splurged countless of energy , on these photos. but very well presumed its not as tiring as compared to TP modelling studio branch, or others. plus, i spent 3 bimbo hours on maths yesterday night. sheesh. as soon as the clock neatly strike 12am, i vommitted out all the food i consumed on the toilet floor. disgusting oke. im so giddy la sey.

physics practical paper i never buat at all. i dont even know how to switch on the fucking circuit! sheesh. x( 15marks gone. i resume on chemistry practical instead.

i very well confirmed you that i akan fail rabak gila punya for my prelims. da la social studies i never even do the essay questions. no time la sey. 13marks gone. yikes. tak bawak ruler pulak tu. so stupid of me.

I cried to death today.
I did not even write up my English paper 1.

and I solemnly created a poem for Ahmad Syazwan. here's a partial..

• I can't find my heart, cause it's there inside u

I can't find my way, cause i'm not beside u

I can't find my smile, cause my happiness is u

this is why i really need u.

I don't care if your're imperfect,

I don't care if your're not the only one,

cause I'm dying in my tears,

you're the one that I want ..

-

And I must say, he's eager to see, to post this to let you all know about him.

• You showed me a sign, you showed me a love I've always thought,

that you're sent from GOD above,

at first you give me so much hope,

but then you give me pain,

why the hell were you so cruel,

you treat me like a fool.

your intentions were unclear,

my heart's burning like a fire,

I just wanna dissapear,

cause now that you're a liar!

-

Its hard to see you as my own friend, it's hard to see you as my own brother even.

AND YES , IM A PERFECT LIAR TOO.

you've yet to hear my side of story; and that's why I deserve this from YOU.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME(:

HAHA. not really 'happy' . partially i guess.
got my M.A.C blusher , skinny jeans & black handbag.

thanks LOADS to these wonderful peoples for wishing me via SMS:

HAFIZ 17th july 23:24pm.
NRL 18th july 00:00am.
HIDAYAT 18th july 07:21am.
ALI 18th july 07:54am.
IBU 18th july 09:35am.
REFDEE 18th july 10:03am.
BRO & GF 18th july 10:36am.
FARHAD 18thjuly 11.21am.
AKID 18thjuly 12.27pm.

And personally shaking hands, wishes & hugs from my classmates & beloved teachers;
BIRTHDAY SONG SANG BY MY CLASSMATES..
AND LOADS OF FRIENDSTER COMMENTS.
love kamu semua!



-
i still remembered how Rusdan used to propose to me on my previous bday. so sweet. but now, look what you've done.. i'm nothing ever since you left me. NO guy seems to suit me well. all they did.. was to hurt & torture my sensitive heart. i guess i deserve this. moreover i did some personal fling with other guy behind your back. that's awful you see.
i even destroyed the love of two hearts. Eddy & Naz. It was'nt really my fault. the main issue is, i didnt even know Naz existed & became Eddy's girlfie all ALONG. and now, they're not together.
I lied countless of times. And now i'm ready for commitment, but then.. i'm fated with none. I'm just a useless girl.

Yesterday140707 was a BLISS!

It was far more crucial than to my phantasm.

Thanks SITI, FARHAD, FAREENA, IQMAL, IFWAT, NRL, LIYANA, DIN, NURAIN, NURASYIKIN, KAK ZEEMA, KAK AZRINA, HY for the advanced birthday gifts.

to the rest like RAFI, SYAH, AMIRA, SALLEHUDIN, HIDAYAT, ALI, RAFIE, HAIQAL, HELMI, ANIS etc for the advanced birthday wishes.

love kamu!

during the party, i'd even collided with other Yusoffians by the sea & my ex-bf (now good friends!) @ the Skyride.

My girlfie, coloured 17 of my fingers white, because 17~ is my fav no.

After the party,
I made my way together with iqmal, ifwat, ali & hidayat to the mrt.
Iqmal & ifwat alight @ BUGIS whilst i, hidayat & ali alight @ C.H. I met up with SITI outside the entrance of M.S.



after that, i met up with AHMADsyazwan.
he brought two of his friends along. moreover, i'm in my not-so-atrocious outfit.
but i only went home with ahmad.
He enjoyed making me jealous! , that is.

Anddd..
he sent me to bukit batok int.
i'd really appreciate that and yeah, am gonna miss him ALOT.

i'm terribly drenched w tears right now.

there's TOO MUCH problems oke! TOOOOOO MUCHHHHH.

stupid rebellious fucking bitch! highly known prostitude! and ouh, with a horny bastard boyfriend!
couples-quarelling! ARGH! ZUL! stop w your dissapearing act will you? Nrl needs you & yet you don't seem to even care? breakups! silent-breakups!
and some guys, never LEARN not to disturb me!
Lack of cash! i'm only left w pathetic 30bucks! how about this saturday?!! TOOT LAAAA..

And now i'm down w a terrible , atrocious flu! i'd never gone for school for like 2 days & i'm fully lacked of knowledge..
I'm taking my damn O levels oke!

urgh.

I'm celebrating my bday in advance this 14th @ Sentosa.

but i presume not many will be able to attend. moreover, i did not even invite that many.
my girlfie; fought w her bf.. which make things even complicated!

moreover w my tight schedule. toot sey.
wednesday, back to woodlands house, rehab centre, causeway point.
thursday, out with girlfies.
and friday, out with girlfie to shop, night course shift 2 @ Almukminin.

sighs.


i miss ahmad.

I'm useless.
I broke people's heart.
I toy-ed with their feelings & rise their emotions.

I made my ibu cry.
a guy cry.
and now, my girlfriend.

even saying to them that Im "attached"(not true) drove them adrift.
I'm such an awful person.
I lost a friend.
I lost the one that i used to love. _efd_e

That's why I deserved to be hurt by people now.
aku mmg beng sey.

BLERGH! So UPSET laa sey .
I spoilt my 2mmDopod phone's LCD. just to fix it, it cost $250!
toot punya apek.
2 days back, i bought a new mobile instead.
And now.. I'm officially broke.

I cant buy new jeans, new cardigan..
Only affordable to buy tanktops or simple shades by next weekend.

-

ai sey kwee kwee.
i'm back laa sey.
haha.

finally, i FEEL like blogging. (: as a matter of fact, i enjoyed TOO MUCH in the outside world till.. I actually don't bother to tell tales here.

but hell, i don't think anybody is interested?!

so yea, school.. been really awfully sucky. :( AND... I fractured my right hand. LOL. i had super duper hard time trying to write. ahh..uh! but still, stubborn as usual.

i spent too much quality time w/ Nrl, Zul, Reena & Ahmad..and i left most of the others out. Sorry guys. I'll get back to you soon. ( i think ) haha.

OH GREAT.

i've planted a pair of deadly eyes.
thanks to the bloody mrt trip.
(:

& of course.. due to stupid interviews..
i had to wake up super duperly early today.

Not regret -ing even abit cause` I went w my favourite guy friend HAFIZ fm YISHUN.
(:


At AMK Mrt Station.. came in this very familiar lady. Heard of "a tribute to Aarliyah's hair?" She's VERY FAMOUS for her utmost unique, artsy-fartsy hairstyle. Not to forget, her trashy clothings. NOBODY, can beat her's.

At Sembawang Mrt Station.. I was omw back alone, sitting by the mirror/last cabin. came in 2 of Ahli Fiqir's member & they sat right infront of me. They alighted at Woodlands.

Then.. at Woodlands.. Dawn Prima Ria came in.
--

to be cotd'

Aaahh. FINALLY I FEEL THE URGE TO BLOG.
Yes I know, I'm pure lazy.
(:

That M agency called me today.
Right after I took Neoprints. (org belanja, sape taknak)
HAHA.
Finally got an agreement to post into much more healthier & finer environment. AND! they're going to face-to-face interview this coming monday.

wth.
WHAT AM I GOING TO WEAR!? HOW SHOULD I RESPOND THEM!?
Most probably, I'm 99.9% re-scheduled.
Come to think again, I kept complaining to my former in-charge; Ms Sellina, about this.

I'm dead nervous.

ARCTIC MONKEYS LYRICS

"Baby I'm Yours"

[ALEX:]
Baby, I'm yours (Baby, I'm yours)
And I'll be yours until the stars fall from the sky,
Yours, until the rivers all run dry
In other words, until I die

[OISIN:]
Baby, I'm yours (Baby, I'm yours)
And I'll be yours until the sun no longer shines,
Yours, until the poets run out of rhyme
In other words, until the end of time

[ALEX:]
I'm gonna stay right here by your side,
Do my best to keep you satisfied
Nothin' in the world could drive me away
'Cause every day, you'll hear me say

Baby, I'm yours (Baby, I'm yours)
And I'll be yours until two and two is three,
Yours, until the mountains crumble to the sea
In other words, until eternity

Baby, I'm yours
(Til the stars fall from the sky)
Baby, I'm yours
(Til the rivers all run dry)
Baby, I'm yours
(Til the sun no longer shines)
Baby, I'm yours
(Til the poets run out of rhymes)


I LOVE THIS LYRIC. - yours truly, ROSE

Dee! I miss you crazy! Where'd u go..

Sometimes, I'll get really TIRED of boys!
Not all.. Just minor exceptions.

I.. collided with my EVIL ex-boyfie today, Rusdan.
I.. collided with my so-called ex-boyfie yest, Shamir.

it was REALLY frustrating. The feelings I got was thoroughly mixed & crinkly.

