WOOOOO WOOOO WOOOOO. AKU HAPPPYYYY LARRRR OI.

finally, im meeting him tmr ! woooooo woooooo woooooooooooooo.
i miss him so heavily much.

languished in home SO beats me.spick and span. im done with rotting. KERJA RUMAH SEMUA AKU BUAT TAHU TAK. sweeping, washing the dishes, scrubbing the walls & floors. GEE GEE GEE ! AKU AKU AKU -___- TAMPAR TERBANG!

i want to hook up in working line so i could escape from this ordeal.

its been quite awhile too i contacted her. she's busy working. and she left her boyfriend, which i was not informed. and now, her father left this world. which i was not informed too. im so upset. have she forgotten about me? hidayah, a best sisterly friend for all this years.

Tears clouded my eyes as they roll down my cheeks,
It is your presence this heart of mine seeks.

met him again.
quarelled with him again.
i did not meant to pin u with all of the questions.

i just hate the way u talked with your "bestie" that you never MET.
comments that everybody, a huge bunch of eyes can NOTICE.
MELUAT TAHU TAK!
MELUAT GILER BABI.

*sighs*

im jealous ok.

*pens down*

-.-" . i hate this.

why must i always fight with him over the most little things?
i hate that this happens every unexpected times.
i hate the fact that you said that ive changed.
i hate it.

i hate my hair! i hate my hair! i hate my hair! GILER!
ive been using this hair growth tonic eversince im done with my ugly haircut.
and guess what. the only thing that is growing is my thin FRINGE. WHATA!? FAGGERS!
i think they should call it fringe growth tonic instead of hair god damn it! haiy. SOT NYE AKU

grandma is finally sleeping over for this week! its been half a year since she stepped in this cozy place. & im looking foward for it.

woops sorry.
changed my blogskin & song, AGAIN.
im sick of one easily, very much. so pardon me. nyehe x]

ok serious matter now.
im feeling weird, dead beat.
just imagine youre fighting with your boyfriend, and the next minute.. your bestfriend's BOYFRIEND unexpectedly msged you. in some kind of weird tone & manner. im in that situation this very minute. im feeling creeps. :S

farhad DISLIKE my exposed rock song. i'm no good about beat tracks but i put up wyclef jean's in order to make him happy. for now.

urgh.
ok i know my blogskin is ugly. but it reflects how i felt now VERY WELL. im feeling ugly & dissapointed. seriously, i cant help hating my current hair, very much. God please help me :(

& HELL I NEED A JOOOOOOOOOOOOOOB.
a decent job for me anyone? PLEASE.
all i could do is to be in out partying. NO LIFE.
and im seriously out of cash.
bored lah NYE.

I feel nothing but spaces in my heart, Ive been running in circles
for a sentence to explain the spaces. Every place that I hide, every sound that
I hear is telling me to go and fill my heart once again with your love and
tell you I was wrong to have let you go.

well,i took mickey ( faez) 's advices. he's a very good friend of ruzz. bla bla bla & ruzz decided to meet me up after the whole mess. its like kesian gitu. he had to travel all the way to bukit batok from tampines just to meet me. gee but he sanggup lor. i felt so sorry for him lah cause his day was already totally SUCKISH. his parents dah bonkers at him, and i added even more problems. aku jahat ke? haiz:[

(continued)


- . ruzz rose punya . can? says:
I (L) U OK SYGG...
- . ruzz rose punya . can? says:
i mean it
. rose owns muhd ruzz says:
urgh.
. rose owns muhd ruzz says:
immmm soooooo CONFUSED.
- . ruzz rose punya . can? says:
abt what? im sorry, my fault
. rose owns muhd ruzz says:
leaving.
- . ruzz rose punya . can? says:
noo pls dont...dont do this to me..
- . ruzz rose punya . can? says:
*shocked*
- . ruzz rose punya . can? says:
pleaseee sygg....dont leave me.
- . ruzz rose punya . can? says:
i really regreted what ive done
- . ruzz rose punya . can? says:
pls forgive me..
- . ruzz rose punya . can? says:
*cries*
. rose owns muhd ruzz says:
BRB.

(im in bold. current mood: CONFUSED)

