(a phenomenal love song that describes my situation. heres the link if u wish to listen.)
http://www.imeem.com/noridomi/music/3zvQQ-cS/hugh_grant_haley_bennett_way_back_into_love/


hello.
dont mind me talking to myself for awhile.

ROSE. LISTEN ! WAKE UP. STOP BEING A LIAR AND ALL CAN YOU!! bodoh ke pe ? why the in the bluest hell are you hiding your tears ? and showing FAKE smiles ? whats that suppose to mean, faker ? stop the pretence rose. why are you running from the truth ? that all you think of is him. and ure drowning. how should i ever apprehend to this.

hear me. stop hoping for something hope-LESS. he's happy with his life now. he does'nt need YOU. dont just stand there. walk !!! why are you soooo weak rose ???? stop being so forgiving too ! whats with crying silently every night you go to sleep ? when he's sleeping his nights away. are you out of your mind ? its useless, believe it. i know you cant bear to let him off. ure TOO concern about him. wondering of his where abouts, health etc. haisk just heck care lah ! pls rose !
yeah, i know he's different from anybody you know. everybody is unique in their own ways. but life is cruel. love is selfish. some people just put self before others. they put their happiness 1st than yours. they happy, u suffer takpe. them both, let them be. when something bad comes, the good will be on its way. trust me.


see. now ure crying. ure weak still.



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im advising myself now. i dont want to be label-ed as a person who can advice people but cant even advice and unacknowledged of my own self. worth a try. i feel better now.


ANBAR