that hot guy.
Saturday,i went to the Mrt control station to buy a standard ticket to cityhall.but then i collided with syahirah & my childhood friend.had some awesome chat that i had to delay my Mrt trip by 30 mins!i was late by then and i quickly made my move.i stand behind the yellow line lazily until someone who walked infront of me caught my eye.
he is so hot. (he's into rock)

• from the way he dressed
• to the way he walked
• to the way he present himself
• to the way he listened to his mp4.

everything about him is so hot. * melts* :P

his hair, cardigan, shoe, belt, haversack are hot.

seriously, he caught every of the girl's attention over there.can't be blame though.you know i never regret delaying my Mrt trip by 30 mins.hahaha.the good thing is,we both alight at citihall.the bad thing is,we're off to different places.i went for my dance prac and bought myself 2 dresses.wee.i'm gonna use it tmrw.

shit happens whenever i'm in good terms.the world hates me to be happy.the opportunity was given at a spilt seconds and then,it's gone.i wanted to try out in the speech competition but i wasn't given the opportunity to show my efforts infront of the class.of all the late nights practice.and now dad prevented me from going out just because my mum received a stupid sms saying that i was going to meet up with hidayah.what the hell is that?!i am not going to meet up with her.never i will.i was about to go out and borrow some library books and now, i have to forget about it!
some guys just don't appreciatte the care and concern i have for them.they acted nonchalant whereas they don't know or don't even CARE how worried i am for them!they make me feel like i'm unwanted!like "YOU" .. what ever wrong have i done to "you" that "you" have to do this to me?
one of the other guy EXPECTED me to sms him first.if i don't,he won't!what the hell!!!!!!!!!!!!!! seriously, i'm totally pissed off!!

PEOPLE.right now,i'm eating a chicken.lol, as if u care ey.i simply have no idea why i feel like blogging now, at this time?haah.siow!how am i today?still not well, still pissed.STILL NOT HAPPY.only my dearest mum makes me feel alive.yesterday,my parents & i had done some shopping at Johor.i bought 2 box of bubble yums,a pair of jeans,6 latest original dvds and a shirtee.it was awesome.
only then, i received two new shocking sms.and both of the guys wants me to be their girlfriend.omg.this is totally not the time!argh.rose kat johor pulak tu.i don't reply their im,their smses.and i kept receiving stupid calls with stupid numbers!whatever!i don't care.
now i only cared about my dance.the dance team ive been with for 3 solid years.and i'm back to meet up with them once again.

hello people.
i'm back, with a different url. shock? well no biggy.not that i want to run away from something.my previous blog simply suck.my ever dearest blog prevented me from entering.hell i don't know why.the only solution is to change the url.and it's done.phew.personally,i don't wish to blog because of certain reasons.as usual,boys.i don't know how should i start or is it of use to vent it anyway.

i was wondering why u got yourself so confused.i seriously do not understand you Zali.one minute you are fine and the rest of the minutes,hours,days, you're not.i miss you so bad and i cant help it at all.i wish i could talk to you again.my smile,my usual self,my everything is totally lost!i couldn't seem to find it anywhere.sighs.
i even storied this out to guys i'm close with and yesterday night i took the opportunity to tell it to Nordin.he really gave me good advices.shocking but true.and now all i could ever do is to just wait.im seriously fucking sad.=(

Zamry is coming back from Chalet soon.i cant wait to contact him and share both of our problems together.he's the closesr i have now besides Shamir.

Phew!I miss my home ALOT.never miss this much before.haha.anyway,I just got back from ECP.wee.it was FUN!only that,alot of matreps over there.i'm like SO DISGUSTED whenever i caught sight of them.but overall,it was perfectly awesome.ESPECIALLY my Mrt trip home with my friends.haha.moreover,i spent 70 bucks on just one and a halve solid day!sedih aku.i bought 1 top and 1 roxy slippers.the rest goes to food(: oh well.now i'm busy chatting with Zali.better go off.=P

WEE! IM BACK! haha.no big deal anyway.lol.anyway,been busy with my own personal life.Yet to update & decorate my blog.I find it meaningless to update often anyway.I rather keep my life more private this time.(: And peoples,I've changed my mobile number.feel free to reach me.Nudge me through Msn to get it.and if I can't reply to your msges,I apologise upon that.I've lots of friends to entertain though.heehs.

