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some people might know about my jealousy. it will never fails to exceed its limit.
but somehow God has sent me patience, and share His opinions about perseverance. Remarkable.



I MADE IT.

believe it.


sad as i am now, i leave everything to fate. but that doesnt mean i should give up. i never will. and this feeling for U will remain the same.
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thanks nana for your offer to let me tompang to u-know-i-know-where in ur bf's abg sedara car. i think his car is awesome. with a touch of neon lights on every corner. and of cos, the loud music (:
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AND GUESS WHAT BTW. I have high chances in starting school this month. HNitec app results will be on 9thJan. damn. i just cant wait to start school.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!
like how the msg that was sent to me by 15 diff people ;

"2009 is at your doorstep.... Remember, Life is short, break the rules, forgive and forget quickly, love truly, laugh uncontrollably, and never regret anything that made you SMILE(: "

yeah! and so. this year. my new year resolutions will be simple.
1. try not to revolt towards my parents :) be a good last child. :)
2. complete school and put more effort in respecting teachers and be on time ( insyAllah )
3. to have super abundant amount of cash. hehe.
4. to continue on sticking to one. ;-)

and last, being a good friend to all.

what's yours? :)

25th december post.



MERRY X MAS EVERYONE! Terutama sekali kaum Kristian & sesiapa yang menyambutnya seperti the potential Cik Mas Pizzahut. Hahaha. ;-)

christmas night was fun :) i and the pizzahut-ians spent the nights together.
we went to find a space we can sit with hilarity. we played the card game ' polarbear '.
ema & aisha enkidled the atmosphere. and of course, LIKE DUUUUHHH, i never get to have the polarbear(J) card in all rounds. tgk lah siapa. hehehe ;-P Good luck charms kata kan. Ke ppui !

after that, we switched places & get ourselves comfy at the garden. this time, elfee joined in and we played taiti. eventually my good luck charms wore off and i lost. huahua. ;-P
but nevermind, everybody has its LOSER days right ? :-D haha.

elfee whispered to me something. just that SHORT 2 words. it trembled me. pls let me forget that _____ and i hate to know. cause this person CRUDELY annoys my mind. nuff said. i dont want to like, hyped up and revile upon this.




goodnight !







27th december post.



see this?

yeah i know. its horrible. haha. so its rushie ft. rose. :) we went out today. supposedly to meet up earlier upon to fix up her phone @ WA ard 2pm. but i wasted my time at minimart. huahua ;-P in the end, met her up at 5plus at marina sq. and at night, we went to esplanade. there is this silver leaves. those esp go-ers might know this. and we are free to write whatever we want on it. since we got the opportunity to write on it, we wrote on uncountable leaves.

rmbr rushie? the girl whom provided us markers was putting up this 'are they done yet' face. hahaha.

and sorry hunn! the photo of the leaf we took was not clear at all. :( so i have to give it a pass.

so yes. i'm tired now. update more soon! :)

;nashrun; why do u have to be so sweet?
aww =D and cute too. and and HOT. haha =D

serious. im not kidding u okay. hee.
anyway. thanks for showing me around the cozy simei.
i like that place, i admit that. and the stuffy hotdogs. ;D
all was okto me :) ily ily ily dearest!

and yes.
shaedah. i cant wait for our date this thursday ! u know i know where will we be heading to. right sis? *wink*




someone seems to be having problems with me :) sucker//

i hate when this happens - msn being hacked.

i dont know who the fucking hell used my a/c and toyed with it.
now i have to deal with several down unders.

pls friends, dont get the wrong picture. it may not be me who is online.



;dude; ure just LONELY.

ph peeps, i just want to say that i miss you guys so muchy :(
no one can ever replace you guys, really. its like breaking up with 20-30 boyfriends at a shot.

theres nothing i can do now guys. sorry.


anyhoos, first day of work is ok :). i came late by an hour. hohoho. the work is pure easy. and i made friends with the ahbengs promoter. i can go for a break anytime i can that i took a total of 3 hours break. hahaha.

and for at bugis, my supervisor is pretty lame. he made lame jokes that anybody can hardly laugh. serious. and the work there is busy compared to Paragon. Paragon was populated with rich customers. they kept coming in asking for BB BOLD/STRONG & HTC. whereas at Bugis, they went for Samsung OMNIA/INNOv8 & Sony Erricson. And yes, " THEY ARE INTERESTING CUSTOMERS" .

IVE OFFICIALLY RESIGNED FROM PH.
sorry not to tell u guys earlier. :) i dont want to worry u guys.


Boboi. Its your last day too at PH. & Everybody has its last days. Now you Study well in Ite & dont dissapoint your parents aite mate? Finally, No more 'Rosenita' from you. Hahaha.


I cant wait for this one item to be written off from my wish lists.
You know what is it right Nashrun ? ;-)
Hint, Dickies.

