HEART - ACHE.

Im drastically hurt. every of those illegal moments pierced thru' the hole of my heart. a brooding menacing atmosphere was covering me. my brain, my mind seems to be blunt and cramped. its like, i existed in a world of bronze - age.

Frends: 'she' was getting on my nerve. this makes me nearly giving up in having a bestfrend. 'she' kept running after my bestfrend. which clearly defined that rnne is a gold worth looking for. a treasure that everybody had been searching for. i had enough shit, which leads me to rough - edge. hence, my mindset dont wish for a fight. instead, i'll avoid her. it leads me to nowhere whenever seeing them together. i cant protest. because, ppl will side her instead of me! rnne will side her with her provenance & explanations. i've got no say, wait untill rnne realise.

mr kerek: mr kerek was like an electrons surrounding me (which is; im nucleous). everywhere i drop by, there he is walking by & staring. im in a burst of fright whilst he seems so too. today, we're full of coincidence. going shop, mt, urggh! uncountable moments. surely & definitely we have eye - connection. its like, we can predict the right timing to gaze at each other. eqa on the other hand stared at him too. i find it very irritating & notorious. it suck. =/ i wonder why, im in full of jealousy? maybe i still care for him v. much? :X

guys: sec'three guys are comparatively much more better than sec'fours. its earth shattering for me, as ive never felt like melting before (over a younger guy!). idiotic days im compiling day - by - day. :P:P:P:P and my p.e. lessons; i get to see this particular cute guy, ummp! fantabulous. nvr felt better. recess? he's always there queing behind me. gorgeous situation. hai yah! emotional - ism. :P:P

before hand: ive taken the decision to be with sharon for the time being. she even have the same traumatic situation as me. frends. 2006 is a bloody fucking year. get it?