Sometimes i feel like giving IT up. Or i'll get hurt further. Let this be my best kept secret.

Everyday ive been hanging out, ive no time for home. It's like an obligation to go out these days. Sibeh , pocket's drying sak. I cant wait to get pampered by daily pocket allowances.
I need to purchase that new pair of lc shoes. And grey crumpler mini slings.

Hrmm. Anyway. My asthma is killing me. I have difficulty breathing at night. Breacol's not working. Damn.

And at the edge of night yest , Mus buddy called. Suprisingly. He's always full of suprises. Haha. He's having his BL meeting today. Reminded me of JAN INTAKE. Fuck it. My distant cousin's entering the same course as me. Urgh. Irritating.
Let's hope 2010 will be a better year in schoolwise too !

i believe that the true definition of love is when marriage is involved. parenting, hardships, financials, lifetime commitment. i bet its hard to imagine how much my mum will shed her tears if dad leaves this world. everyday she woke up with him beside her. and those times bringing me and my siblings up from birth. the ones we have now is just love. or temporary madness. and we will bring this experience to marriage.

Yesterday went to play bowling with Mum & Dad. Guess who won? MY DAD. Hahahaha. A beginner dad & an intermediate daughter. Magical isnt it? Guys will be guys huh. They're always CUN GILA at sports , games. Tsk =D
Whereas , My mum was so adorable. She kept aiming the ball at longkang. Haha.
I love my mum and dad. What more can i ask for. They're indeed my everything.

And yeah. I went to my good buddy , Kiddo's house after that. He's Botak Licin already. I looked at his HTA lanyard. Mcm skinny alien. Hahahahaha. And his mum lectured us. Looool ! Saved my sticks. Since kiddo offered his winston sticks. Huahua.

Then ofto meet Reena. My lovely neighbour. Bus-ed home with her & lepak-ed at 290e. (: More plans ahead. Since Ramdhan is working at my place now, gonna work with him. 4th Jan 2010 sch reopen. FUG!

So many things happened in just few days. And i've a tight schedule this week.
Today and tmrw i'll be in Msia (: And the day after i'll be at East Coast.
I pretty much miss work. And oh , 2 days back when i lepak-ed with Rushie & Aishacino, I MET UP WITH MY OLD OLD BESTIE THAT I LOST CONTACT WITH FOR 3 YEARS ! Holyshit. Ramdhan siaaah ! And i recommended him work of course. At my place. Good idea huh =D. It's also another way to keep in touch with him besides helping in his financials.

Another suprise was made by buddy Mus. Well he didnt online BEFORE. and he did yersterday night. Lol. Is it a miracle or smth? What moved him? Hahahahaha.

And the one in camp i told you about. He finally replied ! Wahlaoweh. I'm glad my worries is finally over. *phew* i'm hoping this won't happen again.

Ive watched the latest ep 140 of Naruto Shippuden ! Fugg.
I cant wait for 141. Hahaha ! Lincah pls. The moment of truth is about to unveal. Its about Itachi Uchiha. And i seriously salute Madara Uchiha. I find his mask so the cool. Sasuke is hot as usual. Hehehe.

141 141 141 141 141 141 141 !

My buddy Alan shithead is on the way. He's on ep 132 now. Gonna wait for him (:

Sometimes, i wish SOME memories doesnt stay. It's a pain in the ass dont chu think. My nephews came to stay. And Riki reminded me of my Ex. Please, im begging my mind. Neither i should remorse nor reminisce about it. Im much happier now, im looking ahead =D.
Everyday is full of happy moments ! =D
Doesnt mean he's in a relationship , i have to be too yknow. I'm happy for him. But at the same time im SUPRISED & Laughing hard if he's loyal. Well he never was did he. No point being in a relationship cause he end up betraying. Like what he did to me. And the rest. He didnt appreciatte me at all. If he did, he would have asked to be friends wimme. He thinks he knows the definition of Love. He have no idea that he doesnt. Dear friends, ive been in a relationship with Yan right after my ex is gone. But in the end, im not ready.
But that was few months back (:
Now? Hahaha ! You'll find out k. =D

post deleted. heh.

Feels like updating. And here i am !
Wow am getting more frequent. Hahahahaha.

Anyways sch is fucking boring. My 6 days of attendance wasnt counted. Sibeh !
Kicked out from class. Must bersabar lor.
More boring that my dear friend is not around to shine. :(
Whatsmore he's working. Shoosh. Nevermind.

And ive lost interest on Naruto these days. Some ppl i intro naruto to, will brag and copycating. The Sharingan =) . Hah. Never watched it online for like so so long. Maybe one day k, soon.