And pls. Accept the fact that Tampines is way better than the EMPTY STRETCH of Simei. Oops. Chill ehk nashrun. ;-) Hidup mesti bersabar. hehehe.

And guess what.
i'm starting on my new job this 12 December. All thanks to Aidil and his angelic mum. Aww. :-) Good friend. If not, I would still be struggling engaging in the PH line. I'll be working at M1 hp shop for short term. weekdays will be at Paragon. weekends will be held at Bugis Junction. So. Dont hesitate to visit this ex- Skinnyfreak. hohoho. See you there ! :-)

Shesh im so addicted to Naruto. just finished watching one of the episodes and i cried. hui hui. :( But im abit slow and edge of the road, ive just about to start on the Shippuden Part. Thanks to GreenGaara for displaying such wonderful clips. hohoho =D

and today, was fun. finally get to have this small buffet with my parents. the food was awesome. i get what i wanted. thanks to thee angelic mum of mine (: HEEEHEE. and after, i slacked with rushie. something happened. and gf, be strong ok. the truth will emerge, trust me.

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anyways, im feeling sad still. problems and more problems. all my friends seemed to have this same patircular problem. friendships, relationships. i dont want to face it. but im FACING IT. seeing them sad, im sad myself. listening to their problems, MY PROBLEMS? im listening it to myself. and it will remain to myself.

I miss you.

Can't deny the fact im so so down right now. Clutch my heart, trust me it would break beautifully.
let me put in bananas form.
someone saw B1 with B2 yesterday. same pyjamas. under ONE ROOF. this never happened. till B2 confronted me this ONE question. tell you what B2. kata kata kau tak ber alas. im so dissapointed in u. pls do stop thinking that you're too beautiful. PLS DO.


i guess, more friends = more problems. xxxxx
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When I'm with you,
eternity is a step away,
my love continues to grow,
with each passing day.

This treasure of love,
I cherish within my soul,
how much I love you...
you'll never really know.

You bring a joy to my heart,
I've never felt before,
with each touch of your hand,
I love you more and more.

Whenever we say goodbye,
whenever we part,
know I hold you dearly,
deep inside my heart.

So these seven words,
I pray you hold true,
"Forever And Always,
I Will Love You."

IM SORRY FOR TAKING SO LONG. IM SORRY TO MAKE YOU WAIT. PLS DO FORGIVE ME. :( PRETTY PLS.

but im sure we still enjoyed our cute day.
we sure did right snorlax? ;)


(ah.green colr somemore.hehe.)
I LOVE YOU MY SNORLAX!

im crying my whole heart out.

YA ALLAH
pls
make
me


STRONG. :(

HELLO DOMOKUNS!
im at macdees now. God knows why i'm here.
im late for work! but im still down here. huahua ;P


yesterday's meeting is like as usual, shitty.
but we did the CMS tests. jette handed over to me the CSR flowchart sheet. i was brain dead at that moment. my mind is so not generative at night.
and when i looked at the paper. wah piang eh.
i did not even remember the procedure.
and i quickly returned her back. huahua :D
i claimed to her i never did CSR before. " JETTE!! i never do csr before.. so why should i do this ?"
she believe me and took the sheet back. haha !


LIAR ;D

WORK IS TIRING TODAY.
11-6pm. 7 hours with no consumption of food.

god. lapar SIAL. and manager wont even apprehend to this. shesh.
and i have to do both section 200-300 & busser/setter.
and the only staff there is the three "hot" ones.
something something, elfee and me. HAHAHA.
but its not normal for a huge outlet like ours to have little staff.
endured & endured.
and those attending the PH dinner&dance @ suntec dropped by.
thank god im not going. siapa nak layan seh.
i rather slack at home or something.
or or think of nashrun ;)

and tmrw night i have PH meeting. 10pm. so abnormal time but i just go.

PRESENTING......



MY SIBLINGS!

so yeah.was FORCED post it :-)

will upload more if not lazy.Haha.

yesterday met nura at 930pm. sorry late beb! suppose to meet her at 900.but i got out at 900. haha. and today i have a date with Nana. cant wait :-)

and oh. thats ME.

i wish i have a licence.

i wish i have snowcaps.


i wish i have money to do xtntn.
- to buy dickies haversack.
- to do manicure.

like. NOW!

ive not been working frequently lately. and my bills shot just like that. i need to do something about it. i need to reschedule my roster ASAP. --.--

(:

heyoall.hi.hello :-)
ah.anyway.today's test. -.-
SHITTY.

i think i left the whole 2 good pages blank.hahaha. like wthwtf.paper susah hxc.
nana and i went to the shit exam centre at 8am this morning.
as usual.all matreps.minah.
and the only non mat reps & minah is me and nana.
HAHAHA.

abeh nak stare stare -.-

and im going to dine in with mum at my own workplace later.weehee.then go gaylang.:-)
and aaaaand i miss naruto handsome face. -.-
i miss gaming !




