HAPPY TEACHERS DAY!
may god bless you.
Especially to my favourite ones:
Mr Ishak, Mdm Rehana,
Mrs Eng, Ms Ang.

I just love yesterday.
I attended school as usual with Twin(r)usdn.
But for that special day, i wore a bright blue half-dress with season faded jean.
I applied make-up & all kinds of accessories, cause Im pretty sure Mr Adam would not care anyway.
AND IM VERY TRUE!

I was involved in helping out on handling food, present it to teachers & backstage help.
It turned out that I had wonderful time with the preformers, Mr Adam & my other peers.
Many commented how stunning I looked. I blushed & thanked them.
But then, some of them pinched my cheek! ouch!!
Even the sec1s.
Backstage, all of us handled delicious food like sushis, pizza, cakes etc.
All of us went so hungry! luckily there's leftovers for us.

Shortcuts, the performance went great & I met my groups at the foyer.
This time, Dayah/LULU!! & her gangs came along.
All were thinking of where to go.

NAK PERGI MANER?
tanyer boss laki ahh..
GI MANER NI?
tanyer boss pompan ahh..

suddenly, all blurted of going to town.
then off we go.
It's been long since we went there.
because it is such a "BASI" place.
HAH!

SUNDAY,

was a day to remember.
the fun I had, the tiredness I carried.
Overall I'm fully grown satisfied!

Early in the morning,
I had to force myself up & get ready for the BIG DAY.
I had to attend My cousin's wedding
AND...
The twin's small sister birthday party.

By 11am I reached Woodlands b617.
I did not realised that my mouth went half-open as I admired my surroundings.
It was totally grand & the facilities and decorations are all high-class.
I found out that my handsome cousin spent $20 000 on all of those.
The catering was fabulous and the food are deadly delicious.
I sign on the guestbook accompanied with wishes.
NOT TO FORGET! dikir barat was sent to that location.
Media mass casa was invited as Djs & unexpected celebrities was there too.


Shortcuts, I went to the twin's small sister birthday party ard 5pm.
Raf, Sugarddy, Hafizkhan, Wakfian, Farhan & his girl came.
Received goodie bags & participated in Lucky Draw.
how sad.. (R)usdn's ex finished off most of the prizes!
*sob sobs*
reached home ard 9pm AND.....

TADA! I never attend school today. (:

Looking at myself in the mirror,
I sensed that the crisis identity had nearly ended.
I finally learnt myself
& slowly discovered my true identity.
Satisfied, I gave a heavenly smile & walked off.

I dropped myself on the white silky sands,
Raf came & we naturally put our hands to work!
Guess what we did?
A sand castle & a sand sculpture of human dying.
It was so eye-catching that I ran to my other peers,

& blurted " Tadaaa!! Look what we did!! "

Am so proud of it. Thanks to Raf's creative hands.
But in the end, we had to leave behind our creations
as we need to catch waves badly.
AND!! it was destroyed by those pure loosers
volleyball asses!! *sobs sobs*

And ..
My stomach was like 0/10.
Guess what 7eleven sold to us?
A cheapskate Nasi Lemak.
The worst part was to discover that
the egg was so small, enough to feed a baby!
And the chicken is dead cute.
Not enough to fill my bigfuck tank.

And this tells me that I need to grab some food right now~

A Sweet As Maple Syrup.. Day.

I conclude that I & her is hard to be apart.

We are like a dry stone wall,
Stone of us fit closely together && no cement.

Digeridoo was played as we both sank deep into our own dream.


And so, Today.. I did my Maths & Ss paper.
Truly did not expect that it could turn out simple.
The fear I had in me faded away & little amount of confidence was born.
But.. that did not mean I will pass with flying colours.

Plus,
Tomorrow I will be doing my geography,
Better get going now !!

GIVE IT UP TO ME ...

Finally ! Back to my boisterous way of life.
And beats is what exists in my soul.
Sean Paul will always be my sexy voice idol ! haha !

After all those explorations I had covered in the world of music
especially Rock. Even those piddling details. There are many subs in Rock & divided into different kinds of genres. Not to forget those fully - fashioned clothes.

And Rock is still in season !


Today, I decided to chill at my crib.
Covered my most boring routine which is eat, sleep, com, tv, eat, sleep, com, tv. If not I would sms & sms & sms.
But..
Food is what matters to me most !
I gobbled up 3 plates of rice, 2 bags of potato chips & 1 stick of ice cream.
Thank god I'm not fat ! haha !

What should I have for my next meal? hmm !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

Before bragging on the happy issues,
im
TOTALLY DISSAPOINTED
for this year National Day celebration with my school.
It was not amusing & satisfying compared to last year.

The weather toned like a human's lugubrious voice, poured a slow & steady rainwaters. I could not even hear what the speaker wanted to say.