So thats about it. Lol. K-nite!

This is gonna be a semi-lengthy post.
on my impartial weekend updates.

Rushie came to sleepover on Saturday. Before fetching her, met up with my kaki gerek buddy, Kiddo Aceline ! And the coolest shit thing is he's staying near me. Lol. So easy to meet. Hahaha.

Fetched Rushie @ Wdl. Went for a lil' shopping. Bought the necessary items for our date to Sentosa. After that, we went to eat @ Civic Mac. SEAWEED SHAKERRRR ! Woo~

Then ofto lepak at the sort-of colossal ground under the mrt track.

Bought ciggies !

And of course , home sweet home after that.

We surf-ed youtube.com. for MAD TV & WHOSE LINE IS IT ANYWAY. Heheh. Some funny shit !

Then finally, my buddy Farhan smsed. Lol. King of Busy. Haha. Then @ 2am, Mus called. Aww. =] I was so so ultimately+extremely happy that he have this initiative to call me up to say that he will top up Hot128 soon.

Sometimes life's a sunshine being single. Ain't betraying anyone & total freedom on making friends with whoever i like. =]

Last but not least, Sunday morning , went to Sentosa. Supposed to go to Little Guilin @ night , geesh , im sorry Rushie i was too fatigued. We cancelled the plan. We watched New Moon instead. It was awesome. The whole fun ended when i sent her to the bus stop.

Riki & Raul came at night. My two cute nephews. Hehee. I miss them so much.

Ok dah. That's about it. I'll update more soon k. Byebye !

Woohoo ! finally. PAYDAY!!!! =D Hahahaha. Happy nya aku ! Weeeee.

*jumping up down sideways*



I Bought the tops ive been eyeing on with my Sharingan for quite awhile. And belt too. The rest of the cash is reserved for bills & sentosa this weekend. Well done Iza for not splurging on unnecessary stuffs.

AND Ive been waiting for 1 1/2 day for this Farhan guy, a friend of mine to msg. And he finally did just now when im busy assembling my cascade. Like finally eh ! shoosh !
Speaking of cascades. Ive 2 more to go ! LOL. SLOW.

And another finally goes to Mus ! Anyway, i miss u friend. =]

Yesterday night i went to Little Guilin with Jason aka 'sister'. It's not pleasing down there of course. Creepy cum spooky ! But we maintained our body gestures bla bla bla. We took videos bla bla bla. And i dont know wtr its the wind or what. I heard a woman whispering when i were smoking by the lake. Anyways all jotted down on notepad. Hopefully we get to complete our project on time.

Bye bye !!

things are sailing smooth this week. im ultimately glad =]

i can't help smiling so wide back to you this morning. Didnt expect you would actually approached me. alas ! expect the unexpected.
and as usual, smoked together. wee.
but this kinda of moment wont last. as today is his last paper. boring siak.
im gonna miss u so much friend. i love u, i love u, i love u, i love u friend. ;] shoosh.
pls top up your damn prepaid k. im waiting. cute guy laaa !

Feeling sicky the whole week. Didnt tag along with my PM group members to Old changi Hospital & Sungei Api Api. But atleast, I contributed by thorough research & printed necessary informations. Hehee. I aint scardy cat ok. Im just fatigued & sicky. See, its bold and highlighted.

Besides that, im feeling scared+dissapointed+lost = scadisslo?
Well life is like a roller coaster. U hafta accept that. Things get better and even better at first as it goes up. Once u reach the top, be prepared to face the worst. And it will happen so fast u least expected. Im proud that im facing it instead of running away from it.

friend :[ .. ure hiding my smile. i need my smile back.

im not pleased with my situation now. After that night u msged me something that ure unhappy of, im afraid of falling apart from u. even that we're ok now, i hope that incident is not retrievable. and things arent the same as before. A lil diff. Pls, i don't wish to loose u my friend. :(
i dont wish to stop going sch with u every day either.

(IN WHITE)HASBULLAH. DIDNT EXPECT THAT YOU WILL LEAVE THIS WORLD TODAY. ITS SHOCKING ME. MOREOVER YOU JUST COMPLETED YOUR O LEVELS. I GUESS I WONT HEAR YOU SING @ WDL AS USUAL ANYMORE HUH. MAY YOU REST IN PEACE. amirul, boboi will miss you.