ergh.byebye.

just took these yesterday before lepak at wdl civic garden.hahaha.shit.-.-

[im the lowest far side left.in black.]

hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii all. :-) how? fine?
okok.first thing.i got back my laptop today.
wee.
costed mum 300bucks.
like,replaced the whole keyboard & wireless thing uh.
mengamok seh ibu.
and.and.i miss msn :-(
i want to online now.
see me there ok.
haha.
bye.

i was browsing through my photo album

and i found this unedited picture. i look pathetic right?haha.

what i expected, really happened.
and i cried infront of shaedah.

if ure expecting i really want a sec chance from u,
ure really wrong.

i dont want u back.

i hate u.
how could u do this to me.
u blame me.
u lied to me.

ure to be blame for everything.

im meeting shaedah and its no way u will get her on your side.
i make sure u regret.

i hate u nura.

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HAPPY BDAY TO ME.

i want to thank these ppls ;
MY FAMILY.
ruzz. heiqqel(BOBOI) . fafa. haili (BOB). farhad.nurianti(RIAN). grace.birong. zamry(ZAMY) . refdee(DEE). ahmad(DEADFAMOUS) . rezza. shaedah (SIS). farah(FAYA). nadia (bruneian). izzat. fyzie PHLOW. anna. soffyan. azrul. sali minouge. ira. sakinah. emi. faizal. zarrin. irfan. ilham. azrin(RNNE). anis (NIEZ). rusydi. WOOCHY. AQY SNOOZERCORE. siti. nurul.
some friendster pals, and many many more (:

FOR THE COMMENTS / SMSES .
i really appreciatte it.

asshole.liar.ihu.

i miss nurul hidayah bestie :(
p/s : ruzz ! this friday, dark knight ok ;D

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hello readers. (:

YESTERDAAAAAAAAY;
dang, was super tiring.
but the day i had was dead awesome =l
see, 12am-3am = otp w nura.
11am-4pm = work @ pizzahut.
and after, head to cityhall. met ruzz there for short time & he skidded off at 730 to celebrate his sis's bday. me ? i head to marina square PH, A-l-o-n-e.

it was fine with me, not. cause u see , theres alot of mats outta there.
moreover today ada gig kat orchard.
anw, the moment i reach the esplanade, theres these whole lot skaters sitting. & one of em skates & followed me . gahh, irritating siak & he even called me O.O i quickly walked off and tiba-tiba the fireworks is on. so i get la laaa, NDP MAH. it was so near to our area & the fireworks LAWA BEB ^_^

i banged into Amira, and my primary sch friends. talked, walked off and heard someone called my name. rupanya, it was AZRUUUNNN . ahaa, he has changed so much after 2 stupid years.
then, went to marina. the long steps got ALOT OF FUCKERS. i could not be bothered. head to PH, done with my course thingy & head back to mrt.
it was ok until i felt being followed. IM RIGHT, these two err hot guys walked from behind me eversince at marina -___-"
they walked and talked and tiba2 they switch places and walked infront of me. the whole journey to mrt, they tried so hard to get my attention ! trying to show he's hot, funny, good, what the fuck all uh. eeshhh , da gitu, they both keep turning at me & smiled -______-"

lucky thing, i purposely lost sight with them @ control station.
haha. =l

hello ! =D *waves hard*

im seriously happy today, (: weird .
i really dont know why but God knows.

anyway, im not working today.
just fri,sat,sun will do me.
i wanna to rest now. will update more soon. bye (:

dear diary, im back to normal with haili .
apologized, felt better & goodbye.
i dont wanna to bother him anymore.
THERES NO REASON TO.
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took this picture at the shop. haha O_O but im tanned uh, not this skin colour actually.

so yeah, just got back from work @ 12am just now.

had an irritating mrt trip. -.- this one patircular girl sat infront of me with her boyfriend. and she tried so hard to look pretty. MATI MATI. the whole trip from woodlands to bbtk she was tying & untying her hair. so indecisive. dah gitu, camwhore lagi. her boyfriend ? sama je sebodek. like argh, irritating nye. dia memang tak lawa. abeh ? how ? eesh. =l

dah lah, i wanna to eat up my pizzas now. goodbye. (:

MOFOS , im back. (:
finally bought these new nike sling bag at causeway point.
as usual, red ^_^
spot hazikah, heiqqel, azman in between.
and gyea, planned to buy a pair of shoe next, brown belt and one tees.
but hmms, still thinking about it though. duit keceprekk =l
and owh, im working night shift tmrw. garrh , confirm busy.
but four short hours aje. 7-11pm.

