Now Listening to: House Music: Calabria Remix by Eric Morillo/Randy Katana.

Back from: Accompanying Ibu to Salon (Hair Rebonding),
Buying Slippers, Nail Anemal (transparent pink),
Eating at KFC fast food Restaurant.

I have those polka-dot feeling today. My attire shows it all.
Polka-dot top, Polka-dot handbag, Polka-dot wallet! haha!

Yet I felt clean too with fresh white top color, white slippers & white teeth. ((:

Although I'm feeling all this, I felt worried too.
Worried about getting a job. BADLY!!
Got a helping hand from my Ibu first & foremostly. ((:
Second is from my dearest beloved friends.
Last but not least is from my godsister.

I told her off how dissapointed I am in killing my time at home, outside..
and!! to wake up late. VERY LATE!!! afternoons is like mornings to me.
since she have friends devoted in sales, she will recommend me to them.

What Shops? well it's zara & a x.


can't wait..!! ((: till then.

I'm Back!
Been too busy this week. Let me summarise what happenned recently.(:
On monday, I went to "jalan raya" with the technicals.

Those who went: Me, Rusdan, Rusydi, Rafi, Rasul, Ramdhan, Rayyan, Rizyanti, Ridhuan, Rasyiqah, Rasyiqah's bf, Furqaan, Yan, Said, Surayah, Surayah's bf, Hamdan, Hamdan's gf, Faizal, Faizal's gf, Fadhilah, Fadilah's bf, Hafiz, Ian, Nazri

Went to ____ house: Rayyan, Yan, Nordin etc..

On tuesday,

Those who went: Me, Rusdan, Iqmal, Sufiyan, Maszlee, Firdaus, Insyirah, Atiqah, Azrin, Huda, Iman, Akil, Zairie, Zairie's gf, Ahmad, Ahmad's gf, Amirul

Went to ____ house: Firdaus, Mdm Rehana, Akil, Fairuz, Iqmal, Mazslee etc..

Cheeses, I had total fun interacting with Ahmad's gf, Nadia. She's pretty! Plus Zairie's gf, Nana. Haha! I wonder if she can "tahan" Zairie's cheekiness. Bleuk! Overall I guess Mdm Rey & Iqmal's mum dishes is the tastiest. Mdm Rey cooked seashell-shaped pasta with prego sauce. Delicious! Whilst Iqmal's mum cooked Mee Soto with different kinds of toppings to choose from. WOWS, I'm totally impressed. ((-: Too bad if u never get to taste it.Planned to go out with them again next week.
This time we bring along Khalil, Aisah, Ifwat, Haikal. (:
*YEAYS*

stress gila babi sak aku!
tak boleh angkat sey.

Perangai macam taik beruk!
Atleast beruk pun tak ada menyusahkan orang sangat macam dia.
Tak serik-serik ke dia curi, hilangkan benda orang, berhutang?
Bukan itu aja. Dah kena bedal rabak-rabak dari bapak dia, tapi masih buat lagi. Harap jer otak pandai dalam pelajaran, tapi pasal ini, tak boleh handle. bodoh sak.
Dah lama aku kawan dengan dia. Tapi dengan aku sekali dia kena kan.
Dah curi benda aku banyak, handphone lagi. Sekarang, bodoh sangat kasi hilang kan kawan aku punya videocamera. Reason dia semua macam biji kelentik dia! Serious sey. Sial la perangai. Siapa-siapa yang tahu pasal perkara ini, kau orang patut tahu la, jangan percayakan dia lagi, kalau tidak! harta kau jugak dia telan buat taik!

[English] I love you

[Polish] Ja kocham ciiebiie

[French] Je t'aiime

[Hindi] Hum tumhe pyar karte hae

[Czech] Miilujii te

[Slovakian] Lu'biim ta

[Italian] Tii amo

[Ukrainian] Ya tebe kahayu

[German] Iish liibe diish

[Chinese] Wo aii nii

[Greek] S' agapo

[Hawaian] Aloha wau iia oii

[Lithuianian] Tav myliiu

[Korean] Sa rang hae yo

[Japanese] Aii shii te ru

[Romanian] Te ubsec

[Bosnian] Bo iis te

[Albanian] Te dua

[Phillipino] Mahal kiita

[Spanish] Ti amo

[Portugese] Amo te

[Arabic] Annah be hebic

It's amazing how love can transform:
a normal person into a muddle-headed person;
a hot-tempered person into an even-tempered person;
an unromantic person into a romantic person;
a sane person into an insane person;
an unsuccessful person into a successful person;

They say: Behind every successful man there's a woman.
I guess my Ayah & Ibu obviously shows it all. If not for Ibu, my Ayah would not be as successful as now he is. Through thick & thin, Ibu has been there to help, catch & console Ayah. Until now..

