I HATE MY NEW TIMETABLE FOR TUES & THURS!

WEEHEE ! Im halfway recovering from my dissapointing asthma & fever. Imagine hitting the point of 39.5 degrees. It's something i dont want to recall much. Anyway im back to school this coming Monday. :D Hehehehe. I miss Nasi Ayam Sambal & Mushroom Sp !

Sometimes. I feel stupid for playing back those songs which makes me remind myself of the past down at Woodlands. I should be moving on. Looking forward. And never turn back. Well, no matter what, memories stays huh.

just when i was about to reach the top with felicity, snap! now im at the bottom again. feeling at my worst. stressing about money. i hate saman. like who loves it right? Moreover with dad trashing more books ontop of me. Me, trying to balance the whole pile of books. One more book, im gonna trip and fall. My dad took a whole 2 months leave. He finished off most of our savings on ciggies , and we have to feed ourselves instant noodles almost everyday. I didnt dare to tell this off to my friends. I dont want anybody's sympathy or stash. Let me suffer this alone.
Once my dad is done with his 2 months leave, im happy again. and after 6 months, he will be promoted and will be offered to work overseas. Either dubai or oman. I'm fucking excited on this part. Cause he's bringing me , my mum , my brother along ! Staying there for atleast 3 months. Cool or what !

Dayymmm ! Something is ultra wrong with my ite portal siaaaaaaa. T-T

I can't seem to reveal my results. It doesnt work still after so many attempts.

I really have to figure out something soluble.


Anyway i watch a movie badly !!!! :(

Finally done wit my 2nd song :D " Don't come to me " But personally i think it wasnt well done. Just my voicals. Huhu. Other than that, it's fine. Will be posted by Phathell in FB soon. :B

Anyway i miss him.
I miss rushie wooshie sushie.
I miss encik ahmad(;
my fuckers from ite.
and bitches from workplace.

weeeheeee


i'm gonna be drop dead busy today. heading out jalan jalan wit the woodlanders.

To be honest , i am in my worst mood. But i dont wanna evoke it to myself. Chillek. :]
Im going to bisect my freetime today into two. Meet up with heen to escalate on our two new songs. And hang around with Rushie bestie , aphat , loco . Theyre somesort my happy pills . Atleast sejuk jugak hati aku hari nie :) Huhu . These week i'll be pretty busy in terms of hanging out. Tuesday, wednesday, saturday, sunday dah confirm busy to the max. Tha other free time goes to work. Fooooooooooh. Busy busy.

And somehow unexpected people contacted me back after so long . Kiddo ( Zulhilmi ) whose in ns right now contacted me back . We treated each other like brother sister now . He smsed me yesterday just to tell me he watched soccer wdl vs home united and they drawed . Then MUS contacted me back ! My all time favourite dearest friend . He smsed just to tell me he's botak now. Haha , random seh ! He cut botak because of work ? Err . @.@


i gtg , need to get ready :D

As expected, a mundane monday. @.@ !
Feeling ultra restless. Chill chill apple the whole day.
Eat sleep tv computer.
Brainstormed on my catchy lyrics.
Moreover with the never ending rain out there. It's something impropable during March. So i rather be somewhere indoors.

Anyway , bf's msg is daymmmm agonizing. Im so sad. I dont wanna brag much. :[ I don't know what did i do to be treated like this. I swear i never hurt you before. But you always did. Am i not special to you at all ? I wonder so much :(.

its Been awhile since i updated. Both my laptop & desktop needs to consult a doctor. Now I'm struggling, shaking, shivering with every alphabet to click. keyboard errors.

anyway I've published my 1st new song titled 'what about me' :]. download able at 4shared. up next I'm joining forces with heen elfenzo. hehehe. working on two songs titled 'don't come to me' & 'cinta tidak kesampaian'. thanks to 245productions for the beat. :D god bless u.

Rebonded my hair. =D
never ever gonna perm it.
i rather its silky straight.
most girls out there looks ugly with curly hair. no offence :]

I'm done with my lyrics.
PS. Got nothing to do with anybody.
So here it goes. With simple english.