--
& what my friend said is right. time will heal me. and good enough, im okay now (:

bought many new things recently. the feeling was awesome =l
new watch, blusher, flip flops, tees, hoodies & faded grey skinny jeans ;
yeah. (:

back about friends ;
heiqqell said to me to just try and talk to haili.
i was like, right O_O
WHY SHOULD I MAKE THE 1ST MOVE.
why should i bother. he's happy forgetting me.
and everything is like NURANURANURA.
why not dia kahwin dengan nura sekali ?
confirm very swee. heh.
since he's not working anymore, these thing will end IN NO TIME K.

and these other person, avoided me for dont-know-but-god-knows what reason.
PUN SAMA LAH. WHY SHOULD I MAKE THE 1ST MOVE.
im heartbroken. dia taknak contact lagi takpe =l like, FINE.
rose okay aje -.-"""
im used to having ppl who come and go.

xx
sunday would be haili's last day of work.
which really breaks many staff's heart. he's a favourite of a' simah ,nura and everybody else there.
like FINE, it dont matter to me. thats what he wanted.
xx
and about yan star, i dont get him. i didnt meant what i said. just that, i dont know. but all i could do is to wish him best. that girl is all over you yan.

im here, giving up in every friendship i had. =(
i wish im strong.
but no.

today im going to hillgrove sec.
which, i dont even know how to get there.
ruzz wished me luck though. thinking of him, i regret of my not usual self.
if only we could be like last time. but, its hard.
things are different now.

im terribly hungry now. and not even one food is at home.
see ? how thoughtful my mum is.
she said she malas. -.-

means i have to head to shop now.

ABOUT WORK?
me and haili cold shouldered the whole day yesterday.
i couldnt think of what is he up to.
nura came earlier, and she hanged with haili outside from 5-6.
jealous ? NO TIME. but theyre trying so hard to make me.
fuck them.


and yeah, im working from 11-4pm today.
yessahhh =D
and and 'paydays out this coming friday. im thinking of what to spend on.
mp4? or just checkered tees. hmmmms.

Dang -.-""" im off to work in 20 mins time . and there will be super little staff today. nura and i was back to normal. and so is heiqqel . i still avoid him though, he's the cause im having cold shoulders with haili now. thanks -.-


and, i lost my extention and my earpiece .
best eh.

update more soon.

i cant do this T_T
feels like breaking down now.
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idc whats gonna happen. all i know is to avoid u both. heiqqel,nura, im sorry. -.-
u both wants to end the friendship anyway.like FINE.

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today was bad.
today was sway.
today was heartbreaking.

first thing in the morning i dropped customer's food~
i tried to balance the chilli sos bottle rolling on the tray.
ended up i dropped the garlic bread on my left hand.
one of my foot was like hanging in the air.
so yehh, silly me -.-"""
MANAGER CAME IN,
he was saying, ROOOSSSEEEE ! THATS EMBARASSINGG YKNOW !!
(like duh -.-)

when i was about to go home, 3 mats dine in.
they saw me and screamed , EHHH NAK BALIKK!?? NAK BALIK!?? NAK BALIK!!??


.......

so yeah. pathetic.

i was so upset yest nite .
why should i loose her just because of rumours ?
nura , dont get the wrong idea ok ? im not having something on with heiqqel !
like whaaaaaaaaaa ? SIAPA NAK DIA PUN ! -.- ""
how could i ever betray you ? youre my bestie , and i know that you like him . =\
i kept saying to him to go to you...........
but now, it hurts that he likes me instead of you . i never even waaaaaant that to happen !
haizz -.-

camwhored. kinda lazy wanna to edit. just the frames will do. ^^
kinda bore now . -.-

arghhh ~ =\
i kinda wanna to study today ! but im still not running my fingers on books yet. hmmss and yeah im still left confused till now . i hate of what happened at work, myself, and my behaviour towards ruzz . im sorry ruzz that i acted so weird to you yesterday. u know i know.

anyway, im currently so stuck with love song by sara bareilles . ure listening to it now. thanks to yan star. aweeesomeee -.- .
other current favs ,
devil wears pradas' & mozart seasons' .

wished i was not having this spiritual disturbance everyday of my life...its like my dark secret and little ppl out there knows how miserable i am. and the night before, my mum saw two pontianak going inside and outside of me. i was sleeping, and in that dream, i was nearly RAPED by my guy friend. and when she woke me up in between, i felt my body was SUPER HEAVY, i cant get up! and the next minute, im left unconcious.
i told ruzz about it...and only now i realised i became so different and forgot who he was to me.
and now today's night..........that thing was beside me.



