Love Defined
A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness.

A feeling of intense desire and attraction toward a person with whom one is disposed to make a pair; the emotion of sex and romance.

Perhaps, the most important of Divine Laws is the 'law of love.' Put simply, "Love is Law, Law is Love." This amounts to the same thing as "the gift of giving" without the hope of reward or pay, or serving others. When you do the right thing for others you receive gifts in unexpected ways. Paradoxically, those who help you may not be those you help. The help you receive may come from surprisingly distant connections.
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The guy will say :
"My lady's presence makes the roses red."
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IM HAVING A VESTED INTEREST
IN MAKING THAT BLACK GIRL ASHAMED.
Since she spread rumors abt me like lightning.
I strenuously denied the accusations,
but i won't ever raise a white flag.
EVEN IF I HAD ENOUGH TILL TODAY.
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Today, i hung out with my group.
But we're terribly dirty - minded.
ALL DIRTY TOPICS U CAN THINK OFF.
Bullshits. They kept teasing me.
If not this guy, it will be..
that guy. Sniffs Sniffs. (-.-"
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LESSON TO LEARN:
ONCE U THINK U'RE GOOD,
ALWAYS THINK THERES SOMEONE
BETTER THAN YOU. (:
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PS: im starting my dance course back this july.
Just for one cute month.
This time, two new guys are joining in from
marsiling; as breakdancers. xD

For the love of money is the root of all evil: which while some coveted after, they have erred from the faith, and pierced themselves through with many sorrows.

U may spend all your money on useless branded stuff. When u know u just belong to a normal family, which parents need a helping hand. But u showed - off instead.
For the life of mine, Im lucky to be born fortunate. To have a beautiful experienced married sister, A handsome talented brother, A hardworking parents & certainly a car, money, two cribs to satisfy me. (: But im never like THOSE.
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BACK TO SCHOOL, FINALLY.
SCHOOL IS BETTER THAN WORKING.
IF ONLY I CAN NEVER GROW OLD. (:
I tried my very best to focus on every lessons.I give a naive & simplistic approach to Maths especially. Since it's the most important & labelled as one of my weak subjects; even though i scored well at times. This brings me vexation. (-.-"
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Some "minah pukimaks" thought that since i'd written my english horribly, im a worst fucking writer. hell, they don't even know, i'm in a hurry & i badly need to study. they said, im still a kid. BUT DONT THEY REALISED?
THEY'VE BEEN A FUCKING KID BEFORE TOO? (:
Maybe they are way more geekier! "lebih kental nak mampos!" I even looked at my sister's & brother's photos last time when they're younger. zaman taik.
too bad they didn't get to feel the enjoyment we had now as a young teenager. we have better learning center. We're so lucky, unlike them. They had to think of ending their teenage life & start a family. Safe money & such.
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LESSON TO LEARN:
BEFORE U LOOK ON OTHER PEOPLE,
LOOK AT YOURSELF IN THE MIRROR.

- Sat like an itchy maggot,
on the last seats at cinema;
I & the chickenns aliveeee.
Watched "SCARY MOVIE 4"
Ya Allah! I cant stop laughing xiass!
DISGUSTING & i'm disgusted.
But it's worth a laughing stock.
Moreover, there's ladies ctg bside me.
Basket btol, mcm hyena terbiar!
" Tampar, terbang .. "
Even it's not at ALL FUNNY,
they still laugh! errrrrrrrr..
I went " What the fish? "
Why r they so dodo?
Luckily, i can still cope with it.

Back home, i scribbled on my notepad.
letting it out with a heavy heart,
" It's IMPORTANT to have ..
SOMEONE u can confide with"


But i didn't have any. Even if i do have, it's just not the right person to confide with. I let out my emotional crippling problems but they will find a way to disembark & disentangle from it! some will walk in when the whole world had walked out & imagine they were in my shoes & result me some advices. But somehow, a problem like im having, they 're not the right shoe size for this.
When im on phone with them, tears start rolling down even before i manage to start to tell. Instead, we drifted to diff kinds of topics .. magically, i end up laughing; forgetting my problems. but still, i need a listening ear.

: catched the "Silent Hill" movie. (^.^)v

:thanks gdfthr fo treating me the tickets.