I SACRIFISED MY SLEEP TO BE YOUR STARRY NIGHT,
I WALKED MILES JUST TO SEE IF YOU'RE ALRIGHT,

I HEARD ALL YOUR FEARS,
YOUR SECRETS N YOUR DREAMS,
I WOULD LISTEN WHEN YOU BREAK IN TEARS.

I COUNTED EVERY TEAR YOU CRIED,
JUST TO MAKE SURE ITS NOT AS MUCH AS YOUR SMILE I LIKED,

WHY IT'S ALL BOUT YOU,
NOTHING BOUT ME,
WHY I GOT THE PAIN,
N YOU LEFT ME WITH ALL THE BLAME!

CHORUS/

FORGET ABOUT THOSE DAYS,
FORGET ABOUT THOSE NIGHTS,
FORGET THAT WE WERE ONCE SO RIGHT.

DONT WANNA HEAR YOUR VOICE,
DONT WANNA SEE YOU,
DONT WANNA DO ANYTHING GOT TO DO WITH YOU.

so how is it :D :) ? Hahaha ! It's been a long time since i wrote a proper one. Just a short draft or two eversince im bombed with school assignments.

Anyway. School's a bore. Did a bundle of revision papers. Exam's next week. Daym, I'm shaking. Hahahahaha. I need to bloody revise on bearings ! Not those maths topic on bearings. But those ball bearings, roller bearings, bush bearings. Tsk tsk. I know nothing about it. ~.~
I'm spending my whole night today at Pasir ris till 7am tmrw. So i'll blog when i'm free.

Can someone relay to Fairouzs that i love him so :) ? Hehe. Random seh.
Anyway. Malique nigga just produced a beat for me today. My mind got bombed since yesterday night. Creating an almost perfect lyric. It's almost done. Wait till im done i'll publish it kae ?
Tmrw my Section head organised a team bonding event at ALOHA CHALET. To go or not to go ? THATS THE QUESTION !

Was expecting a mundane night.
But things dont always turn out the way we expected right.
So im not suprised. :) Hehe.

Cancelled my meet with Fairouzs.
And my meet with Vanessa Adrianne Nunis.
I roused from my seat and rushed excitedly to Scape at Youth Park to meet Bffs.
Since Tampines is almost an accessible place to go anywhere in the North.

The atmosphere and the crowds down there ROMP SIOL !!
Haha. Seriously.
And Sheikh Haikel Junior is so adorable !
Of course this little boy raps well.
Tengok lah bapak dier siapahhh kan. Hahaha.
Met up with Khai aphat , Amirul , Hariz , Heen elfenzo and Loco.
Khai seemed melancholic and disturbed by the crowds.
Oh yes , I'm so sorry i didnt make it on time to witness your performance.
The rest of bekas TIP was there too.
Had a short chat with my favourite Shidy and Loco.
And we went seperate ways.

Ate at KFC. Finished off Hariz's cheese fries.
Logged on to Facebook through Heen's Iphone.
Got my hands on my baby psp all the way home.
Got myself into another realm. Where only Naruto Shippuden character exists. Hahahaha.
Fought halfway through the tower.
And here i am ! Haha.
Back to earth , I wanna sleep. Nite earthlings.

i had some lovable moments with rushie & loco.
but to some dissapointment. we bumped into hyder.
when he got engrossed into a conversation with rushie, loco and i were practically bitching about him by bluetoothing msg.
poor rushie can't help wondering what got into our sleeves. ish ish. haha.

then we bumped into hidayah and zul.
hugged them tight.
seriously. looking at them. i just miss those old days.
back in those times in a food chain restaurant named pizzahut.
i remembered i was sending a toasted garlic bread to this customer ,
then tiber tiber i slipped and the garlic bread flewed all the way to the east
macam bukit batok ke pasir ris and hit the wall ! haha !
selenger nak mampos seh !! urgh.
anyway. im happy working in 7eleven now. :)
goodnight.