And today.nothing interesting happened.Suppose to meet up with this guy named Zani.I know him through his twin,Zali.They both are oh so hot.wee.haha.but too bad,I don't feel like going out.so,don't bother knowing about it.haha.ok!I'm off now.

The feeling of guilt still runs inside me. I wonder what am I suppose to do, what am I suppose to say, or what should I had done.

BOYS. - are difficult to deal with.

yesterday, I went out to ECP with Shamir. Guess what? I lost my fucking 40 bucks! BAGUS. I totally lost my mood going there but Shamir still insisted on going to ECP. Oh well, we carried on with our journey & reached there safely. (:

We spent the whole day together.
I'm loving every bits of it. (:


And today, the only good news is that I took the same bus with Arshad & Anis! I'm so happy to set my eyes on Anis again. Sighs, I miss him badly. I miss everything about him. If only he cared to know about it.

been few days I'm cold turkey from the net.
FYI I had this bad stomach ache. A HORRIBLE ONE. pfft. A mixture of diarrhoea and mestruation cramp? pfft! Looks like I have to visit toilet more than I used to.

Oh well, today nothing much had happened. Just that my mum had taken leave to visit school. Had this boring parent-teacher meeting session. * roll eyes * My stinking results? Don't ask. I told you, it's STINKING! Don't bother seeing straight A's in my progress card. But, I realised I should work even more harder. I must not let my dreams destroyed. The course that I'm dreaming to get need at least 11 points! That's hard. REALLY HARD. sighs.

LAST PERSON ..

1. You hung out with?
my ite buddies.

2. You texted?
shamir.

3. You were in a car with?
my dad. he drive the car.


4. Went to the movies with?
my peers who worked at Ramen Ten.

5. Went to the mall with?
Nurul.

6. You talked on the phone to?
shamir.

7. Made you Laugh?
my classmates.

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WOULD YOU RATHER...?
1. Pierce your nose or tongue?
tongue.

2. Be serious or be funny?
funny.

3. Drink whole or skim milk?
whole.

4. Die in a fire or get shot?
shot.

5. Spend time with your parents or
your enemies?
parents. duuh.

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ANSWER TRUTHFULLY...

1. Sun or moon?
moon.

2. Winter or Fall?
fall.

3. Left or right?
right.

4. Sunny or rainy?
rainy.

6. Where do you live?
west side.

7. How many kids do you want?
two.

8. Do you want to get married?
yeah, but not now.

9. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut
it?
twirl.

10. Have you ever eaten S.P.A.M
err.

12. How many kinds of cereal are in
your cabinet?
two kinds.

13. Do you cook
yeah.

14. Current mood?
bored.
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Ok I'm done. pfft. 14 simple questions survey. And 14 is my register number. (: Oh, WHO ASK ANYWAY? haha. Today is the most boring ever. My handphone bill is overdued. pfft. Burned my pocket money hobrribly. Plus, my prepaid is low. argh. Now, I could msg nobody but to call. I forgot to call Nordin yesterday & I called Shamir late. I can't even talk well when Glenn called. pfft. I even have no time to call Nurul. pfft. so busy liao. better go,

24 FEBRUARY 2007.

On the 24th, CHINGAY PARADE 2007 took place.

I met up with Nurul & Spiros at the great wall at 5pm. As usual, I took the train & mess around with Spiros's Mio mobile. His mobile is full of sentimental songs. *sobs sobs*

Reached there safely and began our walkings at Somerset Mrt Station. Spot alot of cute and sachok guys. esp the chingay participants. (:
We also spot Rusydi & his bro, Ruzaini. Moreover, they are the tiketholders for the Chingay Parade. Semangat betol ye..
Then, we ate our dinner at Youth Park. Lepasnya Maghrib, we continued our walkings from Cathay Cinneleisure onwards.