Went to catch the movie Paranormal Activity with my schoolmate , Mus. I bet some of you know who he is ;] . Thx 4 treating me Mus. Hrrm, feeling goosebumps yesterday when i got home. I even msged few of my friends telling how SCARDY CAT i am. Hahahs! Penakut arh. The movie somehow reminded me of Quarentine. Coz its viewed through a video cam captured by the main character itself. Somesort similar. But this is a true story. At first, it seemed boring. But just so you wait till the middle part. Fucking scary.

Too bad 2012 is fully booked. But atleast Paranormal activity enlightens me. In a way.

Hrmm. I have a confession to make. I dont have to wait till friendship day to do this right. I just wanna let this off my chest on how much i appreciatte these ppl. Some ppl are meant to stay, some ppl are meant to go. For example, your family are those some ppl that are gonna stay. And those who go, they drop by your doorstep for a reason and off they go. And those who are gone , they come back to your life , because why ? BECAUSE THEY ARE MEANT TO STAY.

JASON. HE'S MY SISTER. He's staying near me & so we went to school everyday together. He's My love doctor. My smoking partner. Same fav ciggarette brand, next mlsz!

ATIBA , TAM, MIMI. My closest classmate. Almost every problem he has , im someone he will confide to share. He understands me, i understands him.

NANA BFF. workmate,schoolmate,babygirl. love her loads.

IMRAN. Special friend. Narutofreak too. Graduated. Used to contact few years back. And its fated that we contact once again when he asked for my number @ Tamp. Now, its time for him to go again. With his own poly life. Im prepared. Atleast, he dropped by & taught me how to rejuvenate life problems. Thanks for hearing me cry, hearing about my health problems.

my exbf yan hope too. happy that we remained friends. but i know it will never last.

Im a new person now =] heheh. pst. sorry if i didnt include some of you guys!

Hmm . Many things kinda happened recently . Its an obligation i need to take care of my poor health condition now . CA will dismiss me from school if i carry on absent-ing due to my medical problems . u know , Incomplete modules . Unfair huh . I dont know the meaning of crying anymore . I just stay fucking silent nowadays . Sometimes i wonder why im carrying more problems than the others . N they didnt seemed to understand my kinda of , life . U cant expect me to have a life like yours . Im ALONE , yes . Persevering problems on my own feet . Be it from paying my own bills to personal stuff like stupid love . People hurt me , abandoned me . But im still fly & stay fucking silent . A lil of open & close of eyes , im turning 20 . N i know . life , is about dealing with problems , not running away from it . Its like death . U just have to face that u have to die one day .

Cafe2 was so packed yesterday. I was standing around looking out for Nana *& Hawa & suddenly this short convo by a group of guys made me turn !

" Kau jangan langgar aku eh. Nanti aku pakai Sharingan aku baru tahu. "

LOL.
Amazing how Naruto.S. affected alot of ppl including me. Hahaha. -.-"

These are the semi-necessary stuffs I bought. Its maddening me on what to buy at first though.
And it does not mean iam abandoning my old stuffs k ! I still use em. Till it
can't be used? Yeah.
Got my hair done. And my piercing still hurts.
And I bet my two "brothers" must be happy i treated them to Pizzahut. :)
Since i dont know who to spend it on EXACTLY.

Anyway , I need plenty of rest. Tmrw night im working from 7pm-11pm. Mentang2 kerja 711. Haha. Well , In order to detour myself from rotting @ home, Esai ah !

& Oh , Suddenly i remembered that in few more days , it will be a year since. And i bet too that this someone don't even remember or cares. What to do. Nobody knows how i FEEL. :(Well i don't need anyone's pity , i just want to complete my assignments now.

Goodnight EARTH.

Today is all about the eminence of Naruto Spdn. :)

Its touching to know that Kakashi's sharingan actually belong to his dead bestie !

His bestie belo giler oi. Reminds me of Naruto. Only Naruto's not wearing goggles !

Kakashi became so heartless.

And when he cried , its the sharingan eye that got wet with tears. Bloody touching

eh.

There goes about the Hotstuff Kakashi.


Anyway . . Truckloads of news i have recently. But its kinda personal !

I even dreamt of something for 5 times already. Cant tell what is it. Can be someone or an animal. Lets remain discreet. :) But sometimes . . . . . i wonder why.

When hard earned money is on hand , i call a day for shopping !

Guess what i purchased. Just so you see in school kay. =D


(I Still.)

You know , we will bound to meet new ppl out there . Ppl who is meant to be our shoulders , ppl who is meant to be the one to pour our love to , and ppl who is meant to taught us a lesson.