A group of boys sitting at one corner.. One guy came up to me.. Asked me about Shamir..


The one whom I lost contacted with.. unexpectedly came back to my life.
Bila kekurangan, datang kat aku. Bila kelebihan, satu habuk pun tak ingat aku!
FUCK U LAA.
AM I A PERSON TO BE USED?!
-


and i went to siloso & pahlawan bitch with Afik & the rest.
so yeah.. it was a total fun.
-

SEASONS will change ; that much is true.
but some things will never change like the way i feel about YOU.
I LIVE TO BE WITH YOU-
to hold your hands ; to see your smile.
YOU'RE all that makes life WORTHWHILE.

It's really horrifying..

crestfalling..

on how she got badly possesed yesterday night.
my parents & I came to her cozy home.. She was there, lying uncomfortably on the wooden floor. She was concious, yes she was. But with a super violent "
She even bashed my brother up. Super VIOLENT.
as usual, my brother can see those "

she kicked my Dad badly. My dad lost his temper & " BANG " as loud as he can.
SO LOUD! i doubt, the whole block had heard it.
There she was creeping.. CRYING SO HARD. SHOUTING her lungs out.. for help.

SCARY.

She is none other than my brother's girlfriend. A hillgrovian, currently a sec 4 student.
YOUNG & SOFT GIRL.
PRETTY & SUPER FRIENDLY.

wondering what's that is? It's passed down by her family generation (keturunan).
but moreover. after we asked for "help" that night,

we found out that her ex-boyfriend, also her current classmate..
adopt "ilmu pengasih".
WHAT THE FUCK.
only a sec four guy, trash head.

dying to get attention from her.

she remembered he always give her weird food & weird moments.
SO.. PAHAM2 JE LA APA AKAN JADI.

HE.. SUCK. want to know his name?
ASK ME PERSONALLY.

"you're a chancetaker, heartbreaker.. got me wrapped around your finger"


to put it simple, YOU! SUCK.
trash head.


today, NOTHING! WENT WELL AT SCHOOL.

my gums.. suck.
and i have 4 darn packets of medicine to complete consuming. 24 un-tasty tablets per day. YUCK.

and i found 'a'nother new boyfriend!
ANDY NICHOLSON - bassist / back vocals of the ARCTIC MONKEYS. HAHA.

i recommend you guys to watch:
" JANGAN PANDANG BELAKANG "
" SPIDERMAN 3 "
superb :D

bye. for now.
[ missing refdee ]

wee.



u're viewing "panic! at the disco" skin.
my main intention is to concentrate on its Vocalist ALONE.
Brendon Urie.


yup2. my boyfriend ! haha.
and his voice is super sexy. haha.



ok BYE.

GUYS AND THEIR SOCCER.

AND THEIR BROTHERHOODS!

i guess they'll rod without these even for a minute!
so it's pretty ugly obvious that they put girls as their side-dishes.

it's not that i'm wanting alot of attention but i gave a guy ALOT (TOO MUCH) of attention to soccer & his brothers already and to be fair by right i must own a slice of it.
just spare a minute of smses.. a day of our lives.

but of course, not all are like these.
thank god.

but still, i'm clearly dissapointed because...

sial habis.

what EVER just happenned today simply SUCK.

i'm so hating some of my schoolmates.they're a bunch of pretenders and cronies.i don't know why they're wasting their precious time bitching around,gossiping.even some bitches hates me for hell NO REASON.weird but true.

she rolled her eyes when she saw me, slammed the toilet door hard, thinking i was afraid of her.well actually, i don't bother.

i did not purposely came late to school,
and i'm trying my best for all my subjects,

AND I HATE BEING FORCED AND ORDERED BY PEOPLE,
AND I WANT PEOPLE TO STOP BUGGING ME & MY OWN PRIVATE LIFE.

i have my own rights. remember, it's my life.
HMMM..


well anyway, i did this just now. kinda bored actually.

Oh God of almighty.

sucha sticky weekend.

i've piles of assignments to complete & loads of events to attend for 2 consecutive days! probably one of the most tightest schedule which left me gutless,fatigued.

Moreover, MY BODY WAS BADLY DONE WITH by those fucking mosquitoes gang. i can't help scratching my legs! argh.. even NOW. -.- been badly BITE-D by since last wednesday night. Sighs.

Atleast ppls inside the Mrt just now did not realised it! Infact, i wore the concept of indierock. I guess most are amused and appreciatte the style.

And yeah.. At TM, there's TOO MANY HOT GUYS LAAAAA.. woosssh. all kinds of concept, NAME IT.. ALL R GENUINELY HOT. I told Refdee all about tit but he did'nt wanne listen. HAHAHA. Back to the story, many ppl stared at me like i'm one SUPERSTAR. HAHA. SERIOUSLY,JAKUN. Then, I received a total of 8 SMSES at one shot whilst i'm in mrt, ipod-ing. HAHA. 1st time.=\ HAHA.

hmm.. i'm tired. i guess i'll bounce. have a great weekend : D

never say i love yoo
if u really don't care.
never talk about feelings
if they are'nt really there.
never hold my hand
if u're going to break my heart.
never say u're going to
if u don't plan to start.
never look into my eyes
when all u do is lie.
never say hello
if u mean goodbye.
if u mean forever
then say u will try.
never say forever
cause forever makes me cry.

You know it suck when u're badly disparaged by people around you.

To receive such disparaging even an innocuous remarks, I TAKE IT SERIOUSLY.

stop it sey!

I had enough of people who look lowly of me. hate me? I DON'T CARE?!?
like as if you're god damn perfect?

hmm..


for now. i guess i'm more worried about my homeworks and mr refdee hidayat.

the four chambers of my heart was deeply enclosed today.

things have not happened the way I wanted.

supposed to shop at Bugis with Zamry, but he had to attend to his friends for soccer.thankfully, he still sent me there(: He mentioned that Shamir has found a new girl. too bad, i did not even care even a bit.(:

I met up with fahreena & Farhad instead.i waited for them at Orchard mrt.

long after, i found out that Farhad got drunked when he fumbled drunkenly with the keys he's holding and difficulty in saying something.

we sadly headed home.

But yeah, atleast, I got to chat over phone with Refdee for five solid hours.(: His computer laa.alamak.spoiled sey.pfft!

Now I can't msn with him for the meantime.

Feeling etiolated yet blessed(:

You know why?

well.


because a kind lady and a kind religious man each offered me a share under one umbrella just now.SO BLESSED! God bless them for their good deeds.if not for both of them,i'll be fucking drench by now. (:

changed into a more simpler skin. because I like it being simple nowadays. haha.

no flowers,no stripes,no stars, no nothing.
hate it or love it, up to you(:

so yeah. feel free to tag!

HMMM..

1. I want to buy a new skirt.
2. I want to buy a new Osmose top.
3. I want to buy a new swimming suit.
4. I want to buy a new haversack bag.
5. I want to buy a new cutex (healthy pink & bronze).

and on top of all; I want to buy a new mobile phone!

Well..Still browsing down the new arrivals list.. till one precious mobile captures my heart.

Now I've collected enough cash & finallised my shopping list.For this week.. I'll be buying a new skirt & Osmose top. whoossh! I can't wait~ =))

I MISS REFDEE SO MUCH(: ..

I'm tired of the naggings I have to inhale.
-EVERY SINGLE DAY, EVERY SINGLE NIGHT-

I could'nt help myself but to throw my food away down the sink.
I'm sorry I can't be the daughter like you've imagined.
I'm sick of it.Nough said.

Now my computer purposely leaves me fuming and I have to use the laptop instead.What's wrong with the people and objects in this house?! GRR! Thank god I'm not born with stupid mindset, or you'll be seeing me, dead.

HMMM...

what should I post for today?

• today's weather?; suck to the core.
• today's mood?; bored to the core.
• today's schedules?; tight to the core.

I had tonnes of Maths homework to complete!Immediately after the YISS bell goes off,I straight away went back home like one GEEK hungry for homework!haha.

Thanks to my inseperable companions ((= for teaching me Maths. & of course! my beautiful tutor.

Now I can't upload my recent pictures.-.- terribly upset.MSN was and is fugging boring.must have been those MONDAY BLUES.

SIGHSSSSS. -.-

PEOPLE.i'm back!from two places.
- causeway point.
- night class for teenagers.

i'm so tired after all those walkings and such.supposed to accompany my dear friends celebrating good friday at Bugis but hell,all cancelled!bueys jer banyaks.tsk tsk.my dance mates are much more appreciated.accompanied reena and nora to Causeway p instead.=) checked out for new clothes and.. i bought a japanese-styled dress.whoos.georgeous.:P
anyway, i kinda found this newly introduced guy named dee.had further chats through msn and hell is so cute!i don't care that he's slightly younger than me.our birthday falls on the same month!no doubts.i simply loooooooooooooveeeeeeeeee chatting with him.:P every single night, no fails.
but of course i love chatting with my other buddies , YUSOFFIANS and gfs.outsiders are like farhad,hidayat,zul,kido!,wan k,am,dj lobs, wawan,mat!nordin,anis etc who is always there to chat with me.others not mentioned, sorry.anyway THANKS.i value it.