Met up wth Faris's gang this time & we continued walking towards the end of the Chingay's railings. There we finally stopped and start waving at the participants.
Faris and his friends sneaked over the railings and took pictures of all kinds of participants with weird costumes. That was fun! Esp the fact that there are TOO many cute guys. *giggles*haha.
Lots of things had happened & seriously, I did'nt regret going. =P

At 10plus, I went home..

Hell.. Today was d most BORING day ever.
School was fuggin boring. Home was fuggin boring. Everything was, BORING. Ergh, I did'nt get it myself! *pull hairs* I've been sticking onto this boring computer for a boring 2 hours now. Even tho my friend is right by my side, I still felt BORING.

Tonight I will attend d Kelas Bimbingan Remaja @ Masjid ALMUKMININ. ( tu laa.. baik sgt =s ) That's d only time I would'nt get bored. It's actually and indeed fun. Cool & hawt uztaz, cute & friendly mates, calm & lovely environment. My big bro and his gf will be there of course. Not to mention the familiar faces from neighbouring schools. Still have to wait for that.. cause now is only 4.30pm. =[


Tick tock tick tock.



THURSDAY POST.

Today was'nt my stinking lucky day, at all. Early in the morn, my teacher issued me the Pink Form. That means.. DETENTION. *roll eyes* Well not bad actually as it was held at the computer lab with loads of known peoples to accompany with. The case of Smooching, Glue Sniffing, Hanging ard the void deck & stuff like that. I witnessed it myself cause mostly are my junior friends. I signed off at 4pm. Thanks to that malay teacher.
I walked home alone and gayut with my friend on the phone till I reached home. Sooner after that, Mum called me to see if I was okay. So.. I just said : I;m ok. what's wrong Ibu?
Then she told me there's an accident occured near Caltex. A yusoffian girl was lying on the road ,unconcious... That's reallyy.. *text missing*
She's relieved it was not me & adviced me to be extra careful. She just can't afford to loose me.

Chey, Syg Ibu... =P

Now I became more closer to Hyrul's bestfriend- ZAMRY. Found out that he have deep connection with SHAMIR. Hmmf.

SUNDAY POST.

Phew! Just got back from ECP. Now I'm at my sister's crib.
The rest are busy watching the 'KUNTILANAK' movie.

ECP was so gerek. Diibarat kampung Melayu seiy. Full of malays!( you should know why). Full of hawt malay guys too. * giggles * [ BEHAVE ROSE! ]

Tmrw will be ZAIRIE'S & MY SISTER'S SON: RIKI BIRTHDAY.

just wanna wish them;
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, IN ADVANCE.
God bless you.

To the rest;
GONG XI FA CAI!
happy chinese new year.

SATURDAY POST.

Today, I went to JE Swimming Complex.
Just the miserable two of us. ME & NURUL.

Hell it was so so fun! I really did not regret going.
We both made loads of new friends.
A small dutch boy named Andreaz. FYI He have a hawt mother.
A little malay girl. She kept waving & smilling at me. ( dont know why )
A 3 year old malay boy & his hawt body-built father.
A group of indian - christ family. in Jacuzzi together.

And last, a group of guys.
I was sitting happily by the tunnel of lazy river. When this group of guys attracted our attention and one of them sat beside me. KHAIRUL.
Long after, got to know his friend. SHAMIR.
The rest, I did not manage to know their name.
As promised, I and Nurul meet up with them at KFC. There, we exchange numbers. * smiles *

Thank god, I manage to keep in touch with them.

I MISS HIDAYAT. (:
I MISS ANIS. (:
I MISS DHILAH (:

Hope they're fine. Hmmf.

WEDNESDAY POST.

It's been quite awhile I've been not updating my blog. HELL I'M TERRIBLY BUSY. Piles of hw are left undone. ARGH, I just can't help it. I'm so so bloody stressed up. I had such a bad dream today & everything was so so not right.ARGH.
What's happening to the melody of my life? Why must it sings this way?

