner details confidential though. I've no more tears to dispose.

Things went a little more smoothly as we went for interview @ ZARA. The employer were very cheerfull & down-to-earth type. I like that((: He gave us alot of advices,tips & explained a to z the speciality of ZARA. Even the other Twin {DIDI} apply for a job there. haha. TWINS! are just like Infrared. So ADORABLE. ((:

Still remember what my friend Ahmad said:
FRIENDS have no expiry date. :))

OK. not-so-short post for now. BUSY BUSY. Goodnight.

Back from: Vivo C.
Time: 7.30pm.

Recently bought : Green Roxy sleeveless top, Black jean miniskirt, Beads Embroided Necklace, Skyblue Cardigan w Sleeveless white.

Sorry to: My friends. I'm sorry I really have no time to visit your blog since fasting month. I really am busy. :((

Today was harsh. :(( I went to Vivo C. all the way, ALONE. A couple of Interviews have been slotted in my schedule & I must attend INDEPENDENTLY. My day got smoother as I observed my interesting surroudings. :)) THANKS to my two respectable people too
(u know who u are ) for talking to me on the phone throughout my journey.

Well, like I said previously, I encountered interesting surroundings. It all mostly happened at the MRT.
I could do nothing but to stare. So, I turned my head to the right.
At the right, I saw a group of Eurasians happily laughing & dancing over a music.
When I look to the front, there's this African guy with HUUUGE afro hair. (kalah rambut marcell dulu)
I looked to the left, *YUCKS* a primary sch girl is digging her nose away. NONCHALANTLY.
OMG. I could still imagine how she rolled those sticky substance like a tiny ball. *YUCKS!*
And so on...

ON interviews,
Bata & Toys'r'us called me in. *GULP*

Bata accepted to take me for a training. The salary includes my commision. 2 weeks that is! The only disadvantages is if I work there, there's no such thing as "OFF DAY". yikes, I dislike that kind. :((

For Toys'r'us, around 20 peoples applied for the job! And it will be very tough for me to be accepted. By luck maybe?

Haiz.

Back from: Eating Nasi Ayam&Whipped Potato @ Habourfront, Vivo city.

*pheww* I'm just too tired. :(( Alot of energy used up just for one huge mall. ok, VERY HUGE.
Not only we roamed around inside the mall, we went to look for a job. Many outlets we went to,
and the positive responses I received was from: Fila, Giant, Topshop/Topman, Minitoons.
Armani Exchange will be opening up soon, well! thats my next beautiful target. *evil smile*

After few rounds of walking, we decided to catch a movie.

What movie? : GRUDGE 2

Bought 2 combo meals altogether. Mine costs $8.50. Hotdog Combo Meal that is. With!! barbeque twisties. And the Hotdog with bread was like.. Fat.. Long.. and Juicy!! Who can ever resist?? Once I opened the plastic cover, my buddies was like desperate for a bite! Haha!! Not to mention actually, that we have a VERY HUGE appetite. :))

The Grudge 2 was very scary. Totally!! not for the faint-hearted. Moreover the screen is damn huge! And the ghost was like damn huge too! And the ending was not very good at all, and it also ended up in a very scary way. ALL DISSAPEARED.

O.m.g, I wished I am watching D.O.A. Or I should wait for Material Girls? Hmmpx.

Now Listening to: House Music: Calabria Remix by Eric Morillo/Randy Katana.

Back from: Accompanying Ibu to Salon (Hair Rebonding),
Buying Slippers, Nail Anemal (transparent pink),
Eating at KFC fast food Restaurant.

I have those polka-dot feeling today. My attire shows it all.
Polka-dot top, Polka-dot handbag, Polka-dot wallet! haha!

Yet I felt clean too with fresh white top color, white slippers & white teeth. ((:

Although I'm feeling all this, I felt worried too.
Worried about getting a job. BADLY!!
Got a helping hand from my Ibu first & foremostly. ((:
Second is from my dearest beloved friends.
Last but not least is from my godsister.

I told her off how dissapointed I am in killing my time at home, outside..
and!! to wake up late. VERY LATE!!! afternoons is like mornings to me.
since she have friends devoted in sales, she will recommend me to them.

What Shops? well it's zara & a x.


can't wait..!! ((: till then.

I'm Back!
Been too busy this week. Let me summarise what happenned recently.(:
On monday, I went to "jalan raya" with the technicals.

Those who went: Me, Rusdan, Rusydi, Rafi, Rasul, Ramdhan, Rayyan, Rizyanti, Ridhuan, Rasyiqah, Rasyiqah's bf, Furqaan, Yan, Said, Surayah, Surayah's bf, Hamdan, Hamdan's gf, Faizal, Faizal's gf, Fadhilah, Fadilah's bf, Hafiz, Ian, Nazri

Went to ____ house: Rayyan, Yan, Nordin etc..

On tuesday,

Those who went: Me, Rusdan, Iqmal, Sufiyan, Maszlee, Firdaus, Insyirah, Atiqah, Azrin, Huda, Iman, Akil, Zairie, Zairie's gf, Ahmad, Ahmad's gf, Amirul

Went to ____ house: Firdaus, Mdm Rehana, Akil, Fairuz, Iqmal, Mazslee etc..

Cheeses, I had total fun interacting with Ahmad's gf, Nadia. She's pretty! Plus Zairie's gf, Nana. Haha! I wonder if she can "tahan" Zairie's cheekiness. Bleuk! Overall I guess Mdm Rey & Iqmal's mum dishes is the tastiest. Mdm Rey cooked seashell-shaped pasta with prego sauce. Delicious! Whilst Iqmal's mum cooked Mee Soto with different kinds of toppings to choose from. WOWS, I'm totally impressed. ((-: Too bad if u never get to taste it.Planned to go out with them again next week.
This time we bring along Khalil, Aisah, Ifwat, Haikal. (:
*YEAYS*

stress gila babi sak aku!
tak boleh angkat sey.