- . ruzz rose punya . can? says:
i just cant forget the whole thing larh.
. rose owns muhd ruzz says:
im not being controlling or what la
. rose owns muhd ruzz says:
im just jealous alrights
- . ruzz rose punya . can? says:
i noe ur terribly jealous.
- . ruzz rose punya . can? says:
i just think that sorry isnt enough
. rose owns muhd ruzz says:
if sorry isnt enough
. rose owns muhd ruzz says:
wad wud be the ting tht is enuff?
- . ruzz rose punya . can? says:
well, if ure planning to leave me for making u feel so jealous and irritated, then i cant do anything.
- . ruzz rose punya . can? says:
i am BAD. trust me
. rose owns muhd ruzz says:
u mean
. rose owns muhd ruzz says:
leacing u is the enuff ting?
. rose owns muhd ruzz says:
*leaving
- . ruzz rose punya . can? says:
well, if thats what is enough for u
. rose owns muhd ruzz says:
that is enough for u
- . ruzz rose punya . can? says:
not to me.
- . ruzz rose punya . can? says:
its like cause i always make u feel like this all.
- . ruzz rose punya . can? says:
im no good
- . ruzz rose punya . can? says:
i cant make ppl ard me happy.
. rose owns muhd ruzz says:
how cud u
. rose owns muhd ruzz says:
how cud u suggest me
. rose owns muhd ruzz says:
such suggestions
. rose owns muhd ruzz says:
suggestions of me leaving u
. rose owns muhd ruzz says:
fine
- . ruzz rose punya . can? says:
im just guessing if tahts what on ur mind.
- . ruzz rose punya . can? says:
sorry much.
- . ruzz rose punya . can? says:
ure leaving me??
. rose owns muhd ruzz says:
no relationship is perfect
. rose owns muhd ruzz says:
mesti ader case like this alrghts
. rose owns muhd ruzz says:
tell me which person makes ppl happy 24/7
. rose owns muhd ruzz says:
i myself did make u unhappy rite
- . ruzz rose punya . can? says:
im sorry cygg....
- . ruzz rose punya . can? says:
idk what i was saying.
- . ruzz rose punya . can? says:
okok
- . ruzz rose punya . can? says:
noones perfect.
- . ruzz rose punya . can? says:
just pls, i dont want to lose you.

i hate my new haircut.
its so short:[
memang mintak kena smack lah that hairdresser. haiya:[
i try to like sort my hair out every now and then. its so horrible la dey. gee. i miss having long, girl-ish hair lah. i look like lollipop kid now. bah:[
feeling like nak pakai wig pun ada. sobs*


& yeah. i did went for a groovy haircut today.with my mum.we also did some pretty make-up shopping.bought new powder,eye shadows,blusher,make-up kit etc. awesome la kan:] heh.
we also had these family eating at 'makan syiok' jurong west.plus with my dad and brother. weeeee. awesome giler:]
so yeah. pretty fun saturday:] exclude my hair pls:]

ok i seriously need my bf now:[
after i logged off at 2plus pm today, he never contacted me eversince.
he's out buying his new handphone.
when i see his ex giving him comments, my imaginations came running wild:[
i felt like im so ugly, so not for him & much more.
its just that i really cant afford to loose him. i love him. i love ruzz.

my sickness is getting worser now. drugs not working, countless of rest not helping. haiya:[
dad tried to help me with pulling of my hair & massaged my head.
& today i only found out that my head had gone even worser.
apa aku kesah, im still heading out of home:] nyahaha.


&today, i followed my ITE friends pergi jamming at chinese garden.
woo. gerek dok:]
its been quite awhile.

it was not costly lar compared to jurong east entertainment. only 12 bucks:]
yeah. & theres kamal, kamal's gf, syam, nurul, 3 other guys, 1 other girl & me.
from 5pm-6pm? yeah:]
kamal was awesome for today's jamming. well of course, he's 19.

well in the end, i ended up missing my bf. i need him now, can i?
lol.

im now done with my new layout.
hooray:]

and ruzz introduced me this very funny video.
better watch now.go click. gogogo:D

gosh, this world is sinking meeeeeeee :(
pffoooo.

im indeed calculatively lost.
i had hard times planning for my future. very hard times finding for work. && super hard times figuring out what to do next, each time.

ive almost nothing to do each day except for those random daily ritual ones. which is. BORING. -.-"

today, umm nothing special.
ate out with my bestie nurul at causeway point banquet.
i ate the special 'cockles fried kway teow'. hahs. sedap woi ! XD.
bought a white shoulder bag at 77th street.
& after tht we took crazy pictures at the void deck.
MUHAHA. XDD.

after those giler-giler,
i met up with my boifey at peninsula.
theres mick, ayam & dumb dumb with us.
fun giler lah :DDD.


im gonna upload those pictures we took real soon ok :)

ok back back back.
:)
no longer commited to blogger, so sorry. pffoooo!
nyaha.



so yest i went too.. a.. VIVO.
i think its 10 months since i entered there ! LOL. -.-"
it was fun, i think.

with my boyfriend.
& his buddies which is..
mick ( faez ) , feiraz, hazim, shidee, nasyitah, dumbdumb etc.

around five plus, ended up with only four of us.
me, my boyfriend, feiraz & mick.
& kebetulan, we 4 wore all black. nyaha. XD
macam sudah janji gitu.
kita chill at the top.
played with the water.
& at 8plus we seperated cuz feiraz & my boyfriend had to went back to chalet.


so yeah.

aku terjatuh dan aku terjatuh lagi.
im tired of LIFE.