sial habis.

what EVER just happenned today simply SUCK.

i'm so hating some of my schoolmates.they're a bunch of pretenders and cronies.i don't know why they're wasting their precious time bitching around,gossiping.even some bitches hates me for hell NO REASON.weird but true.

she rolled her eyes when she saw me, slammed the toilet door hard, thinking i was afraid of her.well actually, i don't bother.

i did not purposely came late to school,
and i'm trying my best for all my subjects,

AND I HATE BEING FORCED AND ORDERED BY PEOPLE,
AND I WANT PEOPLE TO STOP BUGGING ME & MY OWN PRIVATE LIFE.

i have my own rights. remember, it's my life.
HMMM..


well anyway, i did this just now. kinda bored actually.

Oh God of almighty.

sucha sticky weekend.

i've piles of assignments to complete & loads of events to attend for 2 consecutive days! probably one of the most tightest schedule which left me gutless,fatigued.

Moreover, MY BODY WAS BADLY DONE WITH by those fucking mosquitoes gang. i can't help scratching my legs! argh.. even NOW. -.- been badly BITE-D by since last wednesday night. Sighs.

Atleast ppls inside the Mrt just now did not realised it! Infact, i wore the concept of indierock. I guess most are amused and appreciatte the style.

And yeah.. At TM, there's TOO MANY HOT GUYS LAAAAA.. woosssh. all kinds of concept, NAME IT.. ALL R GENUINELY HOT. I told Refdee all about tit but he did'nt wanne listen. HAHAHA. Back to the story, many ppl stared at me like i'm one SUPERSTAR. HAHA. SERIOUSLY,JAKUN. Then, I received a total of 8 SMSES at one shot whilst i'm in mrt, ipod-ing. HAHA. 1st time.=\ HAHA.

hmm.. i'm tired. i guess i'll bounce. have a great weekend : D

never say i love yoo
if u really don't care.
never talk about feelings
if they are'nt really there.
never hold my hand
if u're going to break my heart.
never say u're going to
if u don't plan to start.
never look into my eyes
when all u do is lie.
never say hello
if u mean goodbye.
if u mean forever
then say u will try.
never say forever
cause forever makes me cry.

You know it suck when u're badly disparaged by people around you.

To receive such disparaging even an innocuous remarks, I TAKE IT SERIOUSLY.

stop it sey!

I had enough of people who look lowly of me. hate me? I DON'T CARE?!?
like as if you're god damn perfect?

hmm..


for now. i guess i'm more worried about my homeworks and mr refdee hidayat.

the four chambers of my heart was deeply enclosed today.

things have not happened the way I wanted.

supposed to shop at Bugis with Zamry, but he had to attend to his friends for soccer.thankfully, he still sent me there(: He mentioned that Shamir has found a new girl. too bad, i did not even care even a bit.(:

I met up with fahreena & Farhad instead.i waited for them at Orchard mrt.

long after, i found out that Farhad got drunked when he fumbled drunkenly with the keys he's holding and difficulty in saying something.

we sadly headed home.

But yeah, atleast, I got to chat over phone with Refdee for five solid hours.(: His computer laa.alamak.spoiled sey.pfft!

Now I can't msn with him for the meantime.

Feeling etiolated yet blessed(:

You know why?

well.


because a kind lady and a kind religious man each offered me a share under one umbrella just now.SO BLESSED! God bless them for their good deeds.if not for both of them,i'll be fucking drench by now. (:

changed into a more simpler skin. because I like it being simple nowadays. haha.

no flowers,no stripes,no stars, no nothing.
hate it or love it, up to you(:

so yeah. feel free to tag!

HMMM..

1. I want to buy a new skirt.
2. I want to buy a new Osmose top.
3. I want to buy a new swimming suit.
4. I want to buy a new haversack bag.
5. I want to buy a new cutex (healthy pink & bronze).

and on top of all; I want to buy a new mobile phone!

Well..Still browsing down the new arrivals list.. till one precious mobile captures my heart.

Now I've collected enough cash & finallised my shopping list.For this week.. I'll be buying a new skirt & Osmose top. whoossh! I can't wait~ =))

I MISS REFDEE SO MUCH(: ..

