diary diary dear diary
hello :)
hee.

IM BACK.

using my lappie NOT.
my lappie charger ... is.. spoiled. :(
geeeeeeeeeeeeee

lately... err.
been busy.
raya - ed with ruzz twice.
it was fun. :) but i felt odd at first.
well. to raya with the bedok town ppls & im the odd one out.


but now. today its the second day im w/o him.
*boohoohoo*
he's away to his damn school camp.
urgh. okay. nevermind. one more day to go !

oh oh , tmrw's my chem paper two.
better get studying now. wish me luck peeps !

seriously.
I HAD A BAD NIGHT. :(

i lay on the bed since 10.30pm &
i only find myself, half asleep by 4am that is.
sighs.O level syndrome lah kata kan.

i woke up at 6am to get my i/c from mum and went back to sleep.
& know what, i had this horrible nightmare of a ghost sucking my right neck !
waduh waduh.
next thing i knew, i woke up & its only 6.50am -.-"

&...... HERE I AM.
infront of my lappie screen. 7.15am -.-" heh.
my mind still onto my nightmare thingy.
weird, but i kept looking at myself in the mirror to checkout my neck.
LOLS.

so yesterday,
RUZZ finally............... is back.
he's actually at his damn cuzz's house lah for the past two days.
sshesh dia. :(


but but but. hold on.
i get to MEET HIM :)

met his cuz & himself of course di cityhall.
heh it was ok lah no worries.
the sweetest part was when i board the train home &
he said those 'three letter words' to me. :D

inside the train, there's these BIG group of guys in raya clothes occupying alot of seats.
say, around 15 guys? and ouh, one miserable girl. lols.
as usual, they attracted attention.
as for myself, i rolled my eyes. heh.

but sadly, they're still with me till jurong mrt station. and we both ALSO had to transfer to the middle platform.
took the middle train ..... & i had many empty seats avail around me ! OH...........NO. sucker -.-"
aper lagi, they ol semua duduk lah. infront, left, right. -.-"
& the most irritating two guys in white kurung quickly sat beside me & smiled.
with the psp ol, attracted every of my attention, i dont care abit lor.

ALL I CARED ABOUT IS MY OS NOW ! =[ alright. i better go.

hello hello.
IM BOOOOOOOOOOOORRREEEDDDDD !
lol.

just got back from tamp mall. never bought much.
just these one red ferrari watch & black long sleeves.
cut my hair yesterday ! trust me, its aaaaaaaaaaaa.. disaster !
thanks to that .. err .. talkative woman who cuts my hair ! hah.


ruzz did not contact me for. say, 1 1/2 day?
boohoo*
i wondered what ACTUALLY happened.
not replying my smses & not even online.
rose miss dia lah :(


thursday will be. my sci prac. fuck it. -.-"
im not prepared. i mean i am prepared.
but not prepared to face the damn experiment.
i will turn totally & I MEAN TOTALLY DUMB wennit comes to physics.
really. -.-"
shesh i wish i dont have to take Os.but sadly i will. boohoohoo.

my hair was actually long. just that its short on the front (:

shessh. stress nye aku :(
been studying like a geek lately.

im left with 11days to my O paper.
which is my combined sci practical.
fcuk it.
NO RAYA CELEBRATING 100% !
shessh.

& friday will beeeeeee myyyyyyyyyy.
GRADUATION DAY !
yippppppp.

of course, my conduct will be poor. -.-"
due to my attendence that is.

& & my prelim results.
I DONT WANT TO SEE IT = !



so today. went for a big shopping w nurul bestie.
& yeah, never get to chat with ruzz the whole day !
*boohoo*
imhlh.

its best if i dont live.
and learn to feel , jealous.

its awful when this runs through my blood.

i tried not to feel. i tried my best to avoid them.
but. it all failed.
i failed being calm. im only good for being not understanding.
good for only being angry.

it sucks to know when i hope for that someone to not do it again yet,
that someone do it again.

it sucks when someone betrayed me.

it sucks when theres this someone goes for looks too much. and that is why, avoided me.

it sucks to know when this other someone is acting like lovers to __'s friend. theres difference between them dont it?

it sucks to know even, that i actually lost a close friend.

sheesshh. truth HURTS!