Perangai macam taik beruk!
Atleast beruk pun tak ada menyusahkan orang sangat macam dia.
Tak serik-serik ke dia curi, hilangkan benda orang, berhutang?
Bukan itu aja. Dah kena bedal rabak-rabak dari bapak dia, tapi masih buat lagi. Harap jer otak pandai dalam pelajaran, tapi pasal ini, tak boleh handle. bodoh sak.
Dah lama aku kawan dengan dia. Tapi dengan aku sekali dia kena kan.
Dah curi benda aku banyak, handphone lagi. Sekarang, bodoh sangat kasi hilang kan kawan aku punya videocamera. Reason dia semua macam biji kelentik dia! Serious sey. Sial la perangai. Siapa-siapa yang tahu pasal perkara ini, kau orang patut tahu la, jangan percayakan dia lagi, kalau tidak! harta kau jugak dia telan buat taik!

[English] I love you

[Polish] Ja kocham ciiebiie

[French] Je t'aiime

[Hindi] Hum tumhe pyar karte hae

[Czech] Miilujii te

[Slovakian] Lu'biim ta

[Italian] Tii amo

[Ukrainian] Ya tebe kahayu

[German] Iish liibe diish

[Chinese] Wo aii nii

[Greek] S' agapo

[Hawaian] Aloha wau iia oii

[Lithuianian] Tav myliiu

[Korean] Sa rang hae yo

[Japanese] Aii shii te ru

[Romanian] Te ubsec

[Bosnian] Bo iis te

[Albanian] Te dua

[Phillipino] Mahal kiita

[Spanish] Ti amo

[Portugese] Amo te

[Arabic] Annah be hebic

It's amazing how love can transform:
a normal person into a muddle-headed person;
a hot-tempered person into an even-tempered person;
an unromantic person into a romantic person;
a sane person into an insane person;
an unsuccessful person into a successful person;

They say: Behind every successful man there's a woman.
I guess my Ayah & Ibu obviously shows it all. If not for Ibu, my Ayah would not be as successful as now he is. Through thick & thin, Ibu has been there to help, catch & console Ayah. Until now..

Lucky is the man is the first love of a woman,
Luckier is the woman is the last love of a man.

Well, back to my life story..
Yesterday my family and I went to break our fast @ Habib Family Restaurant. As usual, ordered one of my favourites:
Thai Kway Teow Fried Noodles. ((-:
Received a last-minute call from my sister.
She persuaded us to accompany her with her husband & sons to Gaylang.
Even with our "baju-slack-nak-mampos", we still headed off to Gaylang.
Well "nak rasakan suasana nyer punya pasal"
Still can potray how badly I'd been treated outside Golden Chance.
Argh! better not talk about it. Till then..

The moment I saw you,
I can't seem to describe how happy I am to see you.
On that only 5 minutes, how we both wished that we could pootle all day once again like we used to. But we just have to wait, we just have to endure.

I spent the whole afternoon in the library yesterday. Seems to be so addicted to reading the Singapore's Most Popular Magazine & Gila-Gila magazine.

EXTRACTED FROM GILA-GILA MAGAZINE.
Bulan itu bulan Ramadhan.
Mona pergi dapur, dia nampak byk donut.
Hmm.. sedap. Apa lagi?! Dia NGAP lar.
Dia NGAP punyer NGAP.. Mina masuk dapur.
Mina nampak, Mina terperanjat.
"OI! kau buat aper tu!!!"
Mona terus muntah balik makanan tu.
"OI!! Da 14 donut kau telan, nak muntah balik buat aper!!"

[got to go, I'm off to gaylang]

Again, they refrain us from meeting each other.

How cruel can this world could be?

Just 1 tight minute I get to see you and then..
*poooffts* you're gone. Out of my sight.

There.. I'm alone. Only darkness able to accompany me home.
If I were to follow my heart, I would have attempt suicide.
I would have grab a gun,attach a silencer,insert 32 calibre bullets
& shoot myself in this cold night.

But I know that is stupid.. and impossible..

It's just that, I can't take this pain anymore.

It's difficult for both of us to endure & lace-up through this period of time.
Peoples around us tested our endurance for two weeks, but
they never vision how torturing its going to be.

Why must they interfere in our relationship?
Why must they be unhappy for us?

Tsk.. This left me no choice but to take the challange.

[JUST FOR U]

Meanwhile, back at home today..

I help my Ibu in making - Mushroom-shaped cornflakes cookies.
Trying not to be lackadaisical, I complete the tasks smoothly.
Moreover I will get my "upah".. ((-: $$$$$.

Ayah cooked for us Lemak Ayam Chilli Padi.

I smsed twin(rdn) after that & coicidentally
his mother is making cornflakes cookies too!
"KEPO! HAHA.."

For buka, he's eating Nasi Ayam Penyek.
Damn.. I've been craving that for a long time.

Oh well.. better get going.

Mid-Week Jokes.


Man comes home, finds his wife with his friend in bed.
He shoots his friend to death.
Wife says "If you behave like this, you will lose ALL your friends".

Small Boy wrote to Santa Claus," send me a brother"
Santa wrote back," SEND ME YOUR MOTHER"

What is the definition of Mistress?
Someone between the Mister and Mattress

Husband asks , "Do u know the meaning of WIFE??
"Without Information Fighting Everytime"
Wife replies," No, It means ,
"With Idiot For Ever !!!"

Three Feelings:
What's the difference between stress, tension and panic?
Stress is when wife is pregnant,
Tension is when girlfriend is pregnant, and
Panic is when both are pregnant.

Teacher: u know the importance of period?
Kid: Ya, once my sister said she has missed one, my mom fainted, dad got
heart attack & our driver ran away.

Why did they stop printing Pamela Anderson stamps in the U.S?
B'coz people started licking the wrong side.

Women asked man who is traveling with six children, all these kids are
urs??
No, I work in a condom factory & these are customer complaints.

Two men met while both where looking for their lost wives.
1st: How urs look like?
2nd: She is 5"7, 36-24-36, Fair, Black eyes. Wat abt urs?
1st: Forget mine. Lets find yours!!