Ppl who is meant to taught us a lesson acts as karma. Which God makes we dont realise. If we realise , we will never get hurt , and so we will never learn. What goes ard comes ard. You hurt someone , these one person destined from God will acts as karma and hurt you back. Life is a never ending education. Everytime , theres many lesson to be learnt.


well , ive learnt my lesson.

i hope they will be famous one fine day. :) . i love this heart-sinking song. sit back and enjoy.

based on this video , its about the lady dumped the guy cos he turned gay. kinda unique though.

Anyway , today's the 2nd day of new semester. Never did i thought Pneumatic & Hydraulics can be so much fun ! Moreover when it comes to the moment when the air supply , diffuser did its magic ! woohoo gerek KEPE ! Hehehe. Bo layan kawan ! Full concentration on the assembly itself =D

& Thank you so much to those who have been there for me. Friends is all i have besides my

family. They're muscles to my body :)

Last but not least , here's the link to my shared blog with Rushie. Two different world.

But opposite do attracts rite ! Heh. Atleast we have two things in common.

Same fashion sense & NARUTOOOOOO SHIPPUDEN ! Hahaha. Sasuke sasuke sasuke.

www.rushieiza.blogspot.com

THOSE dream , it pops now and then. Not consecutively, but in at random days.
Haiz.

Im deeply in love with one song recently.

It's lagu kita by aizat :)

so here it is. lets appreciatte malay for once.




even how much i hated to listen to love songs recently, i fell for this. believe it.
it makes me sad somehow. erm.



anyway i have another song to recommend too.


damn!, shes a sexy bitch!... =D

I wanna say thanks to those who visited me @ SGH yesterday. Insyallah, i will be fine :)



Im just feeling weak from the hyperdermic syringe.



I dont wanna hear what the doctor hafta say bout my chest pain.



Its been going on for months. Now im high on drugs. Gonna have flu any moment.



Anw, Tmrw morning shift.



Back to work. Fyi, im working @ 7eleven. Back to mr zaki. ;)



Before that i wanna check on my GPA result !



Yessa tak sabar oi ! Ha-ha-haaaaaaahk.



Now its all about studies. I wanna conform and commit.

Biar mind pain, jgn heart pain. hahaha.




I wanna take

my rest and be away from net for the moment. Take care.

Ive made a shared blog with my les partner Rushie. (: Ive yet to publish it. Im gonna reveal it by

next week.

And i miss sch. Speaking of sch, GPA LAH FUCK! 1st october. I bet my Gpa drop due to

holy shit weak attendance.

Skip so much for only i-know-you-dont-know reason. Even that i have full marks for

my excellency in practical. It wont help. I miss lepak at Unisex toilet. Only engineers shares this

unisex moments. Haha.


And finally i miss going to school with hasbi and jason everyday ! 12 october pls come fast.

I realised how much i change recently. You guys are so gonna see the OLD a year ago Rose

Idariza back !

Ive make over Woohoo !


~What goes ard, comes ard. God is fair. (: Believe it. U will slowly see behind those "colourful" curtains.

ANY ITECE JAN INTAKE MECHANICAL GUYS WILLING TO DONATE ME YOUR LAST

SEMESTERS BOOKLET? I NEED IT FOR NEXT SEMESTER. SAVE CASH =]

AND IVE CHANGED MY NUMBER BTW.

IVE LOST ALL OF YOUR CONTACTS.

I NEED HASBI'S, JASON'S CONTACT ESPECIALLY.

COS WE'RE GONNA GO SCH, GO HOME TOGETHER EVERYDAY.

PLS DO ASK FOR IT. THANKS.

Personal or not, i wanna let this off my chest.

Just 5 mins ago. My mum, my bro asked me about Nashrun.

My heart crashed as i heard his name. My mind started to reminisce of him.

It aint easy. I wish so hard that it was just a dream.

I was so happy before, but now. its all about pretence.

I admit he's the first guy that changed me. And he's the first guy ive been so loyal with.

Sometimes, i dont understand why i could play behind back with my all other exes,

but not him.

Even if i hang out with guys now, through their eyes, i only see him. Why?


And everytime i looked back at the things he gave me,

i wondered if he still remembers me.

Its all because of my dumb sickness,

i couldnt fulfill such a promise that meant so much to him.

And because of my exams coma, i threw tantrums at him.

now, im left with no way to make it up to him.

Im crawling so hard, but i just cant.

:(

Last monday, my mum's siblings, my cousins, raya-ed at my house. But this is not all. Sadly, i didnt visit my dad's side this year. So let the pictures do the talking.

Males.

Females. (: My mum is in white tudung.

Mere pakistani hindustani grandma. Haha.