Stupid!

At least,
I got to entertain myself playing with those man-made fake hi-5 hands made for easier & noisier thunder of clappings. Plus! a not-so-wonderful goodie bag. haha !

As Khairi passed the goodie bag to me, his face seemed pale.

I wonder how's that rawker's life right now.

The remaining time was spent with my special friends.

The twin;
instead of slacking @ Esplanade with some pure loosers,

he's watching fireworks later with his big brother. Aww.. That's sweet!

I will spent the rest of my night with my family.
WHICH COMES FIRST!


TOODLES!

Whatever that had happened today,
was more like a slippery dream.

Those tintinnabulation was heard across my mind clearly.
I could still imagine those smooth drifting waves.

I trully enjoyed Sugar, the twin & Ruff's company.
How am I to express how fun I felt to spend time with them? Especially to the one I cared most? Mainly because :

It is difficult to unravel complex human emotions.

The place we went ? Err . It's a secret !!

Tmrw my school is celebrating NATIONAL DAY.
With the public. lols.
GOODNIGHT

When someone hates you, there is reasons behind it .
It is worst if you are not in the wrong.
It is worser if you are in the wrong.

YOU are the one who intend to create enemies.
YOU are the reason that create haters bindweed.

It may be by your unacceptable attitude,
full blooded argument between both parties;
BECAUSE OF YOU,
or by your wrong doings/decisions etc .

It's time that you need to turn over a new leaf.

Unless you intend to remain the way as it is.

Today, nothing unusual happened .
Only that I did a hybernating job on bed.
I woke up at 11am & continued back at 2pm till 7pm.
I don't know what made me so awfully tired that I desperately needed tonnes of rest. When I tried to sit facing the mirror, my mind did a wild spin & my whole body collapsed.

SO RESTLESS .

CLOUD NINE .

Went out with one of the twins! (R) usdn .

Sheltered fully with happy moments.
Even though his ex; Setan binte Iblis, kept calling & distracting him.
Even though a little amount of jealousy is filling me.
I understand & understood.
It's a part & parcel of life to overcome breakups .


Yesterday, I did my English N Level Prelim Paper.
It was quite tough as my comprehension skills is rusty.
The topic was on Pharaoh : The ruler of ancient Egypt.
Discovery on Mummies. Interesting .

After that, I & my buddies catched the Movie "Click" .
A nasty, emotional & stomach-breaking movie!
It thought me to value the life I had to lead.


Till then.
CHEERS .

HAISSH...
I hate today.
Seriously .
Feeling like decontaminating that shit.

Not worth to be identified as a human. A shit who do not wish to blend a harmonious relationships between every races of our schmates.
After sch, I hung out with my friends.
As usual, we stopped by a study point @ rc. This time, without premonitory symtoms; Ray, Fadhilah & a guy dropped by. Followed by Patmah & Afai. Then.. Dayana. All putting on a long face. I'm sure that the main character involved is Nab--- . They're going to talk things through. Like my case that had been preoccupying me lately. Stewpid rumours & accusations. can't be bothered!
CHILD'S PLAY!

Plus, prelims is starting tomorrow.
Goodluck peeps.
MWAHHS!

FUCK , FUCK, FUCKING DAY .
I withdrawed a lopsided grin,
slammed the car door shut
& dragged myself into the school compound.
As I entered the classroom, almost every single of my classmates stared at my pale face like as if I'd just consumed a Scrumpy.

I woke up late today.

Thanks to Dad's powerful voice to blink my eye.

I pitied that Twin for waiting for me to arrive whilst Im lying on my bed, still caught up in my fantasy world. Moreover, what teacher had thought during lessons was like a lullaby to me.
Plus, 2 fugly pimples appeared on my face! I simply can't bring myself infront of the mirror.
Fuck, I never had this fuck,fuck,fucking figures before. I'm feeling ugly.

F.Y.I : That twin had a new haircut today, the way i like it (:


CHEEROS IDIOTS!

Saturday, was great.
Went out with one of the twinbrothers.
We had high quality fun hanging around jurong point & causeway point. He was so grateful to get his mobile phone back from Nokia centre. Although we did not spend our time for 24hours, I truly enjoyed each other's company.

Today dated 1st of August,
I did not attend school simply because I'd consumed viruses causing my nose to be deadly distrupted since Sunday.

On Sunday, my whole family caught ourselves in Sentosa.

Both my brother & brother-in-law are involved in Soccer Tournament held near Pahlawan Beach. Since they could not got into finals, we used the remaining time taking pictures, playing the drifting waves & had a wonderful picnic!

Thanks to mum for the homemade food.

Deadly delicious. (:

Due to those waves & cold weather, Im gifted with sickness. Well, overall I don't regret upon my doings, as long I am satisfied.

