Dang -.-""" im off to work in 20 mins time . and there will be super little staff today. nura and i was back to normal. and so is heiqqel . i still avoid him though, he's the cause im having cold shoulders with haili now. thanks -.-


and, i lost my extention and my earpiece .
best eh.

update more soon.

i cant do this T_T
feels like breaking down now.
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idc whats gonna happen. all i know is to avoid u both. heiqqel,nura, im sorry. -.-
u both wants to end the friendship anyway.like FINE.

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today was bad.
today was sway.
today was heartbreaking.

first thing in the morning i dropped customer's food~
i tried to balance the chilli sos bottle rolling on the tray.
ended up i dropped the garlic bread on my left hand.
one of my foot was like hanging in the air.
so yehh, silly me -.-"""
MANAGER CAME IN,
he was saying, ROOOSSSEEEE ! THATS EMBARASSINGG YKNOW !!
(like duh -.-)

when i was about to go home, 3 mats dine in.
they saw me and screamed , EHHH NAK BALIKK!?? NAK BALIK!?? NAK BALIK!!??


.......

so yeah. pathetic.

i was so upset yest nite .
why should i loose her just because of rumours ?
nura , dont get the wrong idea ok ? im not having something on with heiqqel !
like whaaaaaaaaaa ? SIAPA NAK DIA PUN ! -.- ""
how could i ever betray you ? youre my bestie , and i know that you like him . =\
i kept saying to him to go to you...........
but now, it hurts that he likes me instead of you . i never even waaaaaant that to happen !
haizz -.-

camwhored. kinda lazy wanna to edit. just the frames will do. ^^
kinda bore now . -.-

arghhh ~ =\
i kinda wanna to study today ! but im still not running my fingers on books yet. hmmss and yeah im still left confused till now . i hate of what happened at work, myself, and my behaviour towards ruzz . im sorry ruzz that i acted so weird to you yesterday. u know i know.

anyway, im currently so stuck with love song by sara bareilles . ure listening to it now. thanks to yan star. aweeesomeee -.- .
other current favs ,
devil wears pradas' & mozart seasons' .

wished i was not having this spiritual disturbance everyday of my life...its like my dark secret and little ppl out there knows how miserable i am. and the night before, my mum saw two pontianak going inside and outside of me. i was sleeping, and in that dream, i was nearly RAPED by my guy friend. and when she woke me up in between, i felt my body was SUPER HEAVY, i cant get up! and the next minute, im left unconcious.
i told ruzz about it...and only now i realised i became so different and forgot who he was to me.
and now today's night..........that thing was beside me.



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hate today.

bestie is leaving workplace this july for overseas-ing . :( argh im really sad !! i wont see bestie ever again.
im loosing friends nearly each time. kiki came back today. and i have to guide the new trainees. 4-6. nura, shahrul, rezza, elfee, mos etc left for training at kallang at 6. haziqah, aisyah, kiki, faiz went home. rezza told me that his woodland friend knew me. and after, elfee told that khairul from marsiling sec knew me. which i was wondering who till now.

and yeah, my phone will be hang till this friday. arghhh fuck up bill !!

woohoo ! feels so happy today !!!!
'A' bestie is back working ! (:
finally, after 7 days of not interacting.
haha. ok that was random. ^^
ppl all loved my new hair. mas love me so much cause im very preety in her eyes. lol.
guide our new staff ,nura. we're now like the bestest of friends.
and i heard that cik sukra made stories that im having affair with ____. fuck.

so yeah. pretty much tired now. (: i miss muhd ruzz.
blog soon.

yesterday i bought my contact lenses. i kinda regret it.

and yeah,

recently watched:

1) The Chronicles Of Narnia: Prince Caspian (2008)
2) Hantu Beranak Dalam Kubur The Movie (2008)

i give five stars rating to these both (: u should catch it.

o1. At what age do you wish to marry?
- 24 .

o2.How many children do you want?
- 3 boys. two of them are twins. :B

o3.What I want most now?
- payday !

o4.What are you future plans?
- good job, good guy, good house and be a good wife. (:

o5. If you can have 1 more dream to come true, what will it be?
- to be filthy rich :B

o6.What are you afraid to lose now?
- loves . (L)

o7.Do you believe in being in love forever?
- it never dies.

o8.If you meet someone you love, will you confess to him/her?
- kinda maybe.

o9.How strong (in your heart) can you be?

- not even a bit. im really weak. =\

1o. What are the requirements that you wish from the other half?

- courage.
11.Which type of person you hate most?

- bitchy type.

12. Do you cherish every single of your friendship?

- yeah. but some just dont appreciatte it back and let it go.

13. Do you believe in God?

- like of course.

14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?

- my family.

15. Do you find it necessary to have a boyfriend/girlfriend?

- can be. these are actually part of experiencing , and learning from mistake.
we could understand the opp sex better and knew which are best for us.

16.What do you want your friend to be like?

- someone who can make me laugh, who keeps my secret safe,
and go through thick and thin together.

17.What kind of friend do you hope to be in your friends' eyes?

- a good and trusted one(:
18.Who lives near you?
- ex yussofians, 2 ex boyfriend.

- 19. If you're feeling low one day, who will you go to?

- my loved ones <3
2o.Tell me a secret.

- i slept with seven pillows every night.
and yeah, my 6 year old soft toy kitten. lol.

HELLO MOFOS.
AKU DAH REBOND RAMBUT.
DAN AKU SAKEEEEEET.


see,
vomit, cough, stomach cramps, backache, high fever, block nose, difficulty in breathing
all in one .
especially breathing. my heart feels hard and suffocating.
mum is bad. she feed me so many kinds of medicine. not even one worked after 4 days.
instead it gets worser.
i never had this in my entire life before.
i need a doctor badly.
but mum is still indecisive about that.

what wrong with my life !?
i kept loosing friends each time without my bad.
it fucking hurts ok.
theres always a third person who will always make me loose them.
why are they so mean not to think of what im gonna feel.
they only think abt themselves , their life.

if thats what u did to me, u'll get the same soon.
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today im working as usual. 6-11pm. fuck sitti.
fuck dishwasher. fuck ahwu.
three perfectionist.

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im still having thoughts of rebonding.
should i?

ARGH HAPPYNYEEEERRR!!
AKU NMPK SESEORANG DI DALAM MRT SMLM !!!

(^.^)

thanks for being there for me 'A' .
finally i felt we're like the closest friend once again.
and your younger sibling finally treated me like its own big sister.
(:

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i miss ruzz.

finally, i shed my tears at work!

thanks to that mother of a bitch dishwasher!

plates pecah abeh nk salahkan aku!
ngade ngade mcm sial !

after, i went to office to pack bag uhh , tibe tibe si tua masuk pastu marah aku lagi.
" EH ROSSSEEEEE !! KAO DA LA TAK TAHU TARUK PINGGAN BTOL BTOL!! MANE KAO TARUK UBAT ZAM BUK UH!? ITU HARI KAO PAKAI JE TK TAHU ILANG KE MANA.. EHH!!! CARIK SKRG LAAAAAAAA!!! !!!!!!!!! "

perangai mcm taik gajah.