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hate today.

bestie is leaving workplace this july for overseas-ing . :( argh im really sad !! i wont see bestie ever again.
im loosing friends nearly each time. kiki came back today. and i have to guide the new trainees. 4-6. nura, shahrul, rezza, elfee, mos etc left for training at kallang at 6. haziqah, aisyah, kiki, faiz went home. rezza told me that his woodland friend knew me. and after, elfee told that khairul from marsiling sec knew me. which i was wondering who till now.

and yeah, my phone will be hang till this friday. arghhh fuck up bill !!

woohoo ! feels so happy today !!!!
'A' bestie is back working ! (:
finally, after 7 days of not interacting.
haha. ok that was random. ^^
ppl all loved my new hair. mas love me so much cause im very preety in her eyes. lol.
guide our new staff ,nura. we're now like the bestest of friends.
and i heard that cik sukra made stories that im having affair with ____. fuck.

so yeah. pretty much tired now. (: i miss muhd ruzz.
blog soon.

yesterday i bought my contact lenses. i kinda regret it.

and yeah,

recently watched:

1) The Chronicles Of Narnia: Prince Caspian (2008)
2) Hantu Beranak Dalam Kubur The Movie (2008)

i give five stars rating to these both (: u should catch it.

o1. At what age do you wish to marry?
- 24 .

o2.How many children do you want?
- 3 boys. two of them are twins. :B

o3.What I want most now?
- payday !

o4.What are you future plans?
- good job, good guy, good house and be a good wife. (:

o5. If you can have 1 more dream to come true, what will it be?
- to be filthy rich :B

o6.What are you afraid to lose now?
- loves . (L)

o7.Do you believe in being in love forever?
- it never dies.

o8.If you meet someone you love, will you confess to him/her?
- kinda maybe.

o9.How strong (in your heart) can you be?

- not even a bit. im really weak. =\

1o. What are the requirements that you wish from the other half?

- courage.
11.Which type of person you hate most?

- bitchy type.

12. Do you cherish every single of your friendship?

- yeah. but some just dont appreciatte it back and let it go.

13. Do you believe in God?

- like of course.

14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?

- my family.

15. Do you find it necessary to have a boyfriend/girlfriend?

- can be. these are actually part of experiencing , and learning from mistake.
we could understand the opp sex better and knew which are best for us.

16.What do you want your friend to be like?

- someone who can make me laugh, who keeps my secret safe,
and go through thick and thin together.

17.What kind of friend do you hope to be in your friends' eyes?

- a good and trusted one(:
18.Who lives near you?
- ex yussofians, 2 ex boyfriend.

- 19. If you're feeling low one day, who will you go to?

- my loved ones <3
2o.Tell me a secret.

- i slept with seven pillows every night.
and yeah, my 6 year old soft toy kitten. lol.

HELLO MOFOS.
AKU DAH REBOND RAMBUT.
DAN AKU SAKEEEEEET.


see,
vomit, cough, stomach cramps, backache, high fever, block nose, difficulty in breathing
all in one .
especially breathing. my heart feels hard and suffocating.
mum is bad. she feed me so many kinds of medicine. not even one worked after 4 days.
instead it gets worser.
i never had this in my entire life before.
i need a doctor badly.
but mum is still indecisive about that.

what wrong with my life !?
i kept loosing friends each time without my bad.
it fucking hurts ok.
theres always a third person who will always make me loose them.
why are they so mean not to think of what im gonna feel.
they only think abt themselves , their life.

if thats what u did to me, u'll get the same soon.
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today im working as usual. 6-11pm. fuck sitti.
fuck dishwasher. fuck ahwu.
three perfectionist.

--

im still having thoughts of rebonding.
should i?

ARGH HAPPYNYEEEERRR!!
AKU NMPK SESEORANG DI DALAM MRT SMLM !!!

(^.^)

thanks for being there for me 'A' .
finally i felt we're like the closest friend once again.
and your younger sibling finally treated me like its own big sister.
(:

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i miss ruzz.

finally, i shed my tears at work!

thanks to that mother of a bitch dishwasher!

plates pecah abeh nk salahkan aku!
ngade ngade mcm sial !

after, i went to office to pack bag uhh , tibe tibe si tua masuk pastu marah aku lagi.
" EH ROSSSEEEEE !! KAO DA LA TAK TAHU TARUK PINGGAN BTOL BTOL!! MANE KAO TARUK UBAT ZAM BUK UH!? ITU HARI KAO PAKAI JE TK TAHU ILANG KE MANA.. EHH!!! CARIK SKRG LAAAAAAAA!!! !!!!!!!!! "

perangai mcm taik gajah.

WORK.

ive been fucking rude to customers today. and i pretended not to hear them calling me.

'A' got sick.
no words spoken.
and left early without a single goodbye.....
i felt so wrong for giving the angry look at 'A'. in the end, i gave in.
ME: KAO SAKET EH ?
'A': .......
ME: JAGA DIRI BAIK BAIK.
'A: ............

just what mistake did i do... haizxsx .


:(

feels like killing myself just now.
how could 'A' did just that ? 'A' did not talk to me even just abit today. what was my mistake to deserve this ? its weird. the food that i ate went drained.


Pls dont do this to me. :(
or i was being so emotional..?

the friends that i have no longer stick to me. no longer cared.
only the newest ones i could depend on.