IDIOTSS!i'm really really ANGRY right now!mf ASSHOLESS!i dont want to school anymore!i don't want to study!i don't want to eat!i don't want to live!i'm sick of my life.for those who 'destroyed' me,THANKS EY! i hope you a fuggin happy to see me miserable.takde hati perut langsung!
i just got back from having practices at a unit near causeway point, tired.. happy..hungry.. sleepy.. and bad news suddenly aroused.my mum checked my friendster WITHOUT MY PERMISSION.wth!do you know how it feels to have your parents barged in your damn PERSONAL LIFE?seriously,i hate it! she purposely throw my clothes around the room and mess with my drawers.wth! im so tired cleaning up my room everyday okay!and i hate untidiness. i cant stand it! and i loss my bloody uni! arghhs.
besides,i guess i'm being too nice to guys!i regret that doing to some guys.now, don't dream i would be so nice to you guys.i CARE TOO MUCH and in the end, what u gave me?

1. this guy, if i don't sms, he won't sms!
2. this guy, tak pasal - pasal tak contact ,ada mataye. wth.
3. this guy, is actually attached! OMG!
4. this guy, too boring.
5. this guy, gets angry easily. sighs.
6. and this guy, tak pasal - pasal confused for no reason!, pastu lost contact.maybe he found someone new.and..he.. is the one i truly LOVE.sighs.

this is what i get.and for all this guys,i have to reject other guy's offer just because that i'm heartbroken.they acted nonchalant and happy whereas i'm here suffering like hell! nevermind, loosing them is no biggy.ok atleast they taught me something.not to be serious about LOVE.FOR NOW.

Feels like surrendur-ing myself & be the dead!i hate the month of march.its suck-ed the heaven out of me.every minute is hellish.=( hopefully,april will be better.i had enough of shits.some boys makes those shits!cikgu da macam tailong homework.sighs.maybe by now my friends will be awfully tired of hearing me grumbling,mumbling,complaining over such shitty matters.
my degree.. has gone up to 38.7.it's really high.i took half-day rest on the bed.no fan,no sweets,no entertainment.i badly need to get myself sweaty & healthy.yesterday night,i met up with anis.i gave back his jacket that i borrowed for 2 months.i really gonna miss that jacket. =( whenever im cold,i hold on to it.now, just forget it.anyway,i better go.i'm hungry!

that hot guy.
Saturday,i went to the Mrt control station to buy a standard ticket to cityhall.but then i collided with syahirah & my childhood friend.had some awesome chat that i had to delay my Mrt trip by 30 mins!i was late by then and i quickly made my move.i stand behind the yellow line lazily until someone who walked infront of me caught my eye.
he is so hot. (he's into rock)

• from the way he dressed
• to the way he walked
• to the way he present himself
• to the way he listened to his mp4.

everything about him is so hot. * melts* :P

his hair, cardigan, shoe, belt, haversack are hot.

seriously, he caught every of the girl's attention over there.can't be blame though.you know i never regret delaying my Mrt trip by 30 mins.hahaha.the good thing is,we both alight at citihall.the bad thing is,we're off to different places.i went for my dance prac and bought myself 2 dresses.wee.i'm gonna use it tmrw.

shit happens whenever i'm in good terms.the world hates me to be happy.the opportunity was given at a spilt seconds and then,it's gone.i wanted to try out in the speech competition but i wasn't given the opportunity to show my efforts infront of the class.of all the late nights practice.and now dad prevented me from going out just because my mum received a stupid sms saying that i was going to meet up with hidayah.what the hell is that?!i am not going to meet up with her.never i will.i was about to go out and borrow some library books and now, i have to forget about it!
some guys just don't appreciatte the care and concern i have for them.they acted nonchalant whereas they don't know or don't even CARE how worried i am for them!they make me feel like i'm unwanted!like "YOU" .. what ever wrong have i done to "you" that "you" have to do this to me?
one of the other guy EXPECTED me to sms him first.if i don't,he won't!what the hell!!!!!!!!!!!!!! seriously, i'm totally pissed off!!

PEOPLE.right now,i'm eating a chicken.lol, as if u care ey.i simply have no idea why i feel like blogging now, at this time?haah.siow!how am i today?still not well, still pissed.STILL NOT HAPPY.only my dearest mum makes me feel alive.yesterday,my parents & i had done some shopping at Johor.i bought 2 box of bubble yums,a pair of jeans,6 latest original dvds and a shirtee.it was awesome.
only then, i received two new shocking sms.and both of the guys wants me to be their girlfriend.omg.this is totally not the time!argh.rose kat johor pulak tu.i don't reply their im,their smses.and i kept receiving stupid calls with stupid numbers!whatever!i don't care.
now i only cared about my dance.the dance team ive been with for 3 solid years.and i'm back to meet up with them once again.

hello people.
i'm back, with a different url. shock? well no biggy.not that i want to run away from something.my previous blog simply suck.my ever dearest blog prevented me from entering.hell i don't know why.the only solution is to change the url.and it's done.phew.personally,i don't wish to blog because of certain reasons.as usual,boys.i don't know how should i start or is it of use to vent it anyway.

i was wondering why u got yourself so confused.i seriously do not understand you Zali.one minute you are fine and the rest of the minutes,hours,days, you're not.i miss you so bad and i cant help it at all.i wish i could talk to you again.my smile,my usual self,my everything is totally lost!i couldn't seem to find it anywhere.sighs.
i even storied this out to guys i'm close with and yesterday night i took the opportunity to tell it to Nordin.he really gave me good advices.shocking but true.and now all i could ever do is to just wait.im seriously fucking sad.=(

Zamry is coming back from Chalet soon.i cant wait to contact him and share both of our problems together.he's the closesr i have now besides Shamir.

Phew!I miss my home ALOT.never miss this much before.haha.anyway,I just got back from ECP.wee.it was FUN!only that,alot of matreps over there.i'm like SO DISGUSTED whenever i caught sight of them.but overall,it was perfectly awesome.ESPECIALLY my Mrt trip home with my friends.haha.moreover,i spent 70 bucks on just one and a halve solid day!sedih aku.i bought 1 top and 1 roxy slippers.the rest goes to food(: oh well.now i'm busy chatting with Zali.better go off.=P

WEE! IM BACK! haha.no big deal anyway.lol.anyway,been busy with my own personal life.Yet to update & decorate my blog.I find it meaningless to update often anyway.I rather keep my life more private this time.(: And peoples,I've changed my mobile number.feel free to reach me.Nudge me through Msn to get it.and if I can't reply to your msges,I apologise upon that.I've lots of friends to entertain though.heehs.

And today.nothing interesting happened.Suppose to meet up with this guy named Zani.I know him through his twin,Zali.They both are oh so hot.wee.haha.but too bad,I don't feel like going out.so,don't bother knowing about it.haha.ok!I'm off now.

The feeling of guilt still runs inside me. I wonder what am I suppose to do, what am I suppose to say, or what should I had done.

BOYS. - are difficult to deal with.

yesterday, I went out to ECP with Shamir. Guess what? I lost my fucking 40 bucks! BAGUS. I totally lost my mood going there but Shamir still insisted on going to ECP. Oh well, we carried on with our journey & reached there safely. (:

We spent the whole day together.
I'm loving every bits of it. (:


And today, the only good news is that I took the same bus with Arshad & Anis! I'm so happy to set my eyes on Anis again. Sighs, I miss him badly. I miss everything about him. If only he cared to know about it.

been few days I'm cold turkey from the net.
FYI I had this bad stomach ache. A HORRIBLE ONE. pfft. A mixture of diarrhoea and mestruation cramp? pfft! Looks like I have to visit toilet more than I used to.

Oh well, today nothing much had happened. Just that my mum had taken leave to visit school. Had this boring parent-teacher meeting session. * roll eyes * My stinking results? Don't ask. I told you, it's STINKING! Don't bother seeing straight A's in my progress card. But, I realised I should work even more harder. I must not let my dreams destroyed. The course that I'm dreaming to get need at least 11 points! That's hard. REALLY HARD. sighs.

LAST PERSON ..

1. You hung out with?
my ite buddies.

2. You texted?
shamir.

3. You were in a car with?
my dad. he drive the car.


4. Went to the movies with?
my peers who worked at Ramen Ten.

5. Went to the mall with?
Nurul.

6. You talked on the phone to?
shamir.

7. Made you Laugh?
my classmates.

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WOULD YOU RATHER...?
1. Pierce your nose or tongue?
tongue.

2. Be serious or be funny?
funny.

3. Drink whole or skim milk?
whole.

4. Die in a fire or get shot?
shot.

5. Spend time with your parents or
your enemies?
parents. duuh.

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ANSWER TRUTHFULLY...

1. Sun or moon?
moon.

2. Winter or Fall?
fall.

3. Left or right?
right.

4. Sunny or rainy?
rainy.

6. Where do you live?
west side.

7. How many kids do you want?
two.

8. Do you want to get married?
yeah, but not now.

9. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut
it?
twirl.

10. Have you ever eaten S.P.A.M
err.

12. How many kinds of cereal are in
your cabinet?
two kinds.

13. Do you cook
yeah.

14. Current mood?
bored.
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Ok I'm done. pfft. 14 simple questions survey. And 14 is my register number. (: Oh, WHO ASK ANYWAY? haha. Today is the most boring ever. My handphone bill is overdued. pfft. Burned my pocket money hobrribly. Plus, my prepaid is low. argh. Now, I could msg nobody but to call. I forgot to call Nordin yesterday & I called Shamir late. I can't even talk well when Glenn called. pfft. I even have no time to call Nurul. pfft. so busy liao. better go,

24 FEBRUARY 2007.

On the 24th, CHINGAY PARADE 2007 took place.