Lucky is the man is the first love of a woman,
Luckier is the woman is the last love of a man.

Well, back to my life story..
Yesterday my family and I went to break our fast @ Habib Family Restaurant. As usual, ordered one of my favourites:
Thai Kway Teow Fried Noodles. ((-:
Received a last-minute call from my sister.
She persuaded us to accompany her with her husband & sons to Gaylang.
Even with our "baju-slack-nak-mampos", we still headed off to Gaylang.
Well "nak rasakan suasana nyer punya pasal"
Still can potray how badly I'd been treated outside Golden Chance.
Argh! better not talk about it. Till then..

The moment I saw you,
I can't seem to describe how happy I am to see you.
On that only 5 minutes, how we both wished that we could pootle all day once again like we used to. But we just have to wait, we just have to endure.

I spent the whole afternoon in the library yesterday. Seems to be so addicted to reading the Singapore's Most Popular Magazine & Gila-Gila magazine.

EXTRACTED FROM GILA-GILA MAGAZINE.
Bulan itu bulan Ramadhan.
Mona pergi dapur, dia nampak byk donut.
Hmm.. sedap. Apa lagi?! Dia NGAP lar.
Dia NGAP punyer NGAP.. Mina masuk dapur.
Mina nampak, Mina terperanjat.
"OI! kau buat aper tu!!!"
Mona terus muntah balik makanan tu.
"OI!! Da 14 donut kau telan, nak muntah balik buat aper!!"

[got to go, I'm off to gaylang]

Again, they refrain us from meeting each other.

How cruel can this world could be?

Just 1 tight minute I get to see you and then..
*poooffts* you're gone. Out of my sight.

There.. I'm alone. Only darkness able to accompany me home.
If I were to follow my heart, I would have attempt suicide.
I would have grab a gun,attach a silencer,insert 32 calibre bullets
& shoot myself in this cold night.

But I know that is stupid.. and impossible..

It's just that, I can't take this pain anymore.

It's difficult for both of us to endure & lace-up through this period of time.
Peoples around us tested our endurance for two weeks, but
they never vision how torturing its going to be.

Why must they interfere in our relationship?
Why must they be unhappy for us?

Tsk.. This left me no choice but to take the challange.

[JUST FOR U]

Meanwhile, back at home today..

I help my Ibu in making - Mushroom-shaped cornflakes cookies.
Trying not to be lackadaisical, I complete the tasks smoothly.
Moreover I will get my "upah".. ((-: $$$$$.

Ayah cooked for us Lemak Ayam Chilli Padi.

I smsed twin(rdn) after that & coicidentally
his mother is making cornflakes cookies too!
"KEPO! HAHA.."

For buka, he's eating Nasi Ayam Penyek.
Damn.. I've been craving that for a long time.

Oh well.. better get going.

Mid-Week Jokes.


Man comes home, finds his wife with his friend in bed.
He shoots his friend to death.
Wife says "If you behave like this, you will lose ALL your friends".

Small Boy wrote to Santa Claus," send me a brother"
Santa wrote back," SEND ME YOUR MOTHER"

What is the definition of Mistress?
Someone between the Mister and Mattress

Husband asks , "Do u know the meaning of WIFE??
"Without Information Fighting Everytime"
Wife replies," No, It means ,
"With Idiot For Ever !!!"

Three Feelings:
What's the difference between stress, tension and panic?
Stress is when wife is pregnant,
Tension is when girlfriend is pregnant, and
Panic is when both are pregnant.

Teacher: u know the importance of period?
Kid: Ya, once my sister said she has missed one, my mom fainted, dad got
heart attack & our driver ran away.

Why did they stop printing Pamela Anderson stamps in the U.S?
B'coz people started licking the wrong side.

Women asked man who is traveling with six children, all these kids are
urs??
No, I work in a condom factory & these are customer complaints.

Two men met while both where looking for their lost wives.
1st: How urs look like?
2nd: She is 5"7, 36-24-36, Fair, Black eyes. Wat abt urs?
1st: Forget mine. Lets find yours!!

Sons asks difference between confidence and confidential
Dad says, you are my son, im confident. ur friend is also my son,
that's confidential!

Received emails from my big sister recently.

I find this cool.

Moreover it was published on my BIRTHDAY.

A HOLY FISH.

My family turned against me.
And somehow I felt like a stranger to them.

Argy bargy between us had started since yesterday.
Where's the bolthole in this world?
Since I'm not needed by them anymore?

