SO SICK = NE-YO.

"And im so sick of love songs,So tired of tears. So done with wishing,you were still here. Said im so sick of love songs,so sad and slow. So why cant i turn off the radio?"

Here i am, bearing a demented heart. i think im drowning, asphyxiated. everything that have been absorbed seems to be torturing my mind cells. if only i can go brainwashing & leave my mind blank. why do i have to carry a heart which seems to be broken in pieces??tears came lingering without fail. but i'd gathered enough courage not to cry. do they ever care if i had a sleepless nights??. love is yet more hurtfull than my friendship catastrophe.
when kel had finally walked out from the doors of my life, once upon a time, the sch's atmosphere filled me with anger running through my veins. seeing 'her' my very own classmate;my own frend been accused being with that someone from 4nc. ive got no say. i felt unhappy nowadays. i duelly wants to forget him. this situation brings me back to the world of past. a sense of jealousy seems to bind, hopelessly covering me. AND THIS IS REAL JEALOUSY.
this brought my crush life distracted. i guess ive grown to have this thinny winny crush on this special somebody. today, cross country was surely tiresome. but i feels better seeing this special somebody around. im glad when this covered my empty side of life.
not only that, my mind is fully occupied till i had no clock to tick abt my friendships catasrophe/distructions btwn aisah. let it be. i need a break about this heartbroken thingy.
i believe:
IF THERES A WILL, THERES A WAY. IF THERES A WAY, THERES A WILL.

and things gone smoothly between my other friends & me. AMIN.