Sons asks difference between confidence and confidential
Dad says, you are my son, im confident. ur friend is also my son,
that's confidential!

Received emails from my big sister recently.

I find this cool.

Moreover it was published on my BIRTHDAY.

A HOLY FISH.

My family turned against me.
And somehow I felt like a stranger to them.

Argy bargy between us had started since yesterday.
Where's the bolthole in this world?
Since I'm not needed by them anymore?

IN MY LIFE,
I wish no one to correct me except my parents.
If u're not my parent & u want to correct me,
Correct yourself before u correct me.

Look at yourself.
Saying its shameful to gossip, yet u gossip about me.
Saying u're scared of God, yet u do sinful acts.
TALK BIG ONLY!
[apa lagi bulan Ramadhan yer]

Unhappy with my looks?
Look at yourself again.
Are u way better than me?
Look like a model & no excessive fats bulging out?
If u are, I have no comment.

What & Who I want to be, it's my choice.

WELL, WELL..

Found a piece of dirty joke extracted from a certain known webbie.
I find it humorous though. Go ahead & read.

Pinocchio talks to Gepetto:

- Daddy my dick is all jagged and crooked so I have no success with girls.

- You know, my son, I didn’t care too much about that detail, but that should not be a problem. Go to the shop, take a sandpaper and fix it.

After some time, Gepetto asks Pinocchio:

- Well, did you resolve the problem with the girls?

- Daddy, since I got the sandpaper who needs the girls anymore -


--- Back about me ---

Still, I'm maintaining my health to an acceptable level.
But... I guess I'm more worried about my studies!
For me, it's a battle btwn life & death.
I really am not into ITE! I want to enter sec5;
B-A-D-L-Y !
Studied pretty hard lately. Done alot of tests.
Here I've calculated all my mock/try out sets marks-

Chem Mock paper - 33/50
Chem set11 (prelim03) - 39/48
Chem set10 (prelim02) - 47/58
Chem Suqunsec06 paper 3 - 11/20
Maths Mock paper1 (paper1) - 51/60
Maths Mock paper2(paper1-kranjisec) - 52/60

STUDY HARD. PARTY HARD (later).

Aaaachoo! Not again!

Why do I have to fall sick that often?
Unlikely, I'm adapting with sensitive skins;
due to family genes.

This enables higher chances of getting sick!

However,
I hung out at Twin's house again today.
This time, twin (R)dan persuaded us;
friends & I having a room theater.
We watched Underworld Revolution.

Disgusting! Especially the part that the hero & heroin really "played".

They like it, They laughed, They increased in voltage..

Man, I'm getting even sicker by the sight of it.

Yipee!

Finally managed to replace into a new skin.

I guess it looked likely more 'decent' than my previous;
rock fulfilling dream.
It harshly took 3 solid hours to complete it all.

Since it kindly replaced the passing time of fasting,
I'm satisfied with the countdown to break my fast.
woohoo! hahaha..

But still, I felt rotten sitting down for so long!
I really have to accomplish my housechores task.
And ouh! my home revisions!



Ok. u should know I better get going.

My heart were
still in pain.

still unconcious.
All because of my last day with dearest Mr Ishak.

It really broke me down emotionally as he withdrawed his tears.

I silently confessed a 'doa' under my breath,
Hoping for his safety & thankfull,

to have met him on my once-in-a-lifetime journey.

Take care.

Seems like I just entered the path of heaven.

Happiness received with open arms every single moment.
Alhamdullilah,
Thank God for birthing me delicate smiles.

Studies became more meaningful to myself.
I set my path to polytechnics,
but somehow I got a bundle of negative thoughts that I could'nt.

I get to reach myself to the twin's crib twice lately.
One of them is today.
I managed to have high quality fun with them, plus their maid.
I & Ram fought for tv.
I, Art Attack
Ram, Spongebob Squarepants.

Damn! they pointed me out as the
LONGNOSE animal from spongebob series.
Grr, I don't know the name exactly, but it's so UGLY!
.
Whatever!

i felt so low & fragile.
Touch me a little,
I sensed a high voltage of pain
running through my veins.
I had a conflict lately with a few friend of mine.

Only one major that I had dealt with.

Alhamdulillah, I managed to seek for forgiveness & was accepted sincerely. Just after our hearts - out conversation.
But I know deep down inside, we still store our bitter sorrows.

"Dear god, please help me, I'm startng to hate myself! "

The day I have to note down.

I had a heavy quarell with my bro. I never meant to, he should know. But it had happened. My room was astonishingly messed up like a forest. Drawers rested its base at every corner of my room.

Im crying heavily as I drove myself into this MSN world. BLOGGER. I showed my worst facial expression & shouted for no reason. My daddy just looked at me with full of meanings in his eyes. He & mummy quarelled too.

Im lucky enough, before the day ended,
My heart softens as I heard his voice across the telephone line.
We shared our problems together.
More like bestfriends u can say.
And there..
I realised I had to be patient.
Somehow I left with no choice but to swallow it.

The pain that was crawling inside my foot was still visible to my senses.
All because of having a bad fall in cinema recently.
A REALLY BAD FALL! until my face reach the carpet!
It really answer to the nature that I'm going to lead a horrible week.
AND GUESS WHAT? IT IS TRUE!
hold your applauses if u were to give a mean remark.
You might ask what really happened today won't you?

After that bad fall, I had ANOTHER FALL!
urgh. you can set ur applauses now.
not at cinema, but at a hellish staircase.
MOREOVER, it happened..
infront of that twin! twice!
& my face painted a deepest red!

It's getting even weaker every minute.
I managed to walk still and had a normal time with my friends.
Red, Ram, Di, Dan, Toyol.
I pitied Lulu somehow she had to attend to her father at hospital.
So we decided to spent our time at bowling centre. duh!
And yeah.. RusyD won~ *roll eyes* haha!