I met up with Nurul & Spiros at the great wall at 5pm. As usual, I took the train & mess around with Spiros's Mio mobile. His mobile is full of sentimental songs. *sobs sobs*

Reached there safely and began our walkings at Somerset Mrt Station. Spot alot of cute and sachok guys. esp the chingay participants. (:
We also spot Rusydi & his bro, Ruzaini. Moreover, they are the tiketholders for the Chingay Parade. Semangat betol ye..
Then, we ate our dinner at Youth Park. Lepasnya Maghrib, we continued our walkings from Cathay Cinneleisure onwards.

Met up wth Faris's gang this time & we continued walking towards the end of the Chingay's railings. There we finally stopped and start waving at the participants.
Faris and his friends sneaked over the railings and took pictures of all kinds of participants with weird costumes. That was fun! Esp the fact that there are TOO many cute guys. *giggles*haha.
Lots of things had happened & seriously, I did'nt regret going. =P

At 10plus, I went home..

Hell.. Today was d most BORING day ever.
School was fuggin boring. Home was fuggin boring. Everything was, BORING. Ergh, I did'nt get it myself! *pull hairs* I've been sticking onto this boring computer for a boring 2 hours now. Even tho my friend is right by my side, I still felt BORING.

Tonight I will attend d Kelas Bimbingan Remaja @ Masjid ALMUKMININ. ( tu laa.. baik sgt =s ) That's d only time I would'nt get bored. It's actually and indeed fun. Cool & hawt uztaz, cute & friendly mates, calm & lovely environment. My big bro and his gf will be there of course. Not to mention the familiar faces from neighbouring schools. Still have to wait for that.. cause now is only 4.30pm. =[


Tick tock tick tock.



THURSDAY POST.

Today was'nt my stinking lucky day, at all. Early in the morn, my teacher issued me the Pink Form. That means.. DETENTION. *roll eyes* Well not bad actually as it was held at the computer lab with loads of known peoples to accompany with. The case of Smooching, Glue Sniffing, Hanging ard the void deck & stuff like that. I witnessed it myself cause mostly are my junior friends. I signed off at 4pm. Thanks to that malay teacher.
I walked home alone and gayut with my friend on the phone till I reached home. Sooner after that, Mum called me to see if I was okay. So.. I just said : I;m ok. what's wrong Ibu?
Then she told me there's an accident occured near Caltex. A yusoffian girl was lying on the road ,unconcious... That's reallyy.. *text missing*
She's relieved it was not me & adviced me to be extra careful. She just can't afford to loose me.

Chey, Syg Ibu... =P

Now I became more closer to Hyrul's bestfriend- ZAMRY. Found out that he have deep connection with SHAMIR. Hmmf.

SUNDAY POST.

Phew! Just got back from ECP. Now I'm at my sister's crib.
The rest are busy watching the 'KUNTILANAK' movie.

ECP was so gerek. Diibarat kampung Melayu seiy. Full of malays!( you should know why). Full of hawt malay guys too. * giggles * [ BEHAVE ROSE! ]

Tmrw will be ZAIRIE'S & MY SISTER'S SON: RIKI BIRTHDAY.

just wanna wish them;
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, IN ADVANCE.
God bless you.

To the rest;
GONG XI FA CAI!
happy chinese new year.

SATURDAY POST.

Today, I went to JE Swimming Complex.
Just the miserable two of us. ME & NURUL.

Hell it was so so fun! I really did not regret going.
We both made loads of new friends.
A small dutch boy named Andreaz. FYI He have a hawt mother.
A little malay girl. She kept waving & smilling at me. ( dont know why )
A 3 year old malay boy & his hawt body-built father.
A group of indian - christ family. in Jacuzzi together.

And last, a group of guys.
I was sitting happily by the tunnel of lazy river. When this group of guys attracted our attention and one of them sat beside me. KHAIRUL.
Long after, got to know his friend. SHAMIR.
The rest, I did not manage to know their name.
As promised, I and Nurul meet up with them at KFC. There, we exchange numbers. * smiles *

Thank god, I manage to keep in touch with them.

I MISS HIDAYAT. (:
I MISS ANIS. (:
I MISS DHILAH (:

Hope they're fine. Hmmf.

WEDNESDAY POST.

It's been quite awhile I've been not updating my blog. HELL I'M TERRIBLY BUSY. Piles of hw are left undone. ARGH, I just can't help it. I'm so so bloody stressed up. I had such a bad dream today & everything was so so not right.ARGH.
What's happening to the melody of my life? Why must it sings this way?

One thing, thank god I'm SINGLE. Hello, NO GUY NO CRY.
It's been a long long time since I felt the single-ness. And now I'm feeling it. Not bad after all. Only sometimes, loneliness became my company. But, who cares anyway? There's still a long stretch of road ahead. AND! there's loads and loads of fishes in the sea. So, be it.

FRIDAY POST.

Phew! Im back, exhausted. Well, not THAT EXHAUSTED. Accompanied my girl - friend to meet her boyfriend at great wall. It was a nice slumber chat with em. I and my girl - friend just can't stop commenting the passerbys. *giggles* It was fun, for once. The fascinating part was..

• There are tonnes of hawt guys!~

wee. They really made our eyes CLEAN & BRIGHT. wakaka! who can ever resist. Not to worry cause I'm single & not attached to any. =D So, no problem in that. They(spiros,ian,mawar,nurul) are now out to Lavender. Too bad, I wished not to follow. I am too lazy to ride that damn bus 61. wahaha!

THURSDAY POST.

Today, I was wondering why am I so confused. There's alot of problems in my mind that is not settled. OR should I say, NEVER WILL. My migration to Australia. Will it really happen? Am I ready to leave for good? My friends. Why must they think I side her? Is it wrong for me to be with my own choice of friends? Does'nt mean I'm with her, I'm either as bad as her or side her. Even she, Mdm Rey knew I don't. Sighs. People around. Kept asking me of my ex boyfriend (Rusdan). It is so irritaing u hear that? How am I suppose to forget him sey? Sighs.

Lucky at night, I met up with my friend, EEKIN & FARHAD. I chose to un-bottle my problems to them. They cheered me up pretty well & I ended up laughing endlessly. After that, I met up with ANIS. Arshad was there & when we are about to go the shop, Arshad left us both & went up to Khairul's crib. It was such a windy night. Damn! I'm so so COLD! =[ Lucky, ANIS offered me his jacket. Wee~ Hahaha. I really need something to cover me badly. Hahaha. THANKS ANIS! =D

MONDAY POST.

Monday is quite horrible. I neither feel like smilling meaningfully nor laughing endlessly. All was just a mere pretending job. Just for the sake of others. At this time, I rather bottled up my confusions than share it out.
I hang out with my ITE budds and my girl-friend after school. Around 4+ pm, I met up with EWAN. Supossedly to meet him at 4 sharp. But then, I can't help but to reach late. hehe. SORRY! There at the pondok, Clement, Erwin & the rest was there. Had a short chitchat till around 5pm, I decided to walk off. I took a bus and met up with my ITE budds & my girl - friend again @ CSC pool. Damn we enjoyed it to the bits! We hung out at our usual pot that is at 626 RC. Till time came for us to go on seperate ways, I, my girl - friend, Ian went to take the same bus together. We bought our 'candies' beside a church & Ian departed at 7pm.
Left only I and my girl - friend, we decided to hang around my Spring View neighbourhood. It was a lovely night. We took slow walks & had heart to heart conversations.
There we started to be emotional & I sang out loud like a mad girl.
Damn! The embarassing part was I collided with Anis & his BOYFRIEND Khairul whilst I'm at my crazy side. Argh! Sooo wrong timing. I hope it just won't happen again.

FRIDAY POST.

I realised I became sucha drunken slacker. Pfft! No mood to open up the textbooks, No wish to jog around the neighbourhood,

• No Nothing at ALL I want to do but to S L A C K .

I slack-ed with my girl - friends in the afternoon after we bought a Thumbdrive @ WM. Then, I send one of my girl - friend home whilst the other went to play pool with her Sayang.

At night around 8.40pm, I met up with Anis. He's my 5th floor neighbour. We never met each other till today. He always thought he's a boring guy. Hell, No he wasn't. In fact, He is adorable, extremely fair and gorgeous. =P

At 10pm we went seperate ways inside the same lift. Soon after I realised, Fauzie called. Had a lil' chat. Soon after, Anis ask-ed to call him. So, we chatted till 12am. Then. Hidayat ask-ed to call him. Haha. We chatted till around 1.10am. Fuhh yoo! I was dead drop tired after a long chat non-stop hit siak.

Finally, Alhamdullilah. That was the last call made. And I'm off.

FRIDAY POST.

I had a horrifying dream last night. (MALAM JUMAAT) It was.. UN-IMAGINABLE! *gulp* I was like walking around a big luxurious mansion & suddenly I saw my ex. He, avoided me. The people around me are super W-e-i-r-d = weird. I stepped into the car quickly & this guy sitting beside me got posessed. His eyes turned shiny deepest red & his voice are equal to the moan of a monster.
I tried to whisper under my breath a few strong prayers and grabbed the guy's hand when suddenly he started to tremble & shouted loudly infront of my damn fuck-tard face.