God, why do i keep losing friends with no reason to..

trust me. im no good.
im the person who cant accept the past. and nobody understands me.
so be it. complaint to your guy friends all u want.


my life was badly destroyed by each guy i met before.
ure just experiencing the beginning.

yesterday's work was boring.
headed back at 10.30pm. i was havin this bad flu. dengan secara tak senonoh, i held the inhaler and few packet of wet tissues in my hand.

escalator-ed to platform and sat at my usual sit. sneezing away.
lepas itu ada dua insan duduk sebelah roseee . tgk punya tgk, confirm satu laki satu perempuan melayu linkungan 15-17 tahun. gi mati uh. trosss buat bodoh. bila masuk dlm mrt, duduk, alangkah terperanjatnya mereka sebenarnya adalah lesbian.

kissing and hugging right in front of me.


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and yeah, today no work !!!!
bye.

they are trying so hard to be like yankees .
they'll brag disturbingly about their new york trip, australia,
which they think we will look up and be awed by their american feeling.

SOME MALAYS.




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anyway, teddy is taking his report today. good luck ! <3

somethings are ment to be kept a secret .
we humans have deepest secret ANDDDDD its up to the individual to reveal it or not .
if u revealed everything, u can't expect me to be like YOU .


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payday's today . money down the drain. no hope of buying that converse shoe.

fucking bills.

i'm hunting for new musicxsxsxs for my blogspot but i manage to only find two . prolly to settle with medic droid's but ended up with wolfgang gartner's (front to back mix) which i found it quite interesting from the movie Pochong 3 . HAAAAA

ok bye .

I can't help feeling that 'A' is hiding something from me .
this is suppose to be my deepest secret and ive not been telling a soul. i just want to feel better that i state this in my diary. i'll tell u more about 'A' soon.

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work was suckafucka . -____-" customers complained about dirty spoon which doesnt look dirty. u ppls are germs-free asses .
she asked for fork, i came back with several. then she askkkkkk for spoonnnnnnnn, i came back AGAIN with several. THEEENNNNNN she ask for 6 new plates and AAA SEVERED . i came back AGAIN AGAIN with those. and she said " eh, one severed only? not enough !" SO YEAHHHHH i came back AGAIN AGAIN AGAIN with MANY SEVERED.
she could have just asked for all of them at ONE TIME.

next. a couple went in. sat down. 10 mins later, the malay teen girl searched for me everywhereeeeeeeeeeeeee and finaally she got me. i came to their place and the girl seems mad and spoke to his bf, " AHHH! U NAK DIA SGT KAN SERVE U" .

WTF.

after took their orders, some typical teens 3 guys 1 gal came in. sat. and in the next 5mins, they called me SUUUUUU.
......................
so yeah, i came to them and said my name is ROSE not SUUUUU.

ive been juggling with my food server task which really breaks my back. -_____-" but im shocked to be personally praised by the customers as the best food server. i got $5 tips. my manager came in and she happily said that ppl commented me as the best food server.

but work still suck.

watching today:

recently watched :

DUYUNG .
Genre:
Comedy / Fantasy

Genre:
Horror

I suggest u guys to watch this. BEST GILER

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[gig this saturday @ musicgarage.]

sorry i can't help out with the ticks

best of luck to my frens band RADIANT ARCHERY & SCANDAL[afiq,yus,izzat]

stared into blank walls from 12pm - 6am . and now, its 6.15am.
i can't sleep... !
im so....!!! pressured.......!!!
urghhhh....

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bills...
studies...
work...
friends...
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URGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

camwhored when teddybear is taking a rest (:

home.finally. -____-"
its been awhile since i blog.
dating with ruzz, family problems, work, course, bla bla bla

and yeah, to make it short,
my manager. he's a son of a bitch.
my work today sank just because of him.

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tommorow110508 is my 8th month DATE with ruzz !
i cant wait to catch a movie with him and only him.

happy 8th month teddybear <3

finally, home.
nothing special.
one hour trip back and forth from tampines.
taught abit of maths at ruzz's crib and 3 hours of gaming.
his mom cook alot . soup tofus the best (:

wasted our time distracting each other whilst eating.

old fren ahmad msged that he's on board to vietnam for silat competition. goodluck (:
tmrw's work scheduled 4-10.
im done.

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im really scared to meet up with my manager.
i hope i did not see him at 7pm today after what happened.

:''[
shessh.

i feel tired that i sat at home gaming all day. 3 more courses to complete and ive yet to prepare myself. damn.
gaming was like a part of me now. completed big city adventure - sydney, csi 3's all case files and half way through in mario golf adventure.
gawd i fetish ruzz's Dj max even more. the first time i went to his house, we played Naruto & Gaulet.
i'm looking forward for it on this upcoming next visit this week. :)

its been like, months since i camwhored alone.

so, its pretty obvious why my pictures were not that good.