One thing, thank god I'm SINGLE. Hello, NO GUY NO CRY.
It's been a long long time since I felt the single-ness. And now I'm feeling it. Not bad after all. Only sometimes, loneliness became my company. But, who cares anyway? There's still a long stretch of road ahead. AND! there's loads and loads of fishes in the sea. So, be it.

FRIDAY POST.

Phew! Im back, exhausted. Well, not THAT EXHAUSTED. Accompanied my girl - friend to meet her boyfriend at great wall. It was a nice slumber chat with em. I and my girl - friend just can't stop commenting the passerbys. *giggles* It was fun, for once. The fascinating part was..

• There are tonnes of hawt guys!~

wee. They really made our eyes CLEAN & BRIGHT. wakaka! who can ever resist. Not to worry cause I'm single & not attached to any. =D So, no problem in that. They(spiros,ian,mawar,nurul) are now out to Lavender. Too bad, I wished not to follow. I am too lazy to ride that damn bus 61. wahaha!

THURSDAY POST.

Today, I was wondering why am I so confused. There's alot of problems in my mind that is not settled. OR should I say, NEVER WILL. My migration to Australia. Will it really happen? Am I ready to leave for good? My friends. Why must they think I side her? Is it wrong for me to be with my own choice of friends? Does'nt mean I'm with her, I'm either as bad as her or side her. Even she, Mdm Rey knew I don't. Sighs. People around. Kept asking me of my ex boyfriend (Rusdan). It is so irritaing u hear that? How am I suppose to forget him sey? Sighs.

Lucky at night, I met up with my friend, EEKIN & FARHAD. I chose to un-bottle my problems to them. They cheered me up pretty well & I ended up laughing endlessly. After that, I met up with ANIS. Arshad was there & when we are about to go the shop, Arshad left us both & went up to Khairul's crib. It was such a windy night. Damn! I'm so so COLD! =[ Lucky, ANIS offered me his jacket. Wee~ Hahaha. I really need something to cover me badly. Hahaha. THANKS ANIS! =D

MONDAY POST.

Monday is quite horrible. I neither feel like smilling meaningfully nor laughing endlessly. All was just a mere pretending job. Just for the sake of others. At this time, I rather bottled up my confusions than share it out.
I hang out with my ITE budds and my girl-friend after school. Around 4+ pm, I met up with EWAN. Supossedly to meet him at 4 sharp. But then, I can't help but to reach late. hehe. SORRY! There at the pondok, Clement, Erwin & the rest was there. Had a short chitchat till around 5pm, I decided to walk off. I took a bus and met up with my ITE budds & my girl - friend again @ CSC pool. Damn we enjoyed it to the bits! We hung out at our usual pot that is at 626 RC. Till time came for us to go on seperate ways, I, my girl - friend, Ian went to take the same bus together. We bought our 'candies' beside a church & Ian departed at 7pm.
Left only I and my girl - friend, we decided to hang around my Spring View neighbourhood. It was a lovely night. We took slow walks & had heart to heart conversations.
There we started to be emotional & I sang out loud like a mad girl.
Damn! The embarassing part was I collided with Anis & his BOYFRIEND Khairul whilst I'm at my crazy side. Argh! Sooo wrong timing. I hope it just won't happen again.

FRIDAY POST.

I realised I became sucha drunken slacker. Pfft! No mood to open up the textbooks, No wish to jog around the neighbourhood,

• No Nothing at ALL I want to do but to S L A C K .

I slack-ed with my girl - friends in the afternoon after we bought a Thumbdrive @ WM. Then, I send one of my girl - friend home whilst the other went to play pool with her Sayang.

At night around 8.40pm, I met up with Anis. He's my 5th floor neighbour. We never met each other till today. He always thought he's a boring guy. Hell, No he wasn't. In fact, He is adorable, extremely fair and gorgeous. =P

At 10pm we went seperate ways inside the same lift. Soon after I realised, Fauzie called. Had a lil' chat. Soon after, Anis ask-ed to call him. So, we chatted till 12am. Then. Hidayat ask-ed to call him. Haha. We chatted till around 1.10am. Fuhh yoo! I was dead drop tired after a long chat non-stop hit siak.