My mini cousins. And riki safrian nephew in orange.

Australian cousin Justin Eden, Bro in law, Raul Ilhan nephew.

My indian muslim pak long. My dad and me. I know we dont look alike. Haha!

How bout me and my sis ? Hmm. :)

There'll be more pictures coming up. I'll update more soon k!

Im having a huge problem now !

God, pls save me.

Im so confused. And it aint easy.

What will i do when im confused ?

SLEEP! OKAY, AKU NAK TIDUR.

Girl who clubs heavily, junks heavily, talks "fanatic" as if theyre fucken big and

stronger than God, shouts to ATTENTION SEEK, vents unpleasant "minahrep"

vulgarities.

= bloody disgusting.

They have themselves to blame when they got a lousy bf.

And to why many ppl

hate them. Just look at them. And just

look at an innocent pleasant girl. Which one is superior?

I suppose great minds unscramble the answer. Take the SYURGA CINTA movie as

an example.

And i just dont get this. Some of them moreover are proud to have a jailbird bf !

They boast a bf who is a trash to society. Perangai kalau sopan dengan rajin kerja

takpe

jugak. In the end you girls gonna suffer.

Common. This is SG. Bukan AMERICA. Lagi pure

Gangstas kat sana. No use fighting anyway.

Waste your time, waste your energy.

A huge wastage ok.

Think like an ADULT.

Selamat Hari Raya Guys & Ladies.

Todays the first day. So enjoy while you can.

Who knows we might not celebrate it next year rite ! And i just hope those friends of

mine would forgive me. I know i forget friends easily. BUT Its purely

unintentional. Sighs. Now, Its time for me to appreciatte those around me. Its an

obligation. And ask myself do they deserve to be thrown aside? Moreover if theyve

done alot for me. Make a difference to me. Even though theyve hurt me. Its injustice.

We're humans afterall la huh. Nobody is so good. I know how it feels. I'll try to keep

in touch ok. =]

Çan't believe what i heard just now.

Mum will pay for my car enrollment. Woohoo!

Bloody good huh ! Yeah. Finally.

This time i'll say reality is better than dream. Yeah.

But still a fucked up life , fucked up me.

ME and MESSY hair as usual. =]

& Its my first time wearing shades man ! Hahahaha !

I find it awkward though. Oh well. Haha.

Its been long since I dress up myself.

Not to impress anyone,

but I just wanna appreciatte my looks. So here we go !

Now, I'll just swallow my heart & watch him go.

Maybe, im the only one who remembers what we've been through.

Maybe, im the only one who doesnt wants to waste it.

Rose idariza doesnt feels right eversince you walkout that door.

And my heart, it keeps beating your name. What am i suppose to do.

I couldnt force my heart not to beat.

I didnt mean to break promises. But its broken for a good reason.

I wish you realised youre just going the wrong way. Im right here. Why are you

looking away?

Do you know how bad i wanna tell you that i miss you.
After that night, i died inside. Its like a brick wall has fallen on top of me.

i need a new hp. a new line/prepaid card.
please.
hp rosak !!!!!!

Today, I watched Final Destination with Rushielove @ Downtown East. Its the shit guys ! But better choose a disiplined movie partner. Unlike Nurse Rushie. Haha. Just kidding babe. I love ya ! Can't wait to see you & urderaged Elfee again.

And thanks to my comrade who fetched me @ BB last sunday. The way you rode your bike is just fucking AWESOME (:

ROSE FT RUSHIE.

Today I had a super-ly great time with ya ! Dined in at Ph. Shopping. Gossiping. Haha. Girls are girls ! And its great seeing Elfee too. (:

[ 3 worst picture ever. ]

Im Sorry For Being The Fire That Sets Your Life Ablaze.

I Open My Eyes Everyday With The Same Guilt Feeling.
Same Shit Feeling, Different Days.

I Swear You My Life I Wont Be That Fire Anymore.

[neverever]

MY HEART'S SINKING.
I HAVE ONE WEEK LEFT TO COMPLETE MY STACK OF ASSIGNMENTS. THATS ONE HELLA OF A TINY AMOUNT OF TIME. ITS ALMOST UNFLAPPABLE.
MOREOVER WITH CLASSMATES WHO WILL VILIFY ME WHENEVER IM DOING MY WORK. MAYBE FASTING MONTH MIGHT SCOTCH THEM A LITTLE.
Anyway i miss my two nephews very much. Hope to see you both soon Riki Safrian & Raul Ilhan; =)

I was high N crazy that night. i interviewed two of my comrades down there. amirul & norazman (fyi not azman bestie). dont mind my BERBUAL BERSEPAHS. Haha. I was not ready. And its purely out of pleasantry. the actual video is lengthy- but im lazy to upload the full video. so below is just the 3 mins preview =)

EXAMS IN TWO WEEKS TIME. YET SOME PPL OUT
THERE IS GIVING ME A HARD TIME. WELL THEY GOTTA SOMEHOW THINK OF OTHER
PPL FEELINGS TOO INSTEAD OF THEIR OWN. GREAT WORLD
HUH.