There.. I suddenly woke up and found myself still on the bed at 12pm. My head was so heavy, argh! I just can't help it. That's when I found myself officially absent from school. And here I am. Phew! Luckily, all that happened wasn't a reality. I'm so fatigued after all that even it happened in a dream.

TUESDAY POST.

Nothing is as busy as today. Not even like a stinking bee doing its job. Tsk tsk.
I went to play pool with Ian, Hidayah, Rauf & Spiros. Ian's girlfriend tag along whilst Rusydi & Fared came awhile later. It was damn FUN(: .. bullying them.*giggles*
Collided with Toyol & Rafi in the middle.
I hugged Rafi the moment I greeted him, I miss him so so much. I treat him just like my own brother. It's saddening that he's now in a different school - ITE KLINGMATI. How I wish I was out of Yusof Ishak Sec Sch. It's freaking torturing. I miss Rafi, I miss Fared & most importantly I miss my used-to-be Sugardaddy : RAMDHAN :(
They are irreplacable. Realise that the best starts with 'R' ? (: So key-yut. I wonder how are they doing right now. SIGHS. *gaze at the window* Maybe they could have found new bunchas of friends? And forgotten totally about me? I wonder.
But still, I got my SAYANG(: my newly found kucing. Sometimes, it better to express my worries to cats. They just..LISTEN. and they will start to sayang2. hmm..

MONDAY POST.

Monday is today and I did'nt turn up for school. Damn, had this very torturing headaches!
* rubbing temples * Ouch. Atleast I get to spend most of my time having deep conversation with ayah. He got promoted. And.. He seriously insists on working at Australia.
Which means,
I'll be migrating to Australia. =[ Get it?
Well, I don't think anybody will ever care if I were to leave Singapore anyway. I've nothing to regret leaving Singapore. The best part is, I'm excited for the whole new environment I'm going to have. Singapore is such a busy country and everyday is like a normal stinking day. Everyday, MONEY. MONEY MONEY MONEY. Peoples in Singapore are so busy pressured either on studies or work. Or should I say, TOO PRESSURED. If there at Australia, Ayah will get us a terrace. Wide & spacious area. And most importantly, better education and better pay. Which is approximately 70/hour okey. =D

SIGHS. But we're not thoroughly confirm, YET. InsyaAllah, kalau di izinkan.

SATURDAY POST.


Sucha cold turkey weekend. Phew!*hug pillows tightly* Been raining cats and dogs lately and there is no fullstop in it! Maybe some commas, lol.
Been sick yet I still hungout at my girl-friend's house and destroy her computer. wakaka Xp. Geez, her cat is so! kee-yut. soo.. ADORABLE. That's what I like when I came to her house : To play around with her cat, name-d PUTIH(:
I love white cats~

Lepas tu, Around 7.50pm;Tuah offer me to accompany him lepak downstairs as he wanted to smoke his candy: ciggarettes. Since he live the same block as my friend, why not?
So had a li' chitchat and he bought his burger and stuff. His friends even believe when we said that I'm his adek sedara! Haha! Obviously, our big difference in height. And damn, I look young. wakaka =D

Am I that short? Haha. I wonder.. =D

FINALLY. I chang-ed into a different concept of skin. AGAIN(:
Maybe some blog-hoppers by now are "SICK & TIRED" of me changing skin. huahuahua. xP The reason is because.. I got sick of my skin VERY EASILY. tsk. Lemme introduce abit bout this skin. Obviously, it's a background of a band name-d :
MUSE(:
MY FAVOURITE BAND.
It's not really nice from my point of view. I just do it at a very fast face, ANYHOW.

I don't feel good this days. I've been sick for 5 days now & I rejected the offer to see the doctor. HELL WITH IT. I don't need it. School is stinking boring. New events are like new class committee. I think they made a wise & wonderful decision. The right chairperson, the right vice-chairperson. And the right treasurer etc.

Guess I'll update more if I had more time. I need a break.

ARGH! Im sick of people ask-ing me of Rusdan. His where abouts and such. Might as well, u guys should ask him yourself. EASY. You guys are'nt helping me to forget, REMEMBER. And it's never easy. I'm sure those who had expererience this cycle must had felt the same way as I do. The same situation that is.
Collided with his friend one day. Asking me where is he and such. " Btw, I saw him here, there. bla bla bla." " Rose! He entered Bukit Batok ITE!" Eh, He just got back from playing DOTA" Oh Frankly speaking, I dispise DOTAFREAK. Get back to the real world. We still need to catch up with our future & replenish our sinfull life. Who knows u might be dead tommorow and u could have used that dota-playing time for more important uses. It's all from my point of view. It's just a waste of time & more chances of you putting your hopefull loved ones ASIDE. get that? xP
Even I realised his stuffs is still in-tag at my home. His calculator! His pens! His jacket! His tigger! ETC ETC. But nevermind. I'll dump it pretty soon when the time is right. I won't need it forever. (:
Mention-ing about Bukit Batok Ite previously. I saw this one hot Bukit Batok ITE guy staying at 290e. I was walking back from buying bubble tea when I saw him dropping down from the bus stop. And we walk-ed the same route. He's new to our area maybe? xP wee~ He's hot okeh. and and it's just a compliment. Not more than that. Not wrong right? =DDD

• IM BACK~ =DDD

PEERS(: ! My abang bought me two shoes yesterday night! wee~. Thank kiew bang, hihs. xP

One is skewl Converse shoe. White, Black, Red, Yellow combinations (Check it out when I'm in skewl. xP)

The other is black point-ed shoe. Hot-ness~.

This time they want me to really take huge care of my shoes. Clean my shoes well and such. Cuz I lost my previous double-tongue pink w white converse shoe. DAMN IT COSTS ALOT OKEH O__o I MISS THAT SHOE SO SO MUCH. SIGHS~

I wonder where is it now?

SATURDAY POST

Guess what? Me & my girl-friend went to Chua Chu Kang & met up with Sufiyan Mondok(: There we lepak like nobodys' business. And Yan came down wearing a very bright yellow short. fuyo! punya lar silau macam emas bedek.. Then, as usual, we started to talk craps. Dah boring kan, I played this very stupid mind cracking game.
Pasir Panjang? O sebab pasir nya panjang uh.
Sembahwang? O sebab ada banyak bawang kat sana.
Clementi? O sebab ada banyak keling mati kat sana.
Petir? O sebab situ asyik petir aje.haha! etc etc etc.

Hahaha! Ni lah kes takda kerja. Ku ketawa punya lah buruk! gasak laki semua lari sehk (x But. nevermind. I don't care =DDD ABIT.

We spend our night together(: That's the most beautiful part. Friends for 4 years. Don't waste it. Treasure it. hah!

• HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY! (:

Wow~ I never been this happy after such a LONG TIME! Maybe because that IM SO SO FREE LIKE A BIRD?! YES YES(: Now, I've freedom to go out with who I want, talk to, SMS!! & be back by late nights. 2006 was and is SUPER-MEANING-LESS to me so I don't give a stinking damn that it's over(:

After 12am, I SMS-ED 'happy new year' to some guys & Ibu ask-ed me, Did I wish Rusdan?=\ LOL!!~ Apa lah Ibu. Cut it off! No time (=

Apa lagi, my Ibu cook-ed my FAVOURITE-TEST DISH ever on New Year. Which is.. SUP TULANG! wee~ And I ate 12 bonestiks in total. Toe licking good. It's been quite a LONG TIME (again!) that I shared my time with my WHOLE family. Sister, brother-in-law, her sons ( Riki & Raul ) came & we had a little home theater. Watch-ed House of Mae Nak , Omen, & Entity 2. =D

For school stuffs, I bought :

• Green Haversack Bag
• Red Mini Sling Bag
• Black Shoulder Bag
• Butterfly Ear-Studs
• White Watch
• 2 Pairs Of Socks
• Old School Shoes
• 10 Pilot Pens

And, tmrw will be the day I'm coming back to school. LOL!~

For New Year Resolutions - Is to improved on my grades & pass allll... my subjects.(: ESPECIALLY FOR OLEVELS.

it's time to put the past behind & focus on our future.

SUNDAY POST.

• WHERE IS THE LOVE?

Where is the time that we spent together? ALL WASTED ON OUR OWN.

My parents? Are busy working day and night. And by the time they got home, they get themselves straight to their bed and sleep. My brother? are also busy working day and night. Now that my sister don't stay with us again anymore, I felt the house I'm staying in, is.. not a house ANYMORE. The bonds we had are loss that I confronted my parents at night & blurted out what I felt from my HEART.

I cried by the front door & vanished through the night.

I'm sure some of my friends are aware about this. Thanks for the positive advices & encouragement. (= LOVE YOU ALL.

• THIS FEELING.. IS JUST TOO HARD TO EXPLAIN.

How am I supposed to say? I'm not strong enough to endure this pain.

• First, was a very awful break-up.
• Next, I met a guy. I remembered that he used to be there for me every day and night. Now, where the hell is he?
• Another guy. He's related to the previous. And when things was right and that I started to fall for him, he's gone. He may be cursed by previous him maybe?

I MSN-ED a guy named FAHMI lately. It's touching that we ended up almost the same way. He gave up, I almost. Mainly because I'm never too scared to fall in love again. IM USED TO IT, that's why.

TUESDAY POST.

• THE WEATHER IS GETTING WORSER THAN I THOUGHT.