I'm tired of the naggings I have to inhale.
-EVERY SINGLE DAY, EVERY SINGLE NIGHT-

I could'nt help myself but to throw my food away down the sink.
I'm sorry I can't be the daughter like you've imagined.
I'm sick of it.Nough said.

Now my computer purposely leaves me fuming and I have to use the laptop instead.What's wrong with the people and objects in this house?! GRR! Thank god I'm not born with stupid mindset, or you'll be seeing me, dead.

HMMM...

what should I post for today?

• today's weather?; suck to the core.
• today's mood?; bored to the core.
• today's schedules?; tight to the core.

I had tonnes of Maths homework to complete!Immediately after the YISS bell goes off,I straight away went back home like one GEEK hungry for homework!haha.

Thanks to my inseperable companions ((= for teaching me Maths. & of course! my beautiful tutor.

Now I can't upload my recent pictures.-.- terribly upset.MSN was and is fugging boring.must have been those MONDAY BLUES.

SIGHSSSSS. -.-

PEOPLE.i'm back!from two places.
- causeway point.
- night class for teenagers.

i'm so tired after all those walkings and such.supposed to accompany my dear friends celebrating good friday at Bugis but hell,all cancelled!bueys jer banyaks.tsk tsk.my dance mates are much more appreciated.accompanied reena and nora to Causeway p instead.=) checked out for new clothes and.. i bought a japanese-styled dress.whoos.georgeous.:P
anyway, i kinda found this newly introduced guy named dee.had further chats through msn and hell is so cute!i don't care that he's slightly younger than me.our birthday falls on the same month!no doubts.i simply loooooooooooooveeeeeeeeee chatting with him.:P every single night, no fails.
but of course i love chatting with my other buddies , YUSOFFIANS and gfs.outsiders are like farhad,hidayat,zul,kido!,wan k,am,dj lobs, wawan,mat!nordin,anis etc who is always there to chat with me.others not mentioned, sorry.anyway THANKS.i value it.

IDIOTSS!i'm really really ANGRY right now!mf ASSHOLESS!i dont want to school anymore!i don't want to study!i don't want to eat!i don't want to live!i'm sick of my life.for those who 'destroyed' me,THANKS EY! i hope you a fuggin happy to see me miserable.takde hati perut langsung!
i just got back from having practices at a unit near causeway point, tired.. happy..hungry.. sleepy.. and bad news suddenly aroused.my mum checked my friendster WITHOUT MY PERMISSION.wth!do you know how it feels to have your parents barged in your damn PERSONAL LIFE?seriously,i hate it! she purposely throw my clothes around the room and mess with my drawers.wth! im so tired cleaning up my room everyday okay!and i hate untidiness. i cant stand it! and i loss my bloody uni! arghhs.
besides,i guess i'm being too nice to guys!i regret that doing to some guys.now, don't dream i would be so nice to you guys.i CARE TOO MUCH and in the end, what u gave me?

1. this guy, if i don't sms, he won't sms!
2. this guy, tak pasal - pasal tak contact ,ada mataye. wth.
3. this guy, is actually attached! OMG!
4. this guy, too boring.
5. this guy, gets angry easily. sighs.
6. and this guy, tak pasal - pasal confused for no reason!, pastu lost contact.maybe he found someone new.and..he.. is the one i truly LOVE.sighs.

this is what i get.and for all this guys,i have to reject other guy's offer just because that i'm heartbroken.they acted nonchalant and happy whereas i'm here suffering like hell! nevermind, loosing them is no biggy.ok atleast they taught me something.not to be serious about LOVE.FOR NOW.

Feels like surrendur-ing myself & be the dead!i hate the month of march.its suck-ed the heaven out of me.every minute is hellish.=( hopefully,april will be better.i had enough of shits.some boys makes those shits!cikgu da macam tailong homework.sighs.maybe by now my friends will be awfully tired of hearing me grumbling,mumbling,complaining over such shitty matters.
my degree.. has gone up to 38.7.it's really high.i took half-day rest on the bed.no fan,no sweets,no entertainment.i badly need to get myself sweaty & healthy.yesterday night,i met up with anis.i gave back his jacket that i borrowed for 2 months.i really gonna miss that jacket. =( whenever im cold,i hold on to it.now, just forget it.anyway,i better go.i'm hungry!