DID THIS. I GUESS BLOGGER IS THE ONLY PLACE WHERE I COULD EXPRESS MY INNER SELF. ITS A SCRAPBOOK. U CAN FREELY TURN THE PAGES. KAYY ENOUGH.

SUAR LARH. NOT AGAIN. PLS DONT IRRITATE EITHER ME OR MY PARENTS WITH YOUR CALLS CA. PASAL WORKPIECE PUN NAK COMPLAIN KAT PARENTS AKU. WTFISH. WHAT CAN THEY DO ? IT WILL ONLY CAUSE RESENTMENT BTWN ME & MY PARENTS. MUM WILL THINK I COULDNT BE BOTHERED WITH MY WORK. WHEN IM ACTUALLY STRUGGLING ON MY OWN FEET COMPLETING IT. IM 19 ALREADY. SO DON'T TREAT ME LIKE A KID. AND THIS IS NOT SEC SCH.


IM SO STRESS NOW!
WHATS MORE. AZMAN. I DONT KNOW WHATS WRONG WITH HIM. I SHARED MY PROBLEMS AND ALL HE SAID WAS ' OK. HAHA '
WALAUWEH ! MACAM NAK SURUH GAJAH SEPAK DIA SEH. HE THINKS THAT CAN CHEER ME UP.
HELLO. WAKE UP LAH WAI. GIVING ME AN ADVICE WILL MAKE ME FEEL BETTER. NOT LAUGHING. ROFL. FUNNY PPL LARH.


AND IF U HAVE PROBLEMS , U FACE IT, SOLVE IT. NOT BY SILENT TREATMENT. ITS LIKE PPL COMMITING SUICIDE. THEY ENDED UP LIKE THAT CAUSE THEY RUN AWAY FROM PROBLEMS & CAN NO LONGER RUN ANYMORE.


NO MATTER HOW BAD MY DAY TODAY IS , IM COOL. SMILE (:

I GOT MY SAFETY BOOTS NOW. THANKS TO AKIM AND HASBI. I DONT HAVE TO PURCHASE ONE. HUHU. IM DONE WITH GASKET, STEEL PIPE TEST AND DISMANTLE OF SCREWS ETC. I STILL HAVE 4 MORE WORKPIECE LEFT BEHIND. IM SO FEISTY TO WORK ON IT TMRW NOON.

I NEED TO SAVE MONEY. MUST BUY THAT LONG SLEEVE TOP. MUM SOMEHOW AGREED TO MY IDEA ABOUT THE STILL-GIVE-MONEY-DURING-FASTING-MONTH. ONLY THAT SHE GIVES ME 3 BUCKS INSTEAD OF 6 BUCKS. SO I CAN ACTUALLY SAVE IT AND SPEND ON CONTACT LENSES.

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IM UNDER ALOT OF STRESS.

FRIENDS OR WHOEVER. THEY TREAT ME LIKE A TELEVISION. WHEN THEY DONT NEED ME OR BE THEIR SOURCE OF ENTERTAINMENT , THEY TURN ME OFF. THATS IT.

GREAT HUH !

Do u know that asking someone to change their attitude is like asking a heavy smoker to stop smoking ? U can never throw that habit rightaway. Say , u will start by reducing a stick or two as days went by. And to make that big change for the GOOD is never easy. Its hard to be a good person , its easy to be a bad person. And its hard to go to heaven , but its easy to be thrown in hell. Get the picture ? Just like smoking , we can stop that unpleasant habit for awhile. maybe few days to weeks or months. But we might end up smoking once again. Thats how it works. Unless u put 101% commitment to it. And never turn back. Time heals EVERY THING.