Im bored of my schedule today so I decided to hang out at 6pm, ALONE. Last minute, my cute 3rd floor neighbour decided to tag along. She wanted BLUEBERRY WAFFLES badly. Hihs (=

We hang-ed till 8plus and by the time we wanted to set outselves home, the rain was DAMN HEAVY. And i meant DAMN!~ my umbrella did'nt seem to help me at all OKAY! my leg was half-covered with water. ARGH. I complained ALL THE WAY till I set my toes infront of the doorstep.

I chatted with MATT on the phone late night (wednesday morning) . OUW~ he's leaving on thursday morning instead. He stori-ed me about his International school and how he was brought up. INTERESTING BEDTIME STORIES. hihs. (=

Then EEKIN called me up at 4am~ WTHELL!!! that's .. IRRITATING. my beauty sleep is spoiled. HAHAHAH. How could you. =.= HAHAHAH. ANYWAY, I GTG.~

SUNDAY POST.

• WHAT AN UN-LUCKY SUNDAY. RIGHT EEQAH?

Just as I thought that the day would turn out right, DAMN! I WAS SO WRONG.

The moment we reached there, the rain only drizzled. [ OK. NVM] The moment we get ourselves into the pool, the rain.. poured heavily! [ WTH~ ] I only get to feel the water for 1 pathetic minute OKAY! T-S-K.

Guys are everywhere. I turned right, left, behind, infront. GUYS GUYS GUYS~ Except down and up of course. LOLS! dapat juga bersihkan mata. hihs. (x

and.. MATT CAME!~ with his boy-friends. One of them is interested in Eeqah! "hahaha. ada hati yer, tengok lah umurnya. khekhekhe" It was fun though we never actually get to swim EVEN. (=

• HOME ALONE.

Seems like I've been ston-ing at home alone for 2 complete days. Except LATE LATE NIGHTS. I could have go out searching for fun, but the weather.. hold me back home =\ . TSK.

And by the time I woke up, it's like 2PM! Nak watch teevee lain, mamams lain, mandik lain, surf net lain. It took alot of time y'know. =\

Today,

• I ate those MERRY SURPRISE PIZZAS,
• drank BANANA SOY BEAN MILK,
• & 2 plates of NASI W KARI KEPALA IKAN. (=

I love today menus. lols-

I SMSED MATTHEW like from 5pm till now. AND ITS 10PM already! HAHAHA. he's..a very charming chap. (x MIXED OKEH! And he's going back to MLYSIA international school in few days time. Coming back SPORE? MARCH! SOBS. but i'm glad he'll stay here PERMANENTLY.

Besides that, I've been wondering where KIMMIE & AHMAD had gone to. I MISS THEM SO. Hoping to receive a msg from them, soon. SIGHS.

OH GOD. I forgot there's this movie "PEREMPUAN" showing now. I better go.

THURSDAY POST.

• I HATE THIS KIND OF WEATHER.

the weather is odd for 2 days now. One moment it was blazing hot; the next it rained heavily. I even halfway slept on the cold floor even before i could blog. =\

Tried to contact KIMMIE KIUT-NESS about cancelling, but to no avail.

Today I did some mini - shopping. Bought pearls necklace & polkadot scarf. halfway, met DON & TOYOL. off to IMM to meet RAFI. There.. we choked out our usual craps. (= Sorry fo poking & kicking eu guys. WAKHAKA.

Collided into some peoples like..

• 4e4 mates.
• Horng yu and partner.
• Khartik and Fahzil.
• Amalina and partner.
• Alisha etc..

Next we're off to JURONG POINT. Had our yummy dinner. (= Since my big baby stomach is demanding for mamams.

GLENN called. Finally HIDAYAH is back!

my honey girl-friend. Never contacted her since November. I miss her so. Planned to go for a swim at JURONG EAST COMPLEX right after we take our results.

YEAYS! I just can't wait.

• Lamanya bercinta
  Bukan tanda SAYANG.
• Sayang dan menyayang
  Bukan tanda SETIA.
• Setia di bibir
  Tak pasti di hati
  Itulah mainan sewaktu BERKASIH.

love, it's a feeling that is hard to explain.

• I DREAMT OF RUSDAN 4DAYS - STRAIGHT.

Tsk. I wonder why? =\ The same damn dream ok!! ARGH.*pull hairs* I don't even ask for it, ANYWAY.

Lately, I've been busy hanging out.

• With AHMAD. - Vivo & burger king.
• With TUAH. - lepaks like nobodys' business.
• With ELFIAN & KIN - cafe' at JP.
• With PARENTS - TJ complex & BugisJ.
• With GUYFRIENDS - Town & Vivo.
• With DAN & TOYOL - Westmall & burger king.

Thursday I'll be out with KIMMIE (Ahmad's cousin), to Sentosa.

Oh god! I'm so excited. I love beaches. (=

• Pretending to be happy.

" I belong to me I, don't belong to u my, heart is my possesion I, be my own reflection "

Had a mesmorising conversation with Mum last night.

I poured all my miseries/memories : HIM, SHE, HER.
She poured all her miseries/memories drg her teenage years: GUYS, SACRIFISE.

I told her "after all I done for them, this is what I get mum"

I want to thank Ayrill, Tuah, Ahmad etc..
for being there for me.
for being a tissue to wipe my tears.
for being a listening ear.

Whatever ur choice is, I hope u made the right one.

It sucks when people ask u to find someone better than them.
AFTER ALL WE DONE FOR THEM.

After all proofs that we still need them.

Who knows that someone better might be someone worser?
I don't wish to be abandoned-ly, mother fucking-ly hurt again.

I never suffered this much towards someone before, truthfully.
Even after all u done, it won't cause changes to my feelings.

U escaped reality. I'm afraid, u make the wrong move.
It will make your life even un-happier.

LIFE MUST GO ON? after all that happens? D'OH!

Tonight, I hope u fulfill my one last wish.
" Ya Allah, tolonglah hambamu ini. Tiada siapa yg boleh menolong selainmu Ya Allah. "

U thought that by having new, it would solve what we've gone through now.
I'm afraid it wont honey, obviously.
UNFORTUNATELY, u're running away from reality.

but I'm glad. U do not hate me. U accepted the book I've given to u.

• Inside the book, indicates our memories.

I saw u cried, several times.
I know deep down, u do not want this. U're confused.

I won't beg anymore. I'll see what fate will bring me.

"God, I need guidance from U. I need the strength."

I must not be weak. Mum said that, Rafi etc..
I must not let my weakness control my mind, my heart.
I MUST NOT. TSK.

Bought clothes @ U2 by G2000.
Since its associated with Wing Tai company, you should know how high the quality of fabric is.

• One deep purple & One deepest red.

It's not like any other tees, it has its very own unique designs.
OH WELL, Back to my life story. CONGRATULATIONS.

I lost my heart, I lost my soul.

"Setia di bibir, tak pasti di hati. Itulah mainan waktu berkasih"

No one can help me now. I'm HELPLESS.
Mummy has been talking bout him & my ears was like.. BURNING!

Inside the car, Inside my room, Dining room..
the topic of him CONFIRM PLUS GST comes out.

Haiz. I MISS YOU DEARLY.

Thanks Ahmad! for advising me, being there for me when I'm in need.
SIGHS.

What love really is without you?

Cause love is about me and you.

What happenned yesterday; continues to haunt me.
I could cry no more. I could sleep no more.

Life is pathetic.

Yesterday (30 november) was sure a day to note down.
Besides above, I spot many of my friends 'A' @ Vivo.

Weird but true.

From Akashah to Afiq to Asmirah to Anuar to Amin to Ayu to Acel etc!
Hahaha. I wonder if its 'A' day yesterday.

I even got a new job.
My previous @ Zara can throw away jauh-jauh.

The branch is located either at Fareast Plaza or Vivo.
I've yet to choose one.

Deep confusion. But I have to confirm by tonight to the superiour.


Sorry for not being online for 3 solid days btw.
im going out now, be back late night. goodbye.

Finally, Dad & Mum have finalised the right motorcycle to buy.

The colour is a combination of White & Blue.

Now he has a better work, A better pay.
This time, it's located on an island. No more condominiums that sort.
Don't worry, his car is still alive (:

Lately, I don't feel good.
Got bad feelings that someone out there is up to break my heart.

MSN-ed Bib late night yesterday.

Ohmy, hate to say. What he said is really true.

I must ask, I must be brave.
BEFORE ITS TOO LATE.

but when?

Not another one.
Another one who's up to chew & spit me out.

Quit playing games with my heart.

I really had enough of pretenders.
Fellow "friends" who's also just using me as they pleased.
When they don't need me, they just. THROW ME.

All because they found SOMEONE NEW & SHINY.

True lovers and friends know u're a good egg;
even though u're a little cracked.

What matters most is we accept each others' flaws.

ARGH, fine go ahead.
Hurt me all you want.

I guessed I'm pretty used to it.

Had full comfort & services @ Starbucks Coffee.

What's more is the irresistable, addictive aroma.

Bought a black long-sleeve like coat @ Osmose.

It costs alot! But I don't mind since its eye-catching.
Comfortable, silky & tight-fitting. LOVE IT(:

Today is the 3rd day I fell sick.
Instead it gets even worser!

MY voice? gone.
MY temperature? 39degrees.
MY throat? 101% itchy!
MY head? fucking giddy!

ARGH. I even slept with sweaters on.