Those fun moments lasted only for awhile.
The horrible curse still on the line.
It turned out that each of my friends led out their inner problems.
I learnt that basically it involved love & friendships.
Friendships is all on between us. Those frightful misunderstandings.
This is what happens when we're all too close. *sighs*
They seemed to blow their anger everytime.
(fierce se.. da besar drg)

I tend to relax my mind still.
I took this as a part & parcel of life.

To all Muslims, I would like to share an e-mail I received today. Happy reading!

There was a young man who went overseas to study forquite a long time. When he returned, he asked his parents to find him a religious scholar or any expert who could answer his 3 Questions.
Finally, his parents were able to find a Muslim scholar.=20

Young man: Who are you? Can you answer my questions?
Scholar: I am one of Allah (SubHana Wa Ta`ala )'s slaves and Insha-Allah
(God willing), I will be able to answer ur questions.
Young man: Are you sure?
A lot of Professors and experts were not able to answer my questions.
Scholar: I will try my best, with the help of Allah(SubHana WaTa`ala).

Young Man: I have 3 questions:
1. Does God exist? If so, show me His shape.
2. What is thaqdir (fate)?
3. If shaitan (Devil) was created from the fire, why at the end he will be thrown to hell that is alsocreated from fire. It certainly will not hurt him at all, since Shaitan (Devil) and the hell were created from fire. Did God not think of it this far?

Suddenly, the Scholar slapped the young man's face very hard.
Young Man (feeling pain): Why do you get angry at me?
Scholar: I am not angry.
The slap is my answer to your three questions.
Young Man: I really don't understand.
Scholar: How do you feel after I slapped you?
Young Man: Of course, I felt the pain.
Scholar: So do you believe that pain exists?
Young Man: Yes.
Scholar: Show me the shape of the pain!
Young Man: I cannot.
Scholar: That is my first answer. All of us feel God'sexistence without being able to see His shape... Lastnight, did you dream that you will be slapped by me?
Young Man: No.
Scholar: Did you ever think that you will get a slap from me, today?
Young Man: No.
Scholar: That is takdir (fate) my second answer...... My hand that I used to slap you, what is it created from?
Young Man: It is created from flesh.
Scholar: How do you feel after I slapped you?
Young Man: In pain.
Scholar: Thats it. this is my third answer, Even though Shaitan (Devil) and also the hell were created from the fire, if Allah wants, insha-Allah (God willing), the hell will become a very painful Place for Shaitan.

Im feeling scared.

I felt that I'm the worst person you could ever think of!

Just after that ghost encounter.
I would not know if you were to believe me or not.
Dig my heart out, I swear that I led out the truth.

On thursday, I had a tired day out.
Off I went to bed, but my mind was uneasy.
Cyclones were haunting my heart,
but still I managed to sleep.

The next day ( Friday ), I went out with my friends.
We went to catch a movie : Frostbite.
Gross! That's the comment I could thought of.
It all based on vampires & nasty dripping bloods.
When I arrived home, that was the time I received a horrifying news.

My mum went bonkers over me all of the sudden.
She told me hundreds of time not to break our religious rules.
I eyes never let a blink and my heart dropped.

"At 2am, your brother was about to went to bed.
As he was about to enter his bedroom,
he saw a creature that made his eyes glued to your bedroom.
You know what he saw little lady?
That --------- is infront of you trying to harm you!"

My brother continued : After that, the creature dissapeared
when I looked into it again.

My mother continued : Not only that, I saw it again!
And this did not happenned for no reason. Make sure you repent now.
You're no good person anyway. You never followed Islam's rules.


From then on,
I realised that who I really am now.
And this clearly shows that I have to change to a better human.

HAPPY TEACHERS DAY!
may god bless you.
Especially to my favourite ones:
Mr Ishak, Mdm Rehana,
Mrs Eng, Ms Ang.

I just love yesterday.
I attended school as usual with Twin(r)usdn.
But for that special day, i wore a bright blue half-dress with season faded jean.
I applied make-up & all kinds of accessories, cause Im pretty sure Mr Adam would not care anyway.
AND IM VERY TRUE!

I was involved in helping out on handling food, present it to teachers & backstage help.
It turned out that I had wonderful time with the preformers, Mr Adam & my other peers.
Many commented how stunning I looked. I blushed & thanked them.
But then, some of them pinched my cheek! ouch!!
Even the sec1s.
Backstage, all of us handled delicious food like sushis, pizza, cakes etc.
All of us went so hungry! luckily there's leftovers for us.

Shortcuts, the performance went great & I met my groups at the foyer.
This time, Dayah/LULU!! & her gangs came along.
All were thinking of where to go.

NAK PERGI MANER?
tanyer boss laki ahh..
GI MANER NI?
tanyer boss pompan ahh..

suddenly, all blurted of going to town.
then off we go.
It's been long since we went there.
because it is such a "BASI" place.
HAH!

SUNDAY,

was a day to remember.
the fun I had, the tiredness I carried.
Overall I'm fully grown satisfied!

Early in the morning,
I had to force myself up & get ready for the BIG DAY.
I had to attend My cousin's wedding
AND...
The twin's small sister birthday party.

By 11am I reached Woodlands b617.
I did not realised that my mouth went half-open as I admired my surroundings.
It was totally grand & the facilities and decorations are all high-class.
I found out that my handsome cousin spent $20 000 on all of those.
The catering was fabulous and the food are deadly delicious.
I sign on the guestbook accompanied with wishes.
NOT TO FORGET! dikir barat was sent to that location.
Media mass casa was invited as Djs & unexpected celebrities was there too.


Shortcuts, I went to the twin's small sister birthday party ard 5pm.
Raf, Sugarddy, Hafizkhan, Wakfian, Farhan & his girl came.
Received goodie bags & participated in Lucky Draw.
how sad.. (R)usdn's ex finished off most of the prizes!
*sob sobs*
reached home ard 9pm AND.....

TADA! I never attend school today. (:

Looking at myself in the mirror,
I sensed that the crisis identity had nearly ended.
I finally learnt myself
& slowly discovered my true identity.
Satisfied, I gave a heavenly smile & walked off.