IN MY LIFE,
I wish no one to correct me except my parents.
If u're not my parent & u want to correct me,
Correct yourself before u correct me.

Look at yourself.
Saying its shameful to gossip, yet u gossip about me.
Saying u're scared of God, yet u do sinful acts.
TALK BIG ONLY!
[apa lagi bulan Ramadhan yer]

Unhappy with my looks?
Look at yourself again.
Are u way better than me?
Look like a model & no excessive fats bulging out?
If u are, I have no comment.

What & Who I want to be, it's my choice.

WELL, WELL..

Found a piece of dirty joke extracted from a certain known webbie.
I find it humorous though. Go ahead & read.

Pinocchio talks to Gepetto:

- Daddy my dick is all jagged and crooked so I have no success with girls.

- You know, my son, I didn’t care too much about that detail, but that should not be a problem. Go to the shop, take a sandpaper and fix it.

After some time, Gepetto asks Pinocchio:

- Well, did you resolve the problem with the girls?

- Daddy, since I got the sandpaper who needs the girls anymore -


--- Back about me ---

Still, I'm maintaining my health to an acceptable level.
But... I guess I'm more worried about my studies!
For me, it's a battle btwn life & death.
I really am not into ITE! I want to enter sec5;
B-A-D-L-Y !
Studied pretty hard lately. Done alot of tests.
Here I've calculated all my mock/try out sets marks-

Chem Mock paper - 33/50
Chem set11 (prelim03) - 39/48
Chem set10 (prelim02) - 47/58
Chem Suqunsec06 paper 3 - 11/20
Maths Mock paper1 (paper1) - 51/60
Maths Mock paper2(paper1-kranjisec) - 52/60

STUDY HARD. PARTY HARD (later).

Aaaachoo! Not again!

Why do I have to fall sick that often?
Unlikely, I'm adapting with sensitive skins;
due to family genes.

This enables higher chances of getting sick!

However,
I hung out at Twin's house again today.
This time, twin (R)dan persuaded us;
friends & I having a room theater.
We watched Underworld Revolution.

Disgusting! Especially the part that the hero & heroin really "played".

They like it, They laughed, They increased in voltage..

Man, I'm getting even sicker by the sight of it.

Yipee!

Finally managed to replace into a new skin.

I guess it looked likely more 'decent' than my previous;
rock fulfilling dream.
It harshly took 3 solid hours to complete it all.

Since it kindly replaced the passing time of fasting,
I'm satisfied with the countdown to break my fast.
woohoo! hahaha..

But still, I felt rotten sitting down for so long!
I really have to accomplish my housechores task.
And ouh! my home revisions!



Ok. u should know I better get going.

My heart were
still in pain.

still unconcious.
All because of my last day with dearest Mr Ishak.

It really broke me down emotionally as he withdrawed his tears.

I silently confessed a 'doa' under my breath,
Hoping for his safety & thankfull,

to have met him on my once-in-a-lifetime journey.

Take care.

Seems like I just entered the path of heaven.

Happiness received with open arms every single moment.
Alhamdullilah,
Thank God for birthing me delicate smiles.

Studies became more meaningful to myself.
I set my path to polytechnics,
but somehow I got a bundle of negative thoughts that I could'nt.

I get to reach myself to the twin's crib twice lately.
One of them is today.
I managed to have high quality fun with them, plus their maid.
I & Ram fought for tv.
I, Art Attack
Ram, Spongebob Squarepants.

Damn! they pointed me out as the
LONGNOSE animal from spongebob series.
Grr, I don't know the name exactly, but it's so UGLY!
.
Whatever!

i felt so low & fragile.
Touch me a little,
I sensed a high voltage of pain
running through my veins.
I had a conflict lately with a few friend of mine.

Only one major that I had dealt with.

Alhamdulillah, I managed to seek for forgiveness & was accepted sincerely. Just after our hearts - out conversation.
But I know deep down inside, we still store our bitter sorrows.

"Dear god, please help me, I'm startng to hate myself! "

The day I have to note down.

I had a heavy quarell with my bro. I never meant to, he should know. But it had happened. My room was astonishingly messed up like a forest. Drawers rested its base at every corner of my room.

Im crying heavily as I drove myself into this MSN world. BLOGGER. I showed my worst facial expression & shouted for no reason. My daddy just looked at me with full of meanings in his eyes. He & mummy quarelled too.

Im lucky enough, before the day ended,
My heart softens as I heard his voice across the telephone line.
We shared our problems together.
More like bestfriends u can say.
And there..
I realised I had to be patient.
Somehow I left with no choice but to swallow it.