- some scenes r similar to R.Evil {cool}
- vulgarities bringing us bonkers.
- disgusting to maximum xias. {ewws}


Also, got great comments from friends & fams.
Though it's not easy to cope with short hair. xD
{ two thumbs up }

HALF HAPPY.
- i went for a haircut & it rock.
- mum bought me a sch converse shoe worth $60. (: inner pink, outer white.
- a few earings & studs. black & pink, yeyysss.

3/4 HAPPY.
wanne thank these ppls for keeping me entertained this few days in msn:
- Fauzi
- Godfather {play game, i won!}
- Azrie
- Aisha { thanks for the advices!}
- Khaleeq
- Syahmi { comments! }
- Ahzai
- Yayah { care&concern! }
- Syafiq
- Rafie { thanks for the advices! }
- Khalil
- Haikal { bug me for my secret! }
- Songeh
- Wanslash { entertainer! }
- Nazri
- Radzie { fun! }
- Haizal
- Ifwat { fun! }
- Khairi
... ETC ...
BECAUSE MY GOODY FRENS ARE ON HOLIDAYS.
hope they come back soon, safe & sound.

If only love can be further elucidated to explain the truest meaning of it.
If only a human can predict when true love will come by knocking.
If only a weak human can bear the insupportable pain of love.
If only every human can use philter on their crush, but its wrong.

Even the most phlegmatic individual would get stressed out under such pressure.

I realised, I'm self - inflicted. Im causing, projecting my problems myself.
I cant open to public my soaking problems yet, but I will; SOON.

Anyway, lately im addicted to the "Gol" Video Clip shown on Suria Channel featuring a star - studded cast. well, it simply rawks both my eyes & ears. Sheikh Haikel dressing is way too cool. (:

School Matters have yet to settle;
Rumours begun to spread slowly. All because of Nabila the *****. Seriously, is it wrong to be close friend with a guy? Not wrong right? So, "Why so DODO!?" Just because we're all close, doesn't mean we're an item. And theres' no proof that either of us are attached with another. Just bug off!

Today, I killed my time underblock & playgrd with Riki, even though im not feeling well. Toodles.

How to explain some things that are unexplainable?
How to describe feelings that are undescribable?

Totally SPEECHLESS.
In the middle of nowhere.

Seriously, Im trying hard to disentangle myself from this huge mess.
A huge mess of love & reality.
It's really terribly horribly complicated.

today, is extremely boring. Fared & Dayah working @ Boonlay.
I just spend my time building sandcastles in the air.

Events like Today is what i called, SATISFACTION.

I went with Fared & Godfather to {} to pick up Dayah.
It's a stupid moment because, we believed Godfather's words that her arrivals are located @ terminal 1. So, we boarded a skytrain to Terminal 1; for NOTHING. why? Because I checked with the Information counter, We supposed to go to the Terminal 2 & boarded the Shuttle Bus to get to Dayah. Nice.. we're nearly out of time!
Off we go, running like as if we're in the "Amazing Race". Lucky us, we're on time for her to arrive.

Sweet & vivacious girl she is, she bought me a bracelet, made from Thailand, chewing gums & a Rose. (:

Lesson Learnt: Never to believe Godfather's whenever we end up in Airport.

Afternoon, we went to j.east complex. 3 words, fun fun fun !
This time, we're off with : Rusdan, Rusdi, their cousin. Including Dayah.
It is fully packed with all kinds of race & age. A great sight seeing.

two thumbs up. (:

It's not only of having a cute , romantic, humorous, understanding, honest guy.
I kept wanting, if only theres' a guy;
- who touch my heart softly, cos he don't want me to get hurt.
- who accept my world & combine with his'.
- who brings my fav. candies instead of chocolates.
- who look into my eyes, says.. "I'm Sorry" & mean it.
- who never argue but discuss instead.
- who brings me home everytime but not everyday.
- who take me as i am now, not as i was before.

But what i want, can't always be fulfilled. But it's possible. I know, there will be this certain guy who have all of this out there. If only, i found him. If its' not now, who knows in the future without realising it? But i just can't confirm that anyway.two thumbs down.

I waited, filled with nervous anticipation. Finally,
It's the world cup time ! 2006. two thumbs up.

Midnight.

I'm no soccer connoisseur but i'll be supporting : Brazil (:
Ronaldo? Roberto carlos?

My husband will be joining world cup too, guess who ?
Raul Gonzales, of course. muacks & huggies;
to specially him.

My friend some supports Italy though. Some says Christiano etc.