I dropped myself on the white silky sands,
Raf came & we naturally put our hands to work!
Guess what we did?
A sand castle & a sand sculpture of human dying.
It was so eye-catching that I ran to my other peers,

& blurted " Tadaaa!! Look what we did!! "

Am so proud of it. Thanks to Raf's creative hands.
But in the end, we had to leave behind our creations
as we need to catch waves badly.
AND!! it was destroyed by those pure loosers
volleyball asses!! *sobs sobs*

And ..
My stomach was like 0/10.
Guess what 7eleven sold to us?
A cheapskate Nasi Lemak.
The worst part was to discover that
the egg was so small, enough to feed a baby!
And the chicken is dead cute.
Not enough to fill my bigfuck tank.

And this tells me that I need to grab some food right now~

A Sweet As Maple Syrup.. Day.

I conclude that I & her is hard to be apart.

We are like a dry stone wall,
Stone of us fit closely together && no cement.

Digeridoo was played as we both sank deep into our own dream.


And so, Today.. I did my Maths & Ss paper.
Truly did not expect that it could turn out simple.
The fear I had in me faded away & little amount of confidence was born.
But.. that did not mean I will pass with flying colours.

Plus,
Tomorrow I will be doing my geography,
Better get going now !!

GIVE IT UP TO ME ...

Finally ! Back to my boisterous way of life.
And beats is what exists in my soul.
Sean Paul will always be my sexy voice idol ! haha !

After all those explorations I had covered in the world of music
especially Rock. Even those piddling details. There are many subs in Rock & divided into different kinds of genres. Not to forget those fully - fashioned clothes.

And Rock is still in season !


Today, I decided to chill at my crib.
Covered my most boring routine which is eat, sleep, com, tv, eat, sleep, com, tv. If not I would sms & sms & sms.
But..
Food is what matters to me most !
I gobbled up 3 plates of rice, 2 bags of potato chips & 1 stick of ice cream.
Thank god I'm not fat ! haha !

What should I have for my next meal? hmm !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

Before bragging on the happy issues,
im
TOTALLY DISSAPOINTED
for this year National Day celebration with my school.
It was not amusing & satisfying compared to last year.

The weather toned like a human's lugubrious voice, poured a slow & steady rainwaters. I could not even hear what the speaker wanted to say.

Stupid!

At least,
I got to entertain myself playing with those man-made fake hi-5 hands made for easier & noisier thunder of clappings. Plus! a not-so-wonderful goodie bag. haha !

As Khairi passed the goodie bag to me, his face seemed pale.

I wonder how's that rawker's life right now.

The remaining time was spent with my special friends.

The twin;
instead of slacking @ Esplanade with some pure loosers,

he's watching fireworks later with his big brother. Aww.. That's sweet!

I will spent the rest of my night with my family.
WHICH COMES FIRST!


TOODLES!

Whatever that had happened today,
was more like a slippery dream.

Those tintinnabulation was heard across my mind clearly.
I could still imagine those smooth drifting waves.

I trully enjoyed Sugar, the twin & Ruff's company.
How am I to express how fun I felt to spend time with them? Especially to the one I cared most? Mainly because :

It is difficult to unravel complex human emotions.

The place we went ? Err . It's a secret !!

Tmrw my school is celebrating NATIONAL DAY.
With the public. lols.
GOODNIGHT

When someone hates you, there is reasons behind it .
It is worst if you are not in the wrong.
It is worser if you are in the wrong.

YOU are the one who intend to create enemies.
YOU are the reason that create haters bindweed.

It may be by your unacceptable attitude,
full blooded argument between both parties;
BECAUSE OF YOU,
or by your wrong doings/decisions etc .

It's time that you need to turn over a new leaf.

Unless you intend to remain the way as it is.

Today, nothing unusual happened .
Only that I did a hybernating job on bed.
I woke up at 11am & continued back at 2pm till 7pm.
I don't know what made me so awfully tired that I desperately needed tonnes of rest. When I tried to sit facing the mirror, my mind did a wild spin & my whole body collapsed.

SO RESTLESS .

CLOUD NINE .

Went out with one of the twins! (R) usdn .

Sheltered fully with happy moments.
Even though his ex; Setan binte Iblis, kept calling & distracting him.
Even though a little amount of jealousy is filling me.
I understand & understood.
It's a part & parcel of life to overcome breakups .


Yesterday, I did my English N Level Prelim Paper.
It was quite tough as my comprehension skills is rusty.
The topic was on Pharaoh : The ruler of ancient Egypt.
Discovery on Mummies. Interesting .

After that, I & my buddies catched the Movie "Click" .
A nasty, emotional & stomach-breaking movie!
It thought me to value the life I had to lead.


Till then.
CHEERS .

HAISSH...
I hate today.
Seriously .
Feeling like decontaminating that shit.

Not worth to be identified as a human. A shit who do not wish to blend a harmonious relationships between every races of our schmates.
After sch, I hung out with my friends.
As usual, we stopped by a study point @ rc. This time, without premonitory symtoms; Ray, Fadhilah & a guy dropped by. Followed by Patmah & Afai. Then.. Dayana. All putting on a long face. I'm sure that the main character involved is Nab--- . They're going to talk things through. Like my case that had been preoccupying me lately. Stewpid rumours & accusations. can't be bothered!
CHILD'S PLAY!

Plus, prelims is starting tomorrow.
Goodluck peeps.
MWAHHS!

FUCK , FUCK, FUCKING DAY .
I withdrawed a lopsided grin,
slammed the car door shut
& dragged myself into the school compound.
As I entered the classroom, almost every single of my classmates stared at my pale face like as if I'd just consumed a Scrumpy.

I woke up late today.

Thanks to Dad's powerful voice to blink my eye.

I pitied that Twin for waiting for me to arrive whilst Im lying on my bed, still caught up in my fantasy world. Moreover, what teacher had thought during lessons was like a lullaby to me.
Plus, 2 fugly pimples appeared on my face! I simply can't bring myself infront of the mirror.
Fuck, I never had this fuck,fuck,fucking figures before. I'm feeling ugly.