The pain that was crawling inside my foot was still visible to my senses.
All because of having a bad fall in cinema recently.
A REALLY BAD FALL! until my face reach the carpet!
It really answer to the nature that I'm going to lead a horrible week.
AND GUESS WHAT? IT IS TRUE!
hold your applauses if u were to give a mean remark.
You might ask what really happened today won't you?

After that bad fall, I had ANOTHER FALL!
urgh. you can set ur applauses now.
not at cinema, but at a hellish staircase.
MOREOVER, it happened..
infront of that twin! twice!
& my face painted a deepest red!

It's getting even weaker every minute.
I managed to walk still and had a normal time with my friends.
Red, Ram, Di, Dan, Toyol.
I pitied Lulu somehow she had to attend to her father at hospital.
So we decided to spent our time at bowling centre. duh!
And yeah.. RusyD won~ *roll eyes* haha!

Those fun moments lasted only for awhile.
The horrible curse still on the line.
It turned out that each of my friends led out their inner problems.
I learnt that basically it involved love & friendships.
Friendships is all on between us. Those frightful misunderstandings.
This is what happens when we're all too close. *sighs*
They seemed to blow their anger everytime.
(fierce se.. da besar drg)

I tend to relax my mind still.
I took this as a part & parcel of life.

To all Muslims, I would like to share an e-mail I received today. Happy reading!

There was a young man who went overseas to study forquite a long time. When he returned, he asked his parents to find him a religious scholar or any expert who could answer his 3 Questions.
Finally, his parents were able to find a Muslim scholar.=20

Young man: Who are you? Can you answer my questions?
Scholar: I am one of Allah (SubHana Wa Ta`ala )'s slaves and Insha-Allah
(God willing), I will be able to answer ur questions.
Young man: Are you sure?
A lot of Professors and experts were not able to answer my questions.
Scholar: I will try my best, with the help of Allah(SubHana WaTa`ala).

Young Man: I have 3 questions:
1. Does God exist? If so, show me His shape.
2. What is thaqdir (fate)?
3. If shaitan (Devil) was created from the fire, why at the end he will be thrown to hell that is alsocreated from fire. It certainly will not hurt him at all, since Shaitan (Devil) and the hell were created from fire. Did God not think of it this far?

Suddenly, the Scholar slapped the young man's face very hard.
Young Man (feeling pain): Why do you get angry at me?
Scholar: I am not angry.
The slap is my answer to your three questions.
Young Man: I really don't understand.
Scholar: How do you feel after I slapped you?
Young Man: Of course, I felt the pain.
Scholar: So do you believe that pain exists?
Young Man: Yes.
Scholar: Show me the shape of the pain!
Young Man: I cannot.
Scholar: That is my first answer. All of us feel God'sexistence without being able to see His shape... Lastnight, did you dream that you will be slapped by me?
Young Man: No.
Scholar: Did you ever think that you will get a slap from me, today?
Young Man: No.
Scholar: That is takdir (fate) my second answer...... My hand that I used to slap you, what is it created from?
Young Man: It is created from flesh.
Scholar: How do you feel after I slapped you?
Young Man: In pain.
Scholar: Thats it. this is my third answer, Even though Shaitan (Devil) and also the hell were created from the fire, if Allah wants, insha-Allah (God willing), the hell will become a very painful Place for Shaitan.

Im feeling scared.

I felt that I'm the worst person you could ever think of!

Just after that ghost encounter.
I would not know if you were to believe me or not.
Dig my heart out, I swear that I led out the truth.

On thursday, I had a tired day out.
Off I went to bed, but my mind was uneasy.
Cyclones were haunting my heart,
but still I managed to sleep.

The next day ( Friday ), I went out with my friends.
We went to catch a movie : Frostbite.
Gross! That's the comment I could thought of.
It all based on vampires & nasty dripping bloods.
When I arrived home, that was the time I received a horrifying news.

My mum went bonkers over me all of the sudden.
She told me hundreds of time not to break our religious rules.
I eyes never let a blink and my heart dropped.

"At 2am, your brother was about to went to bed.
As he was about to enter his bedroom,
he saw a creature that made his eyes glued to your bedroom.
You know what he saw little lady?
That --------- is infront of you trying to harm you!"

My brother continued : After that, the creature dissapeared
when I looked into it again.

My mother continued : Not only that, I saw it again!
And this did not happenned for no reason. Make sure you repent now.
You're no good person anyway. You never followed Islam's rules.


From then on,
I realised that who I really am now.
And this clearly shows that I have to change to a better human.