Besides that, I'm worried about my bestfriend's situation.
We both agreed that to let the problems be.

"Why look out on others' mistakes when you yourself is not perfect?"

Think twice homosapiens.
Cheeros idiots (:

Happy Birthday To Me, Rose Idariza. (:


First & Foremost, I want to thank these listed peoples for taking troubles to wish me a happy birthday one-on-one.

-rNNe
-Hidayah
-Ian
-Rusdan
-Toyol
-Fared
-Glenn
-Ynaes
-Vithya
-Wenny
-Sugardaddy
-Huda
-Diyannah
-Azhar
-Arina
-Khaleeq
-Ubai
-Khalil
-Rizal
-Haikal3nc
-Zairie
-Nuraisah
-Siva
-Ikiin
-Nelly
-EvilBoy
-Akel&Gang
-My Sister
-Parents
-Sec2GirlGangs.
-SomeSec3s.

ETC! there seems to be alot. I don't want to grind my brain anymore.

Mdm Rehana, my form teacher remembered my Birthday & she wished me in the early morning. That's totally sweet. During Chemistry class, she brought me foward facing all my classmates & they began to sing me a Birthday song. Cool, even though i'm not willing to stand & stared. The followng day, she gave me a present.

On Friday,

My friends decided to bring me to watch Nacho Libre!

Sooo funny. I occupied seats between Sugardaddy & Rusdn. We bought popcorns, 4 medium cups of water, 1 sausage & 2 potato chips in total.. Blewed away many bucks.
After hanging out with them..

My parents treated me @ Bagus IMM.

Met rNNe's mother & introduce my family to her. Had a short chat & I;m off digging! I had Garlic Bread, Rojak & Tomyam Soup. My other family members had 2 meals each. From Laksa to Beef Noodles, Bolognese Spagetti & such. I wonder how much we spended on overall!
But it seems that I'm having a great time this week. (:

I'm feeling nauseous lately til yesterday I had to take an early leave home.

I wonder what's wrong with me.

I didnt even had the luxury of time to spend on surfing the net. Guess I'd been too busy burying myself in piles of hws. Tooo much of accounting & Ptolemy's Geocentric model of the universe. I had to hold on, even if my head somehow hurts.

Besides that, I MISS THEM.

There are so many inponderables that is impossible to make an accurate prediction of how much & why I miss them. :(
Maybe they're just too special to me?

Not sure.

I got to spend cute quality time with them today. We had sooo much laugh on the topics we brought & made out.
I was just moaning about having a stomach ache when suddenly sugar spit topics about Shit! from there we talked about our childhood experience on how we used to passed out & such. Haha! Taklehh anngss. Then to all kinds of stupid topics.


After that, One by one went off seperate ways & we're down to me, sugar, Ruff & Rusdn. Send sugar home & I'm left with Rusdn & Ruff. It became more peacefull & I headed home, leaving them both behind. I need to brush up my studies & my mother wanted me home to accompany her for urgent mattters.
How sad I can't attend today's Interact meeting,
Im hoping they would understand.

I tried soo hard to draw a smile even though Im crying inside. Dayah's no longer belong to our group. She had moved on with her life with Glenn's group. One by one leaving us behind. Yesterday, Ruff decided to leave us for a while to accomplish his task in observing. Even though I dont want him to leave badly, I just have to swallow the sorrow & wish him goodluck. :(
I can only fully depend on ramdhan, faRED & the twins: Rusdan&Rusydi. I realised that all of them starts with letter R. Even my lovely Bestfriend : rNNe. besides that are all my other friends, classmates which are there to hold me on. soo thankfull.
Today was a great day. For today's P.e Lesson, I played badminton with rNNe. Gossh, totally tiresome! Instead of smacking the shuttlecock to London, she landed it to Paris! Get it?? But overall, it's a wonderful game.
I urged myself to be more attentive in class & forced myself to do my homework. I realised, im beginning to get used to it. Only one negative trash I've done today is.. nt to complete my essay for Rehearsals. Dammiits. Well, The rest of the day, I managed to spend quality time with my buddies. And now I know 'who love who'. KIKIKI. (:
7 CUTE DAYS TO SWEET SIXTEEN. lollllss.

