Personal or not, i wanna let this off my chest.

Just 5 mins ago. My mum, my bro asked me about Nashrun.

My heart crashed as i heard his name. My mind started to reminisce of him.

It aint easy. I wish so hard that it was just a dream.

I was so happy before, but now. its all about pretence.

I admit he's the first guy that changed me. And he's the first guy ive been so loyal with.

Sometimes, i dont understand why i could play behind back with my all other exes,

but not him.

Even if i hang out with guys now, through their eyes, i only see him. Why?


And everytime i looked back at the things he gave me,

i wondered if he still remembers me.

Its all because of my dumb sickness,

i couldnt fulfill such a promise that meant so much to him.

And because of my exams coma, i threw tantrums at him.

now, im left with no way to make it up to him.

Im crawling so hard, but i just cant.

:(