F.Y.I : That twin had a new haircut today, the way i like it (:


CHEEROS IDIOTS!

Saturday, was great.
Went out with one of the twinbrothers.
We had high quality fun hanging around jurong point & causeway point. He was so grateful to get his mobile phone back from Nokia centre. Although we did not spend our time for 24hours, I truly enjoyed each other's company.

Today dated 1st of August,
I did not attend school simply because I'd consumed viruses causing my nose to be deadly distrupted since Sunday.

On Sunday, my whole family caught ourselves in Sentosa.

Both my brother & brother-in-law are involved in Soccer Tournament held near Pahlawan Beach. Since they could not got into finals, we used the remaining time taking pictures, playing the drifting waves & had a wonderful picnic!

Thanks to mum for the homemade food.

Deadly delicious. (:

Due to those waves & cold weather, Im gifted with sickness. Well, overall I don't regret upon my doings, as long I am satisfied.

Besides that, I'm worried about my bestfriend's situation.
We both agreed that to let the problems be.

"Why look out on others' mistakes when you yourself is not perfect?"

Think twice homosapiens.
Cheeros idiots (:

Happy Birthday To Me, Rose Idariza. (:


First & Foremost, I want to thank these listed peoples for taking troubles to wish me a happy birthday one-on-one.

-rNNe
-Hidayah
-Ian
-Rusdan
-Toyol
-Fared
-Glenn
-Ynaes
-Vithya
-Wenny
-Sugardaddy
-Huda
-Diyannah
-Azhar
-Arina
-Khaleeq
-Ubai
-Khalil
-Rizal
-Haikal3nc
-Zairie
-Nuraisah
-Siva
-Ikiin
-Nelly
-EvilBoy
-Akel&Gang
-My Sister
-Parents
-Sec2GirlGangs.
-SomeSec3s.

ETC! there seems to be alot. I don't want to grind my brain anymore.

Mdm Rehana, my form teacher remembered my Birthday & she wished me in the early morning. That's totally sweet. During Chemistry class, she brought me foward facing all my classmates & they began to sing me a Birthday song. Cool, even though i'm not willing to stand & stared. The followng day, she gave me a present.

On Friday,

My friends decided to bring me to watch Nacho Libre!

Sooo funny. I occupied seats between Sugardaddy & Rusdn. We bought popcorns, 4 medium cups of water, 1 sausage & 2 potato chips in total.. Blewed away many bucks.
After hanging out with them..

My parents treated me @ Bagus IMM.

Met rNNe's mother & introduce my family to her. Had a short chat & I;m off digging! I had Garlic Bread, Rojak & Tomyam Soup. My other family members had 2 meals each. From Laksa to Beef Noodles, Bolognese Spagetti & such. I wonder how much we spended on overall!
But it seems that I'm having a great time this week. (:

I'm feeling nauseous lately til yesterday I had to take an early leave home.

I wonder what's wrong with me.

I didnt even had the luxury of time to spend on surfing the net. Guess I'd been too busy burying myself in piles of hws. Tooo much of accounting & Ptolemy's Geocentric model of the universe. I had to hold on, even if my head somehow hurts.

Besides that, I MISS THEM.

There are so many inponderables that is impossible to make an accurate prediction of how much & why I miss them. :(
Maybe they're just too special to me?

Not sure.

I got to spend cute quality time with them today. We had sooo much laugh on the topics we brought & made out.
I was just moaning about having a stomach ache when suddenly sugar spit topics about Shit! from there we talked about our childhood experience on how we used to passed out & such. Haha! Taklehh anngss. Then to all kinds of stupid topics.


After that, One by one went off seperate ways & we're down to me, sugar, Ruff & Rusdn. Send sugar home & I'm left with Rusdn & Ruff. It became more peacefull & I headed home, leaving them both behind. I need to brush up my studies & my mother wanted me home to accompany her for urgent mattters.
How sad I can't attend today's Interact meeting,
Im hoping they would understand.

I tried soo hard to draw a smile even though Im crying inside. Dayah's no longer belong to our group. She had moved on with her life with Glenn's group. One by one leaving us behind. Yesterday, Ruff decided to leave us for a while to accomplish his task in observing. Even though I dont want him to leave badly, I just have to swallow the sorrow & wish him goodluck. :(
I can only fully depend on ramdhan, faRED & the twins: Rusdan&Rusydi. I realised that all of them starts with letter R. Even my lovely Bestfriend : rNNe. besides that are all my other friends, classmates which are there to hold me on. soo thankfull.
Today was a great day. For today's P.e Lesson, I played badminton with rNNe. Gossh, totally tiresome! Instead of smacking the shuttlecock to London, she landed it to Paris! Get it?? But overall, it's a wonderful game.
I urged myself to be more attentive in class & forced myself to do my homework. I realised, im beginning to get used to it. Only one negative trash I've done today is.. nt to complete my essay for Rehearsals. Dammiits. Well, The rest of the day, I managed to spend quality time with my buddies. And now I know 'who love who'. KIKIKI. (:
7 CUTE DAYS TO SWEET SIXTEEN. lollllss.

SO HAPPY. (:

after sch, we went to alazahar to eat.
a friend of mine treat the group of US, since she got her pay. yiiippee!. We grabbed a heavy meal & some tasty bites of murtabak. overall, we concluded that claypot mee is the tastiest dish on our table.
Library became our next hotspot destination, since i needed to borrow a couple of books. Thats when the strangest thing happened. I went to search for a malay fiction book when all of a sudden two cute Yussofian boys appeared beside me. They've been tagging along behind me since I entered wm. When they got nearer, I went further away. They've been whispering, staring & figgiting for 5mins when suddenly Sugardaddy appeared & cut off the scene. It's not the first time, they've been doing this @ sch too. Superrweeeirdd.
Before I set off home, I managed to spend time with Ruff & we shared our secrets & problems. I told him off how weird it is, a friend of Ruf..sec 4 guy.. simply to have a crush on me. I just cant accept the fact & trying to take it as a joke. we spot rasul's geng playing st & they were like teasing me off about something. hurhur. whereas at night, a friend of mine dropped by my house & used computer. Sooo glad that to day turned out great. Toodleeess. muacks~

NO USE MAKING ME JEALOUS.
dont be such a big fuck.
i never ever cared.