SO HAPPY. (:

after sch, we went to alazahar to eat.
a friend of mine treat the group of US, since she got her pay. yiiippee!. We grabbed a heavy meal & some tasty bites of murtabak. overall, we concluded that claypot mee is the tastiest dish on our table.
Library became our next hotspot destination, since i needed to borrow a couple of books. Thats when the strangest thing happened. I went to search for a malay fiction book when all of a sudden two cute Yussofian boys appeared beside me. They've been tagging along behind me since I entered wm. When they got nearer, I went further away. They've been whispering, staring & figgiting for 5mins when suddenly Sugardaddy appeared & cut off the scene. It's not the first time, they've been doing this @ sch too. Superrweeeirdd.
Before I set off home, I managed to spend time with Ruff & we shared our secrets & problems. I told him off how weird it is, a friend of Ruf..sec 4 guy.. simply to have a crush on me. I just cant accept the fact & trying to take it as a joke. we spot rasul's geng playing st & they were like teasing me off about something. hurhur. whereas at night, a friend of mine dropped by my house & used computer. Sooo glad that to day turned out great. Toodleeess. muacks~

NO USE MAKING ME JEALOUS.
dont be such a big fuck.
i never ever cared.

HATE ME ALL YOU WANT.
just realise u're bangla bitches.

LOVE ME ALL YOU WANT.
may god bless you.

WHEN U GOSSIPED TOO MUCH,
IT SHOWS THAT:
u're one potential person;
to join makbedahs' club & rot.

NO USE ACTING GOOD.
because u're not the only one.

NO USE SHOWING OFF UR GUY.
as if he's the best one ard.
nobody ever bothers.

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I HATE THIS. (:

There are a number of reasons that people lie. The first is fear. This is the most common reason that people may lie, and they are taking shelter from a perceived punishment. It may be because they know they have done something wrong a single time, in which case it is not compulsive lying. But if they are always in fear of being punished, it may become a habit, which is a second reason for lying. In this case, it may become compulsive lying, which is lying by reflex. Even when confronted by the truth, they insist the lie is the truth in this case. A third case is learning to lie through modeling. When a people see others lie, especially when they get away with it, they may become more prone to lying. Finally, people lie because they feel if they tell the truth they won't get what they want. Thus, out of the main reasons for lying, only lying by habit can truly be called "compulsive lying."

I WONT BE UPDATING MUCH. IM DEAD SICK.

Love Defined
A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness.

A feeling of intense desire and attraction toward a person with whom one is disposed to make a pair; the emotion of sex and romance.

Perhaps, the most important of Divine Laws is the 'law of love.' Put simply, "Love is Law, Law is Love." This amounts to the same thing as "the gift of giving" without the hope of reward or pay, or serving others. When you do the right thing for others you receive gifts in unexpected ways. Paradoxically, those who help you may not be those you help. The help you receive may come from surprisingly distant connections.
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The guy will say :
"My lady's presence makes the roses red."
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IM HAVING A VESTED INTEREST
IN MAKING THAT BLACK GIRL ASHAMED.
Since she spread rumors abt me like lightning.
I strenuously denied the accusations,
but i won't ever raise a white flag.
EVEN IF I HAD ENOUGH TILL TODAY.
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Today, i hung out with my group.
But we're terribly dirty - minded.
ALL DIRTY TOPICS U CAN THINK OFF.
Bullshits. They kept teasing me.
If not this guy, it will be..
that guy. Sniffs Sniffs. (-.-"
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LESSON TO LEARN:
ONCE U THINK U'RE GOOD,
ALWAYS THINK THERES SOMEONE
BETTER THAN YOU. (:
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PS: im starting my dance course back this july.
Just for one cute month.
This time, two new guys are joining in from
marsiling; as breakdancers. xD

For the love of money is the root of all evil: which while some coveted after, they have erred from the faith, and pierced themselves through with many sorrows.

U may spend all your money on useless branded stuff. When u know u just belong to a normal family, which parents need a helping hand. But u showed - off instead.
For the life of mine, Im lucky to be born fortunate. To have a beautiful experienced married sister, A handsome talented brother, A hardworking parents & certainly a car, money, two cribs to satisfy me. (: But im never like THOSE.
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BACK TO SCHOOL, FINALLY.
SCHOOL IS BETTER THAN WORKING.
IF ONLY I CAN NEVER GROW OLD. (:
I tried my very best to focus on every lessons.I give a naive & simplistic approach to Maths especially. Since it's the most important & labelled as one of my weak subjects; even though i scored well at times. This brings me vexation. (-.-"
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Some "minah pukimaks" thought that since i'd written my english horribly, im a worst fucking writer. hell, they don't even know, i'm in a hurry & i badly need to study. they said, im still a kid. BUT DONT THEY REALISED?
THEY'VE BEEN A FUCKING KID BEFORE TOO? (:
Maybe they are way more geekier! "lebih kental nak mampos!" I even looked at my sister's & brother's photos last time when they're younger. zaman taik.
too bad they didn't get to feel the enjoyment we had now as a young teenager. we have better learning center. We're so lucky, unlike them. They had to think of ending their teenage life & start a family. Safe money & such.
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LESSON TO LEARN:
BEFORE U LOOK ON OTHER PEOPLE,
LOOK AT YOURSELF IN THE MIRROR.