Darn, I'm really craving for fish porridge & hot mocha. SIGHS.

Now I'm at my sister house.
Chatting & Playing ps2 with Riki.

Omg I just adore "Crash Bandicott"!
Cunning & Cute. Especially its Morhog hair. *smiles*

Brother now has his 2nd bike after the accident happenned recently.
Well.. this time the color was striking orange.

Dad too planned to buy a bike. Since he got a car already.
A bike can be used for other purposes.

ARGH! They are like buying something, and I bought NOTHING.


I need money.


ARGH!

Like I expected, another gruesome quarell took place late at night.

It was 4.10am exactly when I can finally touch my pillows & rest.
Ya rite, I was the cause you dumped your bestfriend huh?
Ppl treat me like I'm always wrong! And they're fucking right.

Blame me all you want. Liars!

Oh yeah, I just want to say for those who are up to fool me,
Just quit playing games with my heart.

I'm a human too, I got feelings like everybody do.

I don't lie, yet you guys have the nerves to lie to me.
And when I found out, all you guys gave was excuses.

OH MY GOD.

Please.

PLEASE. Don't treat me this way.

If we love somebody could it be this strong?

Please don't treat me this way.

Don't play with my feelings.
Don't make my heart cry, once again.


FYI: Doesn't mean the olds' love is true. Doesn't mean the youngs' love is untrue.
Qoute: Age does not protect u from love; But love to some extent protect u from age.(:

Today did something quite practical.
Went all the way to Bedok.
Miss my hometown, TAMPINES!

Yes, I belong there. All my cousins is there.

Only that I'm clueless since a few years ago why must I be at Bukit Botak? *sighs*. East to West siaks. But I love my yusoffians hunnehs.(: Especially the groovy techs! OMG, they're leavink. *loads of sighs*

I myself do not know if I'm leaving YISS for good. *thousands of sighs*
I did my worst for POA! ARGGH.

Ok. enough of songehs. Bye.

Nothing special happened today.
Common stuffs, common ppls that I see on the Mrt.
Zebra-tee. lol.
Only that a few times, I heard somebody calling out to me.
I don't really see who it was. whatever it is..

I'm sorry, Sugardaddy.
It's not that I don't want to expose my overdosed problems.
U know I always tell when I have one.
But this time, I just don't feel the need to.
Even if I tell, I don't think I will feel any better.

PS/Don't think that we guys are leaving u off alone.

I'm missing someone right now. BADLY.
How I wish that someone knew it, that I really (am) mean it.
As days passed, my heart grows even fonder.
Will you ever know? *sighs*

Little as u knew, I always think about u.

I cried. I need someone to talk to. I need to unplugged myself out. But, noone; The suitable one was there to be with me. Only this blog I can turn to. I know it may be a stupid to cry over my weird thinking, but read. Read to what I'm going to type.

Am I really living? I don't believe this. I don't believe that I'm really typing. I don't believe the fact that I'm Sixteen.
I laid on my loved ones. I don't want to loose them. I can't accept the fact I'm going to loose them. I only meet them in this world. What if I never meet them again in another world? I love them! Please.. I love them!
In this world, It's temporary. In other world, it's forever!

Moreover I don't want to loose my MOM. I want to be with her forever. Though nobody is perfect, She's perfect in my eyes. I just.. love her. I don't want any other mom.

Wait a minute, in other world.. I must live forever? No end? Ya ALLAH Ya Tuhanku. Ampun kan lah Dosaku! I wonder how tough it takes to live forever? I'm going crazy.
I must be good, I must repent..


I live once, I must use it wisely.

JEREMY SUMPTER.

I love Jeremy.

Oh my, he's georgeous. I can't resist this irresistable guy. I've been observing, noticing, growing up with him. Since he was a kid, he had started to play several roles until he became.. a Hero. *smiles*

Well. I'm not really obsessed towards him. You know? Kissing posters& stuff like that? Just a huge but plain celebrity crush. Remember Cinta Bollywood? They say : Be obsessed but not too obsessed. You know what will happen in the end don't you? Same goes to the sayings : Don't take your guy as your everything coz when they're gone you have nothing. Watch out. It's really true.

So this really teaches us some things in life, right? Hmm..

18th.a specialDAY.i know, they know, u don' know.it's for me to knowand for you to find out. guess what? Nabila applied for a job @ Rusdan's workplace. Ohno! I was like saying to him, prepare for the worst. He even remind the whole staffs about her. *huahuahua*I went to Vivo AGAIN. yeah, that's our workplace. With my loved ones. So, it's no big deal I went there. I even memorised 3/4 of the vivo map already. *huahuahua*The used-to-go-town peoples even start to hang out over there. Ye.. Mestilah.. town kan dah basi. *huahuahua*OH! BTW,Not only me regard 18th as my special day. My parents too. Guess what again guys? *jengjengjeng* they won a lott......

feeling down, feeling emotional.
But I'm not an emo. you know? slit wrist & stuff? darn, that's not me.

I'm just too.. UPSET.

Im sorry to all my loved ones first&foremostly.
You guys should know.. that I spent little quality time with each & everyone of you. I'm just too busy nowadays. I did not mean to neglect some of you, really.
Sorry to Doinks..
Sorry to my guy-friends..
Sorry to my girl-friends..
Sorry to my Family..
Im Sorry Mum, Dad.. U both still remember how I used to wish you both everyday "goodnight"? Now I did'nt even have the time to. At home from morning til afternoon.. the house was like.. so empty. EVERYBODY in the house have hard times to keep up with each other.

Don't say I will leave u all, I love u. And I will always keep u all close to my heart.
PROMISE.

Sounds lucky!

that 3 person in total treated me eating out today.
& 1 person per different meal, different timing. x)
Oh well, since my tank is full..
Did some lyrics-reading today after reaching home.
I enjoy doing it, REALLY. It's like meaningfull & inspires myself somehow.
The words it use is just too.. beautiful.

Check this out.
Peterpan- Di atas normal.

Pikiranku tak dapat ku mengerti
Kaki di kepala kepala di kaki
Pikiranku patutnya menyadari
Siapa yang harus dan tak harus ku cari
Tetapi tak dapatku mengerti

Sesuatu yang baru ku sadari
Kau tinggalkanku tanpa sebab yang pasti
Sesuatu yang harusnya terjadi
Kau sakiti aku kau yang harus ku benci
Tetapi tak dapatku menyesal dapatku mengerti

Tetapi tak dapatku menertawai
Dapatku menertawai dapatku mengerti
Oooh... ku mencari sesuatu yang telah mati
Ku mencari hati yang ku benci
Oooh... ku mencari sesuatu yang tak kembali
Ku mencari hati yang ku benci

Tetapi tak dapatku menertawai
Dapatku menertawai dapatku
Menertawai dapatku mengerti

Oooh... ku mencari tetap tak dapat ku temui
Ku mencari hati yang ku benci

MONDAY 13november2006. Eaten:3plates of chicken rice.Time I reached home: 6.45pm.
Today was.. tiring I guess? =\ (SORT OF) I felt alive but restless. Accompanied my pretty godsis to apply for a job. Went to.. MANGO(headnods!), WAREHOUSE(headnods!), GAP(headshakes!) & PULL&BEAR(headnods!).I just luurrve those Belts-over-dresses @ WAREHOUSE. =) I'm soo falling in love with it! Especially those Indies-like clothes @ GAP. WOWS.U girls should really check it out. =)

Back from: Interview @ Vivo.C Miss-ing: Doinks.
Feeling: CRESTFALLEN :((
Reason for feeling "CRESTFALLEN": Well.. This is how it goes.

Lately, seems that NOTHING was right between me & one of that twin. In the end, as we all might expected : A heavy quarell occured between us. And I meant VERY HEAVY. We're like.. treating each other like a VOODOO DOLL! poking & cursing each other. :(( I would like to keep the inner details confidential though. I've no more tears to dispose.

Things went a little more smoothly as we went for interview @ ZARA. The employer were very cheerfull & down-to-earth type. I like that((: He gave us alot of advices,tips & explained a to z the speciality of ZARA. Even the other Twin {DIDI} apply for a job there. haha. TWINS! are just like Infrared. So ADORABLE. ((:

Still remember what my friend Ahmad said:
FRIENDS have no expiry date. :))

OK. not-so-short post for now. BUSY BUSY. Goodnight.

Back from: Vivo C.
Time: 7.30pm.

Recently bought : Green Roxy sleeveless top, Black jean miniskirt, Beads Embroided Necklace, Skyblue Cardigan w Sleeveless white.

Sorry to: My friends. I'm sorry I really have no time to visit your blog since fasting month. I really am busy. :((

Today was harsh. :(( I went to Vivo C. all the way, ALONE. A couple of Interviews have been slotted in my schedule & I must attend INDEPENDENTLY. My day got smoother as I observed my interesting surroudings. :)) THANKS to my two respectable people too
(u know who u are ) for talking to me on the phone throughout my journey.

Well, like I said previously, I encountered interesting surroundings. It all mostly happened at the MRT.
I could do nothing but to stare. So, I turned my head to the right.
At the right, I saw a group of Eurasians happily laughing & dancing over a music.
When I look to the front, there's this African guy with HUUUGE afro hair. (kalah rambut marcell dulu)
I looked to the left, *YUCKS* a primary sch girl is digging her nose away. NONCHALANTLY.
OMG. I could still imagine how she rolled those sticky substance like a tiny ball. *YUCKS!*
And so on...