I cant believe im such a fool for believing you yesterday !

u told me you're meeting your cousin alone.
u told me you both are getting your phone fixed.

YET U MOTHER F*CKING MEET THE OTHER GALS TOGETHER WITH YOUR COUSIN.

hey, u should know ok. i get jealous really easily.
tak paham paham pe !!
aku kalau keluar dengan kawan lelaki, perempuan dia tak suka.

dulu aku kalau tak ikut dia jalan jalan dengan kawan dia, dia pun tak pergi.
aku takde same dia, dia tak nak.

sekarang , _______________________.


eh! siapa tak bingit siah !!

ygay!
bestie and i confirmed to join ad polytech this october. woohoo!
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skrg, its time to earn enough $$$ and study for my other courses.
pfft. and today have to go all the way to causeway point then to kallang for cet course.
tooting siahh. if nt for the resignation of: danial, farhan, endika, nuh, salihin,


i would have not gone --________--


and yesterday had a girls day out. best!
just like i wanted, an orange watch.

woohoooooooo got a new hp~
duit pun k.o. =.=''
pm me for my new number.
time to buy whats next ! heh.

wakakakaka boleh jadi gileeeeeeeeeeeee . =.='' !
monday kena amek off pergi dover blablabla amek test terus balik.
then tadi apply kat gov website macam orang gileeeeeeeeee via mail.
argh, stress stress stress !

:(

semalam boring seh kerja. =.= "
im with siti rian, faizal, jep, shaedah blablabla boring .
faizal aku dah lah menyampah. whatever i did, pada dia salah ! suka hati aku uh =.="
msged ruzz pun dia tak reply. boring boring boring !

david panggil cakap next week 8th&11th im heading for course with jep, ahmad, ezam, and lagi satu aku tak tahu kat kallang. jauh nak mampos. habes pukul 1o.30pm. nasib aku baik lah kalau dapat balik rumah before 12am eh eh eh .

ada patut satu customer niee panggil aku 'chibye' !?

i keyed in the orders correctly and the drinks server served the drinks wrongly. then asal boleh jeh nak mampos dia cakap aku 'chibye' tak tahu amek order.
fucking customer.



closing, i did sidestation and sweeping of fronthouse. get free pizzas home bla bla bla and hang around with danial & emaliza. they talked about their life from siling pri to marsiling sec, hyder,work. atleast, they make my day.

anybody knows where to get nice tees ?
im yearning for two .

they really did not want to see me pursue my dreams.
life is so cruel.
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and love is so complicated.


where should i go now?

got my hair done with soft volume and curl waves bla bla bla ,

and bought the salon curl electronic to maintain the flair.
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and ouh ! aku baru balik kerja sihsik.

mak aku kata jam aku macam singapore flag.

I'm feeling nervous now.
just because of some random compelling reasons.
: getting hair ententions.

abit of the rest goes to excitement.
: shopping.

have i really made up my mind?
haha. i don't know?

I heard about the so-popular home saloon located at Jurong West. She gives the best treatment yet awfully cheap prices. Im looking forward to it after i get my pay. but on second thought, i need an extention too (bond plus method preferred). my hair needs to be pampered badly this month. im not sure?
just one?both?

depends.

& ouh, work starts tmrw till sunday! im glad i do not have to rot at home earning nothing.
but terpaksa lah face 'sitikus' . damn, i dislike her lot. she and that new big spec auntie. just the same. even aisyah complained the same issue. seriously mother fucker.


i love muhd ruzzalmas (L).

woohoo ! today's work is scheduled only from 5pm-10pm uh. power seh !

and dearest love, happy SIX months to us :)

alabapak punya sitii ! mintak kena headbutt. bukan salah aku pun, nak naik kan suara. so what dia dah lama kerja @ pizzahut ? means dia pandai sangat ke ? podah lah eh !
like, i wished devi came instead and took over her.
this time, the non regular andi, amirul & ahmad took the same shift as me today. diff shift, diff friends. sometimes i find it tiring to make new friends almost every day in this outside world.

stupid injection. the doctor like katak somemore.
shut up eh ruzz, i kill u ! mentang mentang dia tak payah. tsk !


work was fun. danial is always late for work and i have to help out in hosting, which i preferred doing. i can't help listening to his gayish voice. haha, setan aku.
only when sitii is there. she's nice, pretty and all that stuff, but the fact that she likes to order me and thinks i did not know how to do ANYTHING, "BEATS!ME!" like, what ?
shah and his buddie worked 2nd shift. poor thing. well atleast, if they're there, they're the only ones whom could lessen my duties. cause working with nezam is really worrying. he's a wild guy. but still a friend of me. i know ruzz hated him. well but things are better off now.


like, finally.

like, what?
i msged that person yesterday night and that person never replied. does that person had forgotten/don't bother about me already? it's been only 11 months yet, this things happen.
or that person is just tired? slept?
GOD KNOWS ALL.
i'm not ready to lose another person. i had enough of losing the person i know.


yesterday night was, damn.
ruzz and i quarelled.

manager called up, need me to work this thurs,fri,sunday.
like, WHAT?
among all there, im chosen?

uh anyway,working at pizza hut is fun.
damn, if only my bestfriend were there. even though i now have a family of new buddies, they arent like my bestie. thats how UNIQUE a person is. still, i love them all.
and oh oh, my two malay managers are both "hot stuff!" . haha.