HATE ME ALL YOU WANT.
just realise u're bangla bitches.

LOVE ME ALL YOU WANT.
may god bless you.

WHEN U GOSSIPED TOO MUCH,
IT SHOWS THAT:
u're one potential person;
to join makbedahs' club & rot.

NO USE ACTING GOOD.
because u're not the only one.

NO USE SHOWING OFF UR GUY.
as if he's the best one ard.
nobody ever bothers.

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I HATE THIS. (:

There are a number of reasons that people lie. The first is fear. This is the most common reason that people may lie, and they are taking shelter from a perceived punishment. It may be because they know they have done something wrong a single time, in which case it is not compulsive lying. But if they are always in fear of being punished, it may become a habit, which is a second reason for lying. In this case, it may become compulsive lying, which is lying by reflex. Even when confronted by the truth, they insist the lie is the truth in this case. A third case is learning to lie through modeling. When a people see others lie, especially when they get away with it, they may become more prone to lying. Finally, people lie because they feel if they tell the truth they won't get what they want. Thus, out of the main reasons for lying, only lying by habit can truly be called "compulsive lying."

I WONT BE UPDATING MUCH. IM DEAD SICK.

Love Defined
A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness.

A feeling of intense desire and attraction toward a person with whom one is disposed to make a pair; the emotion of sex and romance.

Perhaps, the most important of Divine Laws is the 'law of love.' Put simply, "Love is Law, Law is Love." This amounts to the same thing as "the gift of giving" without the hope of reward or pay, or serving others. When you do the right thing for others you receive gifts in unexpected ways. Paradoxically, those who help you may not be those you help. The help you receive may come from surprisingly distant connections.
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The guy will say :
"My lady's presence makes the roses red."
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IM HAVING A VESTED INTEREST
IN MAKING THAT BLACK GIRL ASHAMED.
Since she spread rumors abt me like lightning.
I strenuously denied the accusations,
but i won't ever raise a white flag.
EVEN IF I HAD ENOUGH TILL TODAY.
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Today, i hung out with my group.
But we're terribly dirty - minded.
ALL DIRTY TOPICS U CAN THINK OFF.
Bullshits. They kept teasing me.
If not this guy, it will be..
that guy. Sniffs Sniffs. (-.-"
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LESSON TO LEARN:
ONCE U THINK U'RE GOOD,
ALWAYS THINK THERES SOMEONE
BETTER THAN YOU. (:
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PS: im starting my dance course back this july.
Just for one cute month.
This time, two new guys are joining in from
marsiling; as breakdancers. xD

For the love of money is the root of all evil: which while some coveted after, they have erred from the faith, and pierced themselves through with many sorrows.

U may spend all your money on useless branded stuff. When u know u just belong to a normal family, which parents need a helping hand. But u showed - off instead.
For the life of mine, Im lucky to be born fortunate. To have a beautiful experienced married sister, A handsome talented brother, A hardworking parents & certainly a car, money, two cribs to satisfy me. (: But im never like THOSE.
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BACK TO SCHOOL, FINALLY.
SCHOOL IS BETTER THAN WORKING.
IF ONLY I CAN NEVER GROW OLD. (:
I tried my very best to focus on every lessons.I give a naive & simplistic approach to Maths especially. Since it's the most important & labelled as one of my weak subjects; even though i scored well at times. This brings me vexation. (-.-"
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Some "minah pukimaks" thought that since i'd written my english horribly, im a worst fucking writer. hell, they don't even know, i'm in a hurry & i badly need to study. they said, im still a kid. BUT DONT THEY REALISED?
THEY'VE BEEN A FUCKING KID BEFORE TOO? (:
Maybe they are way more geekier! "lebih kental nak mampos!" I even looked at my sister's & brother's photos last time when they're younger. zaman taik.
too bad they didn't get to feel the enjoyment we had now as a young teenager. we have better learning center. We're so lucky, unlike them. They had to think of ending their teenage life & start a family. Safe money & such.
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LESSON TO LEARN:
BEFORE U LOOK ON OTHER PEOPLE,
LOOK AT YOURSELF IN THE MIRROR.

- Sat like an itchy maggot,
on the last seats at cinema;
I & the chickenns aliveeee.
Watched "SCARY MOVIE 4"
Ya Allah! I cant stop laughing xiass!
DISGUSTING & i'm disgusted.
But it's worth a laughing stock.
Moreover, there's ladies ctg bside me.
Basket btol, mcm hyena terbiar!
" Tampar, terbang .. "
Even it's not at ALL FUNNY,
they still laugh! errrrrrrrr..
I went " What the fish? "
Why r they so dodo?
Luckily, i can still cope with it.

Back home, i scribbled on my notepad.
letting it out with a heavy heart,
" It's IMPORTANT to have ..
SOMEONE u can confide with"


But i didn't have any. Even if i do have, it's just not the right person to confide with. I let out my emotional crippling problems but they will find a way to disembark & disentangle from it! some will walk in when the whole world had walked out & imagine they were in my shoes & result me some advices. But somehow, a problem like im having, they 're not the right shoe size for this.
When im on phone with them, tears start rolling down even before i manage to start to tell. Instead, we drifted to diff kinds of topics .. magically, i end up laughing; forgetting my problems. but still, i need a listening ear.

: catched the "Silent Hill" movie. (^.^)v

:thanks gdfthr fo treating me the tickets.

