I wanna say thanks to those who visited me @ SGH yesterday. Insyallah, i will be fine :)



Im just feeling weak from the hyperdermic syringe.



I dont wanna hear what the doctor hafta say bout my chest pain.



Its been going on for months. Now im high on drugs. Gonna have flu any moment.



Anw, Tmrw morning shift.



Back to work. Fyi, im working @ 7eleven. Back to mr zaki. ;)



Before that i wanna check on my GPA result !



Yessa tak sabar oi ! Ha-ha-haaaaaaahk.



Now its all about studies. I wanna conform and commit.

Biar mind pain, jgn heart pain. hahaha.




I wanna take

my rest and be away from net for the moment. Take care.

Ive made a shared blog with my les partner Rushie. (: Ive yet to publish it. Im gonna reveal it by

next week.

And i miss sch. Speaking of sch, GPA LAH FUCK! 1st october. I bet my Gpa drop due to

holy shit weak attendance.

Skip so much for only i-know-you-dont-know reason. Even that i have full marks for

my excellency in practical. It wont help. I miss lepak at Unisex toilet. Only engineers shares this

unisex moments. Haha.


And finally i miss going to school with hasbi and jason everyday ! 12 october pls come fast.

I realised how much i change recently. You guys are so gonna see the OLD a year ago Rose

Idariza back !

Ive make over Woohoo !


~What goes ard, comes ard. God is fair. (: Believe it. U will slowly see behind those "colourful" curtains.

ANY ITECE JAN INTAKE MECHANICAL GUYS WILLING TO DONATE ME YOUR LAST

SEMESTERS BOOKLET? I NEED IT FOR NEXT SEMESTER. SAVE CASH =]

AND IVE CHANGED MY NUMBER BTW.

IVE LOST ALL OF YOUR CONTACTS.

I NEED HASBI'S, JASON'S CONTACT ESPECIALLY.

COS WE'RE GONNA GO SCH, GO HOME TOGETHER EVERYDAY.

PLS DO ASK FOR IT. THANKS.

Personal or not, i wanna let this off my chest.

Just 5 mins ago. My mum, my bro asked me about Nashrun.

My heart crashed as i heard his name. My mind started to reminisce of him.

It aint easy. I wish so hard that it was just a dream.

I was so happy before, but now. its all about pretence.

I admit he's the first guy that changed me. And he's the first guy ive been so loyal with.

Sometimes, i dont understand why i could play behind back with my all other exes,

but not him.

Even if i hang out with guys now, through their eyes, i only see him. Why?


And everytime i looked back at the things he gave me,

i wondered if he still remembers me.

Its all because of my dumb sickness,

i couldnt fulfill such a promise that meant so much to him.

And because of my exams coma, i threw tantrums at him.

now, im left with no way to make it up to him.

Im crawling so hard, but i just cant.

:(

Last monday, my mum's siblings, my cousins, raya-ed at my house. But this is not all. Sadly, i didnt visit my dad's side this year. So let the pictures do the talking.

Males.

Females. (: My mum is in white tudung.

Mere pakistani hindustani grandma. Haha.

My mini cousins. And riki safrian nephew in orange.

Australian cousin Justin Eden, Bro in law, Raul Ilhan nephew.

My indian muslim pak long. My dad and me. I know we dont look alike. Haha!

How bout me and my sis ? Hmm. :)

There'll be more pictures coming up. I'll update more soon k!

Im having a huge problem now !

God, pls save me.

Im so confused. And it aint easy.

What will i do when im confused ?

SLEEP! OKAY, AKU NAK TIDUR.

Girl who clubs heavily, junks heavily, talks "fanatic" as if theyre fucken big and

stronger than God, shouts to ATTENTION SEEK, vents unpleasant "minahrep"

vulgarities.

= bloody disgusting.

They have themselves to blame when they got a lousy bf.

And to why many ppl

hate them. Just look at them. And just

look at an innocent pleasant girl. Which one is superior?

I suppose great minds unscramble the answer. Take the SYURGA CINTA movie as

an example.

And i just dont get this. Some of them moreover are proud to have a jailbird bf !

They boast a bf who is a trash to society. Perangai kalau sopan dengan rajin kerja

takpe

jugak. In the end you girls gonna suffer.

Common. This is SG. Bukan AMERICA. Lagi pure

Gangstas kat sana. No use fighting anyway.

Waste your time, waste your energy.

A huge wastage ok.

Think like an ADULT.

Selamat Hari Raya Guys & Ladies.

Todays the first day. So enjoy while you can.

Who knows we might not celebrate it next year rite ! And i just hope those friends of

mine would forgive me. I know i forget friends easily. BUT Its purely

unintentional. Sighs. Now, Its time for me to appreciatte those around me. Its an

obligation. And ask myself do they deserve to be thrown aside? Moreover if theyve

done alot for me. Make a difference to me. Even though theyve hurt me. Its injustice.

We're humans afterall la huh. Nobody is so good. I know how it feels. I'll try to keep

in touch ok. =]

Çan't believe what i heard just now.

Mum will pay for my car enrollment. Woohoo!

Bloody good huh ! Yeah. Finally.

This time i'll say reality is better than dream. Yeah.

But still a fucked up life , fucked up me.

ME and MESSY hair as usual. =]

& Its my first time wearing shades man ! Hahahaha !

I find it awkward though. Oh well. Haha.

Its been long since I dress up myself.

Not to impress anyone,

but I just wanna appreciatte my looks. So here we go !

Now, I'll just swallow my heart & watch him go.

Maybe, im the only one who remembers what we've been through.

Maybe, im the only one who doesnt wants to waste it.

Rose idariza doesnt feels right eversince you walkout that door.

And my heart, it keeps beating your name. What am i suppose to do.

I couldnt force my heart not to beat.

I didnt mean to break promises. But its broken for a good reason.

I wish you realised youre just going the wrong way. Im right here. Why are you

looking away?

Do you know how bad i wanna tell you that i miss you.
After that night, i died inside. Its like a brick wall has fallen on top of me.

i need a new hp. a new line/prepaid card.
please.
hp rosak !!!!!!