you know what bothers me most ? ORANG BERBUAL WORLD. That's sadistic in a way. You are pulling a person's leg in a convincing manner. But ask yourself this. Whats the outcome. Isn't it a relieve to just say the truth.
Common, tak semua org bodoh nak mampos untuk percaya kau okay. Nak world tgk org. Jgn end up malu.
Theres this one guy got i and my music buddies extremely bothered. He claimed he's a Eurasian. What the fuck. Pandai seh dia buat kelakar. Hahaha ! He looks malay. Has a malay name. And his i/c clearly stated that his race is a malay. Race and religion is two different thing okay. And what's wrong being a malay anyway? Wahh , kononnya kalau kau eurasian , kita akan sembah kau, jilat kaki kau ? He even got the guts to actually say the parents that is under one roof with him is not his real parents. Astarfirullah al hazim. Padahal muka bapak dia mirip dia. Ingat , Tuhan dengar seh. Confirm ni punya anak terus pergi mampos masuk neraka sak ! Konon nya his real "Eurasian dad" hit and run. Hahaha. Oh wait. Just look at his facebook. His current city is at New york. I thought this is Singapore ? I think he's dreaming. He even claimed he djed for a club in Australia when he's 15! Hahahaha !! Fucking shit !! Another big joke to laugh about. Theres another. This NITEC certificate holder is acting like a JC student. Tak sedar diri. He taught me English like I'm stupid. If I'm that stupid, i wouldnt be passing my O levels English. Wanna see my certificate ? Im not world. Unlike him. He can just hisap konek sudah ! Hahahahaha ! Lai. Go ahead and spit at me. I'm so not scared of you.

and i miss fairouzs so much. :(

boredom. browsed you tube for videos contented with racist humour and head to toe criticisms. and i remembered about 98.7 fm national rap battle championship.
MUST view it if you've yet to watch. clear your ears. its funny shit !!

yesterday was awesome! was sheeshaing grape apple with rushie bestie, when asyraf came with his two friend to enlighten the atmosphere. throwed our attention to mission impossible two. so we only snapped two pictures. hahaha. mangkuk. bumped into kai and his girlfriend at haji lane. unexpected. kai's my secondary school mate. staying few blocks away. hopefully his gf didnt get the wrong picture when we waved to each other. :)
met fairouzs after that. he loves looking at the trees. purposely. maybe because his wife stays there. hahahahaha. anyway he's booking in today :'). Pls. Hope he's fine in there.

fairouzs. he's mine now :)

Today's a special day cos its my dearest nephew bday :) Riki Safrian. He turns 8 today. Ya i know he looks like chinese. hahaha. Love you riki. :) That's his picture during his P1 days in Admiralty Primary school.

I couldnt sleep last night. It was hell. Just the thought of it makes me wanna eat my fingers. Brrr ! Seram sak.
Just visualise this scenario.
I went back late last night after lepaking with Rushie baby and Asyraf. I went back home as per normal. I knocked on the door continuously expecting my dad to open up the door. But he didnt. I knocked and slammed my palms on the door for 20 good minutes. Only then he opened up and went back to sleep without a word.
I got myself infront of the computer screen. Macam biasa. Checked facebook and tagged. I was alone in the living roon at that point of time. Which i dont mind ah, cos i'm used to it already. My friend Alfa randomly called. It kind of broke the silence. But then i dont know. I felt scared. I tried to get rid of that feeling. I put down the phone. That's when i suddenly terdengar suara sak ! Wtf. It's a voice of a deep man more like a male animal voice. Dragging so fucking loud from the main door. Arghh seram seh. Then i quickly ran into my room without closing all the switches. I covered my head with pillows. And this time i heard switches being turned off/on repeatedly ! Sumpah aku takut. Iyan accompanied me on the phone. My voice trembled throughout the conversation. 2am i fall asleep. 4am i woke up again. This time i got so scared i woke my parents up. My dad who prayed in the living room heard someone meddling the locks and knocking softly. And i dont know how but somehow i fall back asleep.


I have eyebags now.