- some scenes r similar to R.Evil {cool}
- vulgarities bringing us bonkers.
- disgusting to maximum xias. {ewws}


Also, got great comments from friends & fams.
Though it's not easy to cope with short hair. xD
{ two thumbs up }

HALF HAPPY.
- i went for a haircut & it rock.
- mum bought me a sch converse shoe worth $60. (: inner pink, outer white.
- a few earings & studs. black & pink, yeyysss.

3/4 HAPPY.
wanne thank these ppls for keeping me entertained this few days in msn:
- Fauzi
- Godfather {play game, i won!}
- Azrie
- Aisha { thanks for the advices!}
- Khaleeq
- Syahmi { comments! }
- Ahzai
- Yayah { care&concern! }
- Syafiq
- Rafie { thanks for the advices! }
- Khalil
- Haikal { bug me for my secret! }
- Songeh
- Wanslash { entertainer! }
- Nazri
- Radzie { fun! }
- Haizal
- Ifwat { fun! }
- Khairi
... ETC ...
BECAUSE MY GOODY FRENS ARE ON HOLIDAYS.
hope they come back soon, safe & sound.

If only love can be further elucidated to explain the truest meaning of it.
If only a human can predict when true love will come by knocking.
If only a weak human can bear the insupportable pain of love.
If only every human can use philter on their crush, but its wrong.

Even the most phlegmatic individual would get stressed out under such pressure.

I realised, I'm self - inflicted. Im causing, projecting my problems myself.
I cant open to public my soaking problems yet, but I will; SOON.

Anyway, lately im addicted to the "Gol" Video Clip shown on Suria Channel featuring a star - studded cast. well, it simply rawks both my eyes & ears. Sheikh Haikel dressing is way too cool. (:

School Matters have yet to settle;
Rumours begun to spread slowly. All because of Nabila the *****. Seriously, is it wrong to be close friend with a guy? Not wrong right? So, "Why so DODO!?" Just because we're all close, doesn't mean we're an item. And theres' no proof that either of us are attached with another. Just bug off!

Today, I killed my time underblock & playgrd with Riki, even though im not feeling well. Toodles.

How to explain some things that are unexplainable?
How to describe feelings that are undescribable?

Totally SPEECHLESS.
In the middle of nowhere.

Seriously, Im trying hard to disentangle myself from this huge mess.
A huge mess of love & reality.
It's really terribly horribly complicated.

today, is extremely boring. Fared & Dayah working @ Boonlay.
I just spend my time building sandcastles in the air.

Events like Today is what i called, SATISFACTION.

I went with Fared & Godfather to {} to pick up Dayah.
It's a stupid moment because, we believed Godfather's words that her arrivals are located @ terminal 1. So, we boarded a skytrain to Terminal 1; for NOTHING. why? Because I checked with the Information counter, We supposed to go to the Terminal 2 & boarded the Shuttle Bus to get to Dayah. Nice.. we're nearly out of time!
Off we go, running like as if we're in the "Amazing Race". Lucky us, we're on time for her to arrive.

Sweet & vivacious girl she is, she bought me a bracelet, made from Thailand, chewing gums & a Rose. (:

Lesson Learnt: Never to believe Godfather's whenever we end up in Airport.

Afternoon, we went to j.east complex. 3 words, fun fun fun !
This time, we're off with : Rusdan, Rusdi, their cousin. Including Dayah.
It is fully packed with all kinds of race & age. A great sight seeing.

two thumbs up. (:

It's not only of having a cute , romantic, humorous, understanding, honest guy.
I kept wanting, if only theres' a guy;
- who touch my heart softly, cos he don't want me to get hurt.
- who accept my world & combine with his'.
- who brings my fav. candies instead of chocolates.
- who look into my eyes, says.. "I'm Sorry" & mean it.
- who never argue but discuss instead.
- who brings me home everytime but not everyday.
- who take me as i am now, not as i was before.

But what i want, can't always be fulfilled. But it's possible. I know, there will be this certain guy who have all of this out there. If only, i found him. If its' not now, who knows in the future without realising it? But i just can't confirm that anyway.two thumbs down.

I waited, filled with nervous anticipation. Finally,
It's the world cup time ! 2006. two thumbs up.

Midnight.

I'm no soccer connoisseur but i'll be supporting : Brazil (:
Ronaldo? Roberto carlos?

My husband will be joining world cup too, guess who ?
Raul Gonzales, of course. muacks & huggies;
to specially him.

My friend some supports Italy though. Some says Christiano etc.

Im in no mood today, seriously. Without Dayah, Rafi, im lost.
I killed my time with Godfather & fared. atleast, we had interesting conversation.
And i met that Kewell too. well, i dont think thats enough for me.

" Soccer, the antidote to Stress "

Minah tudung.

If only i can petition the Islamic authority to remove irrelavent verbiage from this typical minah tudungs.
Please, " Search your souls & be punctilious " ; Seriously.

Today is what i call a " Purblind" day. I & Dayah waited for IMM bus, impatiently.
Whilst waiting, 3 minah tudungs appeared before us. aged ard 14. They kept staring at us without fail.
The way they stared, : "kalau tampar, terbang sak ke london". I felt so distracted.

when we got to slowly hopped on bus, they're standing behind us which makes me so infuriated.
They blurted loudly, " naseb sia kita muder, ble dirik. klu tua, da mampos sak! hahaha! "
" ah - ah sak. kiter pon baik, tutop aurat, pakai tudong. bukan macam .. paham2 eh, hahaha! "

what the fish.

Such an inglorious act. So what if u wear a scarf & i dont ? when u showed unacceptable character & actions.
behaving badly in public & critisizing the older us. Such a big fat shame.
At the IMM mall, they're almost eveywhere we went. can't they just bug off ! Grr.

Atleast, we get to shop at Hot bun, Old Chang Kee, Sweetalk, Burger King. Food is my boyfriend. (:

And, i grab a heavy bite at coffee shop, mee hoon goreng. yummy yum yum. Off to westmall to blow our minds away. this time with Red & Godfather. Drop by Red house & off to Bbtk east Macdees.

Dayah leaving tmrw to Thailand. Two thumbs down.