Im in no mood today, seriously. Without Dayah, Rafi, im lost.
I killed my time with Godfather & fared. atleast, we had interesting conversation.
And i met that Kewell too. well, i dont think thats enough for me.

" Soccer, the antidote to Stress "

Minah tudung.

If only i can petition the Islamic authority to remove irrelavent verbiage from this typical minah tudungs.
Please, " Search your souls & be punctilious " ; Seriously.

Today is what i call a " Purblind" day. I & Dayah waited for IMM bus, impatiently.
Whilst waiting, 3 minah tudungs appeared before us. aged ard 14. They kept staring at us without fail.
The way they stared, : "kalau tampar, terbang sak ke london". I felt so distracted.

when we got to slowly hopped on bus, they're standing behind us which makes me so infuriated.
They blurted loudly, " naseb sia kita muder, ble dirik. klu tua, da mampos sak! hahaha! "
" ah - ah sak. kiter pon baik, tutop aurat, pakai tudong. bukan macam .. paham2 eh, hahaha! "

what the fish.

Such an inglorious act. So what if u wear a scarf & i dont ? when u showed unacceptable character & actions.
behaving badly in public & critisizing the older us. Such a big fat shame.
At the IMM mall, they're almost eveywhere we went. can't they just bug off ! Grr.

Atleast, we get to shop at Hot bun, Old Chang Kee, Sweetalk, Burger King. Food is my boyfriend. (:

And, i grab a heavy bite at coffee shop, mee hoon goreng. yummy yum yum. Off to westmall to blow our minds away. this time with Red & Godfather. Drop by Red house & off to Bbtk east Macdees.

Dayah leaving tmrw to Thailand. Two thumbs down.

1.Someone who does not understand art, literature, MUSIC is a complete PHILISTINISM. u should somehow consume phenobarbitone to help urself.
2.Self - centered humans should not be born in this world; Selfishness is a devil's character.
3.Selection of words like " ALAMAK " is " ALLAH & MAK ". better don't make fun out of it.
4.Minahs should search their souls, rather than vending out a stream of invective & killing their times underblock.
5.Minah tudungs should take pride with their scarfs & not take it just as a form of decoration.
6.Mat tappered should eliminate irrelevant verbiage & learn how to dress in a proper way, i guess chopstick legs aren't sexy enough, especially wearing those 3/4 tightpants. develope some virile qualities.
7.Stop giving a slur on my reputation. U ain't no better person to critisize others. Godamnit to Bitches & sluts.
8.Quit acting as if u're fuck gorgeous when u're not. Just be natural; ppl will accept & sees u as a warm beautiful person.
9.No use making ppl jealous as it won't equals to great effects.If me, i won't bother unduly acts. Undress ur eyes.
10.Stop dreaming of marrying ur boyfriend when u know it's UNFORSEEABLE & UNPREDICTABLE.

Hate this humans' undoings. lol.

Went to catch the opening movie of "The Omen".
Glad to say, its day whereas the Satanic son is born into this world;
Number of the devil represents today; 666. (:

Not to forget, my lovely mum birthday, hugs & kisses.

I feel like killing the movie screen ! the way each of them gets' killed got me so petrified.
Its' shocking every now & then. I guess i shouted a number of times whilst Rafi just laughed all the way.

Its' a movie everybody should watch. That son, is way too cute though. Toodles.

Extracted From "Hoobastank - IF ONLY."
i find it really meaningfull to my life..

I thought it wasn't wrong,
To hide from you,
simple truth.

I was scared,
I felt it all along,
But it hurt to much for me, to share.

If only I, had been this blind.
I'd have someone to hold on to.
IF only I, could change your mind,
If only I had known, If only I had you...

Finally understand,
Why things have happened,
And how it all could go so wrong.

Will this pain ever end?
'cause I don't think I can carry on.

Finally, back again to the white screen.

That pic taken yesterday inside my dad's car otw to tampines.

WHOLE DAY OVER THERE.

my cousin got married with a handsome & rich guy. wooowws. she's a teacher & she brought large crowd of her malay students. that's the awfull part becoz they kept disturbing my peace.WORSER STILL, TODAY, my bro caught by an accident! early morning.. ring it goes the telephone. and bro is at the hospital. now he's at home. can't move around even. awful wounds everywhere. my heart went heavy for him, well, he's my bro after all.