Woohoo ! Got myself a new pair of nike air shoe.~~~~ Hahaha. Costed me $109 only ! Hahahahahahaha. Giler giler. No wonder they call it the great Crazy sale. They make ppl go crazy. Hoho. Lucky i didnt buy the Superman Hicut shoes. Isnt worth much. And great discounts from 77th street. Bought a new simple cotton felt jacket. And black khakis. Now I'm sinking in my thoughts on what kind of bag to buy !

i don't get it , why my life evolves around guys who treat me like TRASH.

i showered you with so much care ,
and all you can give me in return is to throw me aside or intermission. i came all the way just to see you , and you left me behind. why can't you see the little things ive done? im a girl okie. My fragile heart is so so so hurt. i have a huge temper , i dont know why i can be this patient. i'm not expecting anything in return , but i just want to see your sense of appreciativeness.

and there's this few guys that are gone now(you know who you are) , seriously pegi lah kau mampos ! SILAKAN ! aku tak heran pun. kau fikir aku nak merayu , terhegeh nak contact kau. anak anak KONEK. nasib mak kau beranak kan kau berkonek. hah ! anyway , life still goes on.

i wish i can say this to syaiful. i do appreciatte whatever he has done for me. but i just can't love him back. i'm tired of his ATTITUDE whenever we talked. Argh GILER BABI SEH ! we just can't click larh. I don't like to be in a serious relationships anyway , which is only gonna hurt me more in the end ! After my Ex left , hes only giving serious a bad name. I dont know how to be serious to love anymore. We're still young, commitment comes later ok.

So yeah. Btw , Yesterday updates. Evening , Vanessa asked me join in dinner, since im at tampines , i went to rasa 21 to slack with Vanessa & her bf Chris. Sat at the smoking table :) Alif joined in for awhile. And Chris's mat motor friends. We spent our time bitching about ppl. Hehehee. Laite at night , accompanied Midah OTP cos she missed the last bus home and have to walk all the way from jurong to bb ! Then OTP with Aie. Then Khai my bestfrend. 4am , i sleep !

i demand a new pair of shoes. i'm bored of my other 8 pairs seriously. this time , maybe i choose DC. the ones from this webbie is fuckface coolshit !
http://store.dcshoes.com/family/index.jsp?categoryId=3436167&cp=3448741.3448757

but we will see aite! i might end up with other brands. that's what always happen around the globe. hahahaha. humans and their fickle mindedness. ish.
anyway my sore eyes yet to recover. i'm so sorry khai i couldnt make it on your bday cel today. it got worser after my RP outing. didn't expect to 'bump' into hazel & ridhuan. and umm , hidayat which i never met for many fucked up years. hahahaha. he's mean now. pfft. and yarh , talked to yasser star & his friend itek was there. it's been long since huh. :)

and oh oh i recommended vanessa adrianne nunis into my workplace. of course, she got it. but she got LOST. hahahaha ! well can't blame her. she doesn't live at bb -.- work is a better place now. hehehehehe.

i ignored school just for work. must be dissapointing in your eyes right?
what can i say. bills are the hindrance. it causes daily restiveness until the day you PAY UP.
and this will go on after you get the next bill. and the next bill.
but i have to blame myself though -.-"

anyway i must not get myself stressed up too much now. Tmrw's khai 19th bday.
after my RP OUTING , im gonna straight meet khai & the rest !

seriously , if anybody triggers me now , i'm gonna explode.

but what can i say , i can't expect much happiness on this temporary place called Earth...one problem after another....it has been this worst eversince last year.

I'm very much disappointed with myself.



my teacher hates me, despises me.



I feel like i wanna walkout the door now.



I don't mind leaving this course honestly speaking. but hey. i know it's an obligation to study. like it or not....
so fyi ive been enduring so fucking hard!!

and oh, bumped into mus this morning after so long and tegured. i realised how much things have changed. but i tell you he's still the bestest buddy i met so far. he knows my pattern most.

Last..... recently met the t.i.p. ( The insanity posse ) crew. I'm of course happy to meet the main ones, nick shaiful and loco hussein kuai2. Just that, i somehow feel that whatever is happening, it's happening tooo fast. That doesnt seems right to me.

Didn't pen down my thoughts for quite awhile. Been so busy. Been so stress. And been so sad.
I must watch 142! But when seyh. I neglected school for 3 days now. Dang ! But i promise i'll go tmrw even though tonight i'll be working my ass off @ 7eleven. My health is so distracted. Haish. And Lets hope Nabilah will extend her working hours & take care of this big baby of hers.

MY HAIR IS JET BLACK NOW ! Hehe.
And im gonna rebond my hair soon enough. Next month.
Mum, Fareena & Mus buddy suggested that i'll look better if i do.
Well unlike perm. Like maggie and makcik. Haha. Unless you have long lengthy hair, looks beautiful if we perm the ends.


Anyway im going out with rushiebaby & family today. bye bye :)

i like u. and im deeply concerned about u. u noe that, kan?
im neither interested in making friends with other guys nor ur mates.
it's ok if you wanna ignore my feelings. i can see that u do ignore these days.
i'll be just fine k. maybe. :(

I bet many ppl will be glad when i say this. Ive
started to reply smses very fast :)
Im no longer SLOW @ replying smses due to daydreaming.
Ive quitted daydreaming already. Hehehe.

I felt so pressured in school today. Fooh~ Seriousshit, Im glad im HOME ! lool.
But, serious serious.
Thanks to my dad, he fetched me & jason from school. We dont have to torture ourselves squeezing inside the mrt. And train rides sure are hypnotic.

1st day of school is a bore. New Yp faces everywhere.
Got lectured bad from Mr Othman. Pending phase tests. I dont know.
Im just not feeling good today. is it monday blues or is it just me? *sighs*

Happy belated new year readers. (:

I see that many ppl claimed it's useless to list out new year resolutions. But as for me, Even if in the end we didnt accomplished it. Atleast, we planned psychedelically. ((:
Kan kan ? Hahahaha.

anyway, FUCK. School's tmrw. My mum bought me a decent hairdye just now. Medium golden chestnut brown. Ok lah tu. Shall dye my hair later. Maybe i'm trimming a lil'. I dont know. Shall see ah.