I WANT NEW CLOTHES. PATHETIC!

Aku tahu lah perasaan dia tentang aku kerja dekat pizzahut. Like, semua orang tahu eh situ ada byk matmat. If he does'nt trust me, macam mana seh. Aku dah terdesak. I'm in need of money to buy my personal stuff. Aku kerja pasal duit. Lain lah kalau aku ni gatal giler babi, PASAL LAKI. Diff ppl, diff attitude, diff perspective. I know you're worried dear, but i promise i wont do anything funny alright. You know that my heart is with you. THEY ARENT LIKE YOU.

Nobody like me, preferred work. I prefer to go by cash flowing w/o venting a single muscle. Hah, obviously its not possible. Now I'm juggling two job. the current Salesgirl@Marinasquare & now added with, Waitress@PizzahutCAUSEWAYPOINT . Phew, I'm counting to Monday, which is when i get started.

Tmrw work siakk :( Fauziah will not be there for the whole week. Things will be ridiculous! But I have to, for what it takes. Or my money will crumble down, wasted.
Like finally, I got back in contact with my "sister". She's busy working too, like myself. She had this problems nobody wished to have. Pity her. Her bf was once married recently, and now his ex wife was running after him and acts voilently toward my "sister". Their relationship is never at peace nowadays.

I miss Ruzz.

eh, senang aku dengar lagu keling. tak payah nak hegeh compete/kata kata dengan/pasal aku kan?
like, mulut big hole siakk. pa pe lah, lagu kau the best lah eh? semangat cari lagu all over the net. latest, so? *sneers* "aku bukan macam kau" aku tak kejarkan latest. ada masa aku tukar tukar genre. sebab, asal kan sedap sudah.

" Like finally, tmrw is weekend ! I do not have sink my eyes, coating & assembly at those optic lenses at work. It's mother of disaster sak -.- "

Fauziah taught me alot, and people thought we were like mother and child. itu part bagus, because those guys would'nt dare to disturb me. It's really annoying. I dragged Ruzz into my mind every minute. I just feel so alone without him. I miss him. Meeting him tmrw (:

Don't try to act as if u know all the songs in the world. I don't give a damn about your "goodness" . like, so what? SINK THE FUCKER.

1st shift work starts tomorrow. Little freedom, more cash flow. I'm going to miss every little bit of Ruzz, every little quality time we had. :(
This will lasts for a month. I need to check in the campus website tomorrow too.
I'm hoping highly to pursue on Diploma In Businesses. I'm eligible but, Can I be chosen? Insyallah.

The campus isnt okay and the customer service isnt okay.
I felt it like sinking in a trash. Nabeh teng teng.

Anyway. my job are scheduled as Mon-Fri 1st shift basis this Thursday. Comfirm boring :(

I can't sleep the whole night today. It was half-past two when I suddenly woke up with piles of uneasiness. I filled my ears with soothing music until 6am, which when the MOE sent an SMS pertaining the JAE2008 results. Its really amusing, NOT.

Work was tiring. :(

Moreover, with little pay. Now Im hoping for the 3dayswork-4daysoff job my mom recommended me. The Retail Manager has yet to call up, and they expected me to sprout attention fully towards the flyer duties.
Yesterday, I went all the way to Sengkang to give out flyers. I got lost eventually. ;tanya sana tanya sini, orang mama pun jadilah !

I met up with my Boyf after I reached my doorsteps & got changed. Its pretty amusing to have this maggi eating session with him :)
We exercised, we lay down on each other and watched the sunset. And I cant help hugging him when it was time to go home.
"I love you dearest", hehe.

a day out before valentines.

too bad we did not snap any during our valentines.

& ouh! our valentines was great(:

after my hard day work and those romantic night at the park, he suprice me with a real rose & a gift. i blushed like a total idiot. he's too sweet !

HAPPY FIFTH MONTH RUZZ SWEETHEART:) thanks for the picture u did specially for me.

anyway,worked at m.square last saturday. seriously, tiring gila. haiz haiz :( nasib part time. phew.
the esplanade is occupied by the uhh chinese bazaar, so punye lah sengket! tempat tu.
nak balik pun susah, mat mats minah minahs duduk, block the stairs yang panjang lebar tu.
uhh yeah, customers came loaded and those small minahs-minahs especially. look here,look there. uhhhhh pegi dah.