Finally, Alhamdullilah. That was the last call made. And I'm off.

FRIDAY POST.

I had a horrifying dream last night. (MALAM JUMAAT) It was.. UN-IMAGINABLE! *gulp* I was like walking around a big luxurious mansion & suddenly I saw my ex. He, avoided me. The people around me are super W-e-i-r-d = weird. I stepped into the car quickly & this guy sitting beside me got posessed. His eyes turned shiny deepest red & his voice are equal to the moan of a monster.
I tried to whisper under my breath a few strong prayers and grabbed the guy's hand when suddenly he started to tremble & shouted loudly infront of my damn fuck-tard face.

There.. I suddenly woke up and found myself still on the bed at 12pm. My head was so heavy, argh! I just can't help it. That's when I found myself officially absent from school. And here I am. Phew! Luckily, all that happened wasn't a reality. I'm so fatigued after all that even it happened in a dream.

TUESDAY POST.

Nothing is as busy as today. Not even like a stinking bee doing its job. Tsk tsk.
I went to play pool with Ian, Hidayah, Rauf & Spiros. Ian's girlfriend tag along whilst Rusydi & Fared came awhile later. It was damn FUN(: .. bullying them.*giggles*
Collided with Toyol & Rafi in the middle.
I hugged Rafi the moment I greeted him, I miss him so so much. I treat him just like my own brother. It's saddening that he's now in a different school - ITE KLINGMATI. How I wish I was out of Yusof Ishak Sec Sch. It's freaking torturing. I miss Rafi, I miss Fared & most importantly I miss my used-to-be Sugardaddy : RAMDHAN :(
They are irreplacable. Realise that the best starts with 'R' ? (: So key-yut. I wonder how are they doing right now. SIGHS. *gaze at the window* Maybe they could have found new bunchas of friends? And forgotten totally about me? I wonder.
But still, I got my SAYANG(: my newly found kucing. Sometimes, it better to express my worries to cats. They just..LISTEN. and they will start to sayang2. hmm..

MONDAY POST.

Monday is today and I did'nt turn up for school. Damn, had this very torturing headaches!
* rubbing temples * Ouch. Atleast I get to spend most of my time having deep conversation with ayah. He got promoted. And.. He seriously insists on working at Australia.
Which means,
I'll be migrating to Australia. =[ Get it?
Well, I don't think anybody will ever care if I were to leave Singapore anyway. I've nothing to regret leaving Singapore. The best part is, I'm excited for the whole new environment I'm going to have. Singapore is such a busy country and everyday is like a normal stinking day. Everyday, MONEY. MONEY MONEY MONEY. Peoples in Singapore are so busy pressured either on studies or work. Or should I say, TOO PRESSURED. If there at Australia, Ayah will get us a terrace. Wide & spacious area. And most importantly, better education and better pay. Which is approximately 70/hour okey. =D

SIGHS. But we're not thoroughly confirm, YET. InsyaAllah, kalau di izinkan.

SATURDAY POST.


Sucha cold turkey weekend. Phew!*hug pillows tightly* Been raining cats and dogs lately and there is no fullstop in it! Maybe some commas, lol.
Been sick yet I still hungout at my girl-friend's house and destroy her computer. wakaka Xp. Geez, her cat is so! kee-yut. soo.. ADORABLE. That's what I like when I came to her house : To play around with her cat, name-d PUTIH(:
I love white cats~

Lepas tu, Around 7.50pm;Tuah offer me to accompany him lepak downstairs as he wanted to smoke his candy: ciggarettes. Since he live the same block as my friend, why not?
So had a li' chitchat and he bought his burger and stuff. His friends even believe when we said that I'm his adek sedara! Haha! Obviously, our big difference in height. And damn, I look young. wakaka =D

Am I that short? Haha. I wonder.. =D