Ok this is just a random one. Suddenly i thought of this when i stared at Hasbi smoking 5 minutes ago. Thanks for borrowing me your laptop !

school is shitty today. thanks ehk kepada CA. Ive checked the time already , and i knew i reached the Megaworkshop at 12.35pm. And it means im only 5 mins late ! Darh pintu semua kena lock. Pfft. Whats all that. And most of my classmates got stucked outside. I asked Haziq and he anotated that its because we're late. Kay enough buat bodoh. So I , Vanessa , Agnes headed to the Unisex toilet. Accompanied them Asap asap & Drink. THEN we finally got into workshop after break. And i found out that many of them didnt turn up. (=.=) MENDAK PE. But i just carried on doing my revision & progress test. Well i came all the way to Simei to study right ? So yes. Let alone my laziness.!

NASHRUN.

thanks for everything (:



i love my vans shoe& bag now.
WOO. ~ ~ ~

Teacher called , as expected. It's like one big Penumbuk hit the phone. I dont hate hym for complaining. At the end of the day i knew he's just concerned. Kay enough. I'm glad my eyes are much better now. I need to go back to school tmrw. ('_')'/ Byebye.

FUCKKK.
(=.=) my eye hurts.
Somebody call doctor.

School is shitty really. I got this bomb blasting feeling im getting a warning letter. Argh. I must be good this time. Attend to school every SINGLE day. If sick, produce MC.

Do u know how it feels when somehow , u're looking foward to share your special day with 3 MOST special people in your life but in the end they turn you DOWN.
and at the same time , you have to understand why they did this to you.

My mum hurt me. My bestie hurt me. Nashrun hurt me.
Indeed I know im not the only one on Earth suffering this. LIKE DUH.


U kept saying that I irritate u. FINE. I know ure just pointing out my bad points. But it hurts. I felt so low. This is me. And I know myself best. Im not perfect. In this world , we have to tolerate with not-perfect people. Thats a challenge in life. If one is perfect , then one's considered an angel. In your life you will bound to meet all kinds of funny people. If u can't accept my flaws, means you're not ready to face all others out there in the future. Tell me one person u have met with no flaws. Even u HAVE flaws. Your families have flaws too right. Your families still accept u. Your friends still accept u. ASK YOURSELF WHY. Ask your friends "Asal kau masih dgn aku walaupun aku sensitive?"
as u can see theres an easy way way out if you dislike one's flaws, you dont befriend them.
And if a mother dislike her child's flaws, she abandoned her child.

Since u said that i will repeat irritating u with problems , FINE I wont bother you or i will irritate you again. I'm sorry.
Last but not least , Let me tell u this. Im not strong like you. U said u dont cry. Then i'm sorry again, Crying happens to be one of my natural weakness. U can't accept Me For Who I Am right ? Go and find someone who dont cry, not suspicious, angelic somesort. Cos this is ME.

First and foremost , I wanna thank all the 31 dearest friends of mine for wishing me a

Hpy Bday :)

i love you truckloads :))

Please die die make all your prayers come true. AMIN.

And it's weird but true, some unexpected people actually wished me. But it's better that way right ? They somehow bothered about me in a way. See.!

Suddenly, I grew tired of school.
Like fucking tired.
Neither my mates will talk much to me nor I feel like talking either.
Sorry that I don't talk much.
There's a point of time in your life where you wanted to be left alone. :(

(DELETED.)

love , rose.

I have to purchase a safety boot.
Die die must buy.
So pls stimulate/remind me not to splurge on unnecessary stuff. :D
Makan also , secukup rasa. If not , Die.!!
One module down , means , the entire modules down.
And i'm out of the school. *hiakdush* .

Anyway I'm sick for many days already. And now i'm not in the mood. Bye bye.

My heart's crying out loud beseeching for answers to every of my question.
What a painfull life.



- Nobody understands you best, except you.
Blog exists for this reason.

I'm under alot of health & skin problems. :( Run away from me if you want , Kay !.

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Anyway , hmm. I'm forced to do this. So feel free to read :D

1. Are you smiling?
; NO.

2. Have you ever kissed anyone named Josh?
; nope.

3. What is irritating you now?
; my health problems !

4. When did you last eat pizza?
; last month.

5. Have you ever been camping?
; of course.

6. Do you have any friends who are famous?
; yeah , in youth sports now.

7. Are you any good at poker?
; nah. im only good at praying. gagaga.

8. What do you want?
; MONEY.

9. Are you tired?
; nort really.

10. Do you like anyone?
; hmm , i love someone.

11. Can you play the piano?
; can. but i'm nort good at it.

12. Do you ever throw up?
; yeah.

13. Do you pee in public?
; haha. no.

14. Do you enjoy piercings and tattoos?
; yes. love to pierce more soon.

15. Taco Bell or McDonald's?
; Mcdonald's !

16. Last thing you said?
; Mcdonald's !

17. What are you wearing?
; bear pyjamas. gagagagagaga.

18. How many abercrombie shirts do you own?
; none.

19. How many friendster views do you have?
; fuck friendster.

20. Do you want to be a princess?
; no. QUEEN.

21. Do you believe dreams come true?
; certain dreams.

22. Last song you heard?
; at radio - i know you want me.

23. Do you like Batman?
; Joker better. Lets put a smmmmmile on that Face !

24. Who is in the room with you?
; mother.

25. What are you wearing on your feet?
; bedroom slippers.

26. What is your favorite pair of shoes?
; Everlast , Charles & Keith.

27. Who was the last person you told you loved them?
; my mother.

28. What was the last thing you ate?
; kari ayam.

29. What were you doing before this?
; play Disgaea on my baby psp.

30. What is the closest item near you that is black?
; printer.

31. Who instant messaged you last?
; i think it's ikmal.

32. Who's house did you go to last?
; my house.

33. What do you wear more, jeans or sweatpants?
; sweatpants.

34. What is the last movie you watched?
; NATM2.

35. Why are you taking this survey?
; forced to.

36. Do your friends ever tell you to stop taking surveys?
; no.

37. Ever been to QuizPox.com?
; never.

38. Where are your parents?
; living room.

39. Where did you get the pants you're wearing?
; shop ?

40. Coach Purse or MLB game tickets?
; Coach Purse ! Pink/Brown coloured preferable.

41. Where was your default MySpace picture taken?
; fuck myspace.

42. Why did you pick your background?
; saja je.

43. Who you last text?
; Dayah.

44. Are you happy with where you are?
; nort so. i miss east side.

45. Is cheating ever ok?
; no. what goes around comes around. i hate to be cheated !

46. Do you burn candles?
; no. i burn ppl's heart.

47. Are you happy with yourself?
; nort really.

48. What was your entire schedule today?
; SLEEP.

49. Do you want something you can't have?
; yes. there's many.

50. What makes you smile the most?
; that pasha(ungu)'s look alike :)

aku rindu budak budak pizza !!

Especially the close ones like Rushy , Zul , Boboi , Elfee
AND AFTER SO MANY MANY MONTHS OF NOT SEEING YOU SHAEDAH , I GET TO SEE YOU FINALLY. I MISS YOU SIS !



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One more thing I must not missed out , I had a great time just now with my new classmates at Woodlands. You know who you are huh :D ( jangan lupa deal karaoke kita )
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I'm Back ! WEEEE ! Be prepared to browse through my long , lengthy post. Gonna be plenty of pictures below. Biasalah , 5 hari pe kat negeri asing. Kalaw boleh semua benda aku nak ketip. Huahuah. And fyi I dressed so in a decent way in this picture cos i'm holidaying with my decent cousins. So paham2 jeh lah kay ! Anyway we started out with a 13hours bus journey ride. Seriously one hella of a long journey there. Fuhh. Da macam going to Pasir Ris from Jurong East 13 kali kan ? Ishk. Rabak pe. Luckily we're entertained with 3 dvds throughout the journey. And we actually took a break in between in several restaurants like Pizzahut, KFC, R&R, Najwa Ikan Bakar, Machap, Ramlee's Nasi Lemak.

Here are some of the Pictures taken.
Pictures Taken Inside The Room.
- Outside View.

Nothing Better To Do. Don't Mind The Asshole Sleeping At The Back.

Late Night Dinner. Beef Satay & 2 Nasi Goreng Kampung.

My Bro. We Don't Look the Same.

See. Its Proven. =D

- Pictures Taken At Swimming Pool Area.

SIBLINGS FOR LIFE. YEAH RIGHT.

My Cousin , Arif.
Me & Mum.

Me & Bro.

- Pictures Of The Mosque We Went.

This are video showing Masjid Terapung. A Mosque surrounded by water. We went there around 5am.

21 Replica Crystal Mosque. Just beside South China Sea. One of the 20 Mosques built serentak there.
- Pictures taken at Lobby. Dinner time.

Some Random Places Went.
- Taman Tamadun Islam. 5 buildings in 1.
Gudang Batik Noor Arfa. The most expensive batik found.
Satar 69. Lemang/Pulut Corner.
Gudang Keropok.
Boat area.
My dad took this. Nice one.

Pasar Payang. People went there by those flowered design beca.

So thats the end of pictures session. Malas nak upload byk2. Too bad i cant post picture of the States of Museum/Musium Perang. Cos we're prohibited from taking picture there. Hmms , so that's about it kay. I'll Blog again soon ! Hugs.