ON interviews,
Bata & Toys'r'us called me in. *GULP*

Bata accepted to take me for a training. The salary includes my commision. 2 weeks that is! The only disadvantages is if I work there, there's no such thing as "OFF DAY". yikes, I dislike that kind. :((

For Toys'r'us, around 20 peoples applied for the job! And it will be very tough for me to be accepted. By luck maybe?

Haiz.

Back from: Eating Nasi Ayam&Whipped Potato @ Habourfront, Vivo city.

*pheww* I'm just too tired. :(( Alot of energy used up just for one huge mall. ok, VERY HUGE.
Not only we roamed around inside the mall, we went to look for a job. Many outlets we went to,
and the positive responses I received was from: Fila, Giant, Topshop/Topman, Minitoons.
Armani Exchange will be opening up soon, well! thats my next beautiful target. *evil smile*

After few rounds of walking, we decided to catch a movie.

What movie? : GRUDGE 2

Bought 2 combo meals altogether. Mine costs $8.50. Hotdog Combo Meal that is. With!! barbeque twisties. And the Hotdog with bread was like.. Fat.. Long.. and Juicy!! Who can ever resist?? Once I opened the plastic cover, my buddies was like desperate for a bite! Haha!! Not to mention actually, that we have a VERY HUGE appetite. :))

The Grudge 2 was very scary. Totally!! not for the faint-hearted. Moreover the screen is damn huge! And the ghost was like damn huge too! And the ending was not very good at all, and it also ended up in a very scary way. ALL DISSAPEARED.

O.m.g, I wished I am watching D.O.A. Or I should wait for Material Girls? Hmmpx.

Now Listening to: House Music: Calabria Remix by Eric Morillo/Randy Katana.

Back from: Accompanying Ibu to Salon (Hair Rebonding),
Buying Slippers, Nail Anemal (transparent pink),
Eating at KFC fast food Restaurant.

I have those polka-dot feeling today. My attire shows it all.
Polka-dot top, Polka-dot handbag, Polka-dot wallet! haha!

Yet I felt clean too with fresh white top color, white slippers & white teeth. ((:

Although I'm feeling all this, I felt worried too.
Worried about getting a job. BADLY!!
Got a helping hand from my Ibu first & foremostly. ((:
Second is from my dearest beloved friends.
Last but not least is from my godsister.

I told her off how dissapointed I am in killing my time at home, outside..
and!! to wake up late. VERY LATE!!! afternoons is like mornings to me.
since she have friends devoted in sales, she will recommend me to them.

What Shops? well it's zara & a x.


can't wait..!! ((: till then.

I'm Back!
Been too busy this week. Let me summarise what happenned recently.(:
On monday, I went to "jalan raya" with the technicals.

Those who went: Me, Rusdan, Rusydi, Rafi, Rasul, Ramdhan, Rayyan, Rizyanti, Ridhuan, Rasyiqah, Rasyiqah's bf, Furqaan, Yan, Said, Surayah, Surayah's bf, Hamdan, Hamdan's gf, Faizal, Faizal's gf, Fadhilah, Fadilah's bf, Hafiz, Ian, Nazri

Went to ____ house: Rayyan, Yan, Nordin etc..

On tuesday,

Those who went: Me, Rusdan, Iqmal, Sufiyan, Maszlee, Firdaus, Insyirah, Atiqah, Azrin, Huda, Iman, Akil, Zairie, Zairie's gf, Ahmad, Ahmad's gf, Amirul

Went to ____ house: Firdaus, Mdm Rehana, Akil, Fairuz, Iqmal, Mazslee etc..

Cheeses, I had total fun interacting with Ahmad's gf, Nadia. She's pretty! Plus Zairie's gf, Nana. Haha! I wonder if she can "tahan" Zairie's cheekiness. Bleuk! Overall I guess Mdm Rey & Iqmal's mum dishes is the tastiest. Mdm Rey cooked seashell-shaped pasta with prego sauce. Delicious! Whilst Iqmal's mum cooked Mee Soto with different kinds of toppings to choose from. WOWS, I'm totally impressed. ((-: Too bad if u never get to taste it.Planned to go out with them again next week.
This time we bring along Khalil, Aisah, Ifwat, Haikal. (:
*YEAYS*

stress gila babi sak aku!
tak boleh angkat sey.

Perangai macam taik beruk!
Atleast beruk pun tak ada menyusahkan orang sangat macam dia.
Tak serik-serik ke dia curi, hilangkan benda orang, berhutang?
Bukan itu aja. Dah kena bedal rabak-rabak dari bapak dia, tapi masih buat lagi. Harap jer otak pandai dalam pelajaran, tapi pasal ini, tak boleh handle. bodoh sak.
Dah lama aku kawan dengan dia. Tapi dengan aku sekali dia kena kan.
Dah curi benda aku banyak, handphone lagi. Sekarang, bodoh sangat kasi hilang kan kawan aku punya videocamera. Reason dia semua macam biji kelentik dia! Serious sey. Sial la perangai. Siapa-siapa yang tahu pasal perkara ini, kau orang patut tahu la, jangan percayakan dia lagi, kalau tidak! harta kau jugak dia telan buat taik!

[English] I love you

[Polish] Ja kocham ciiebiie

[French] Je t'aiime

[Hindi] Hum tumhe pyar karte hae

[Czech] Miilujii te

[Slovakian] Lu'biim ta

[Italian] Tii amo

[Ukrainian] Ya tebe kahayu

[German] Iish liibe diish

[Chinese] Wo aii nii

[Greek] S' agapo

[Hawaian] Aloha wau iia oii

[Lithuianian] Tav myliiu

[Korean] Sa rang hae yo

[Japanese] Aii shii te ru

[Romanian] Te ubsec

[Bosnian] Bo iis te

[Albanian] Te dua

[Phillipino] Mahal kiita

[Spanish] Ti amo

[Portugese] Amo te

[Arabic] Annah be hebic

It's amazing how love can transform:
a normal person into a muddle-headed person;
a hot-tempered person into an even-tempered person;
an unromantic person into a romantic person;
a sane person into an insane person;
an unsuccessful person into a successful person;

They say: Behind every successful man there's a woman.
I guess my Ayah & Ibu obviously shows it all. If not for Ibu, my Ayah would not be as successful as now he is. Through thick & thin, Ibu has been there to help, catch & console Ayah. Until now..

Lucky is the man is the first love of a woman,
Luckier is the woman is the last love of a man.

Well, back to my life story..
Yesterday my family and I went to break our fast @ Habib Family Restaurant. As usual, ordered one of my favourites:
Thai Kway Teow Fried Noodles. ((-:
Received a last-minute call from my sister.
She persuaded us to accompany her with her husband & sons to Gaylang.
Even with our "baju-slack-nak-mampos", we still headed off to Gaylang.
Well "nak rasakan suasana nyer punya pasal"
Still can potray how badly I'd been treated outside Golden Chance.
Argh! better not talk about it. Till then..

The moment I saw you,
I can't seem to describe how happy I am to see you.
On that only 5 minutes, how we both wished that we could pootle all day once again like we used to. But we just have to wait, we just have to endure.

I spent the whole afternoon in the library yesterday. Seems to be so addicted to reading the Singapore's Most Popular Magazine & Gila-Gila magazine.

EXTRACTED FROM GILA-GILA MAGAZINE.
Bulan itu bulan Ramadhan.
Mona pergi dapur, dia nampak byk donut.
Hmm.. sedap. Apa lagi?! Dia NGAP lar.
Dia NGAP punyer NGAP.. Mina masuk dapur.
Mina nampak, Mina terperanjat.
"OI! kau buat aper tu!!!"
Mona terus muntah balik makanan tu.
"OI!! Da 14 donut kau telan, nak muntah balik buat aper!!"

[got to go, I'm off to gaylang]

Again, they refrain us from meeting each other.

How cruel can this world could be?

Just 1 tight minute I get to see you and then..
*poooffts* you're gone. Out of my sight.

There.. I'm alone. Only darkness able to accompany me home.
If I were to follow my heart, I would have attempt suicide.
I would have grab a gun,attach a silencer,insert 32 calibre bullets
& shoot myself in this cold night.

But I know that is stupid.. and impossible..

It's just that, I can't take this pain anymore.

It's difficult for both of us to endure & lace-up through this period of time.
Peoples around us tested our endurance for two weeks, but
they never vision how torturing its going to be.

Why must they interfere in our relationship?
Why must they be unhappy for us?

Tsk.. This left me no choice but to take the challange.

[JUST FOR U]

Meanwhile, back at home today..

I help my Ibu in making - Mushroom-shaped cornflakes cookies.
Trying not to be lackadaisical, I complete the tasks smoothly.
Moreover I will get my "upah".. ((-: $$$$$.

Ayah cooked for us Lemak Ayam Chilli Padi.

I smsed twin(rdn) after that & coicidentally
his mother is making cornflakes cookies too!
"KEPO! HAHA.."

For buka, he's eating Nasi Ayam Penyek.
Damn.. I've been craving that for a long time.

Oh well.. better get going.

Mid-Week Jokes.


Man comes home, finds his wife with his friend in bed.
He shoots his friend to death.
Wife says "If you behave like this, you will lose ALL your friends".

Small Boy wrote to Santa Claus," send me a brother"
Santa wrote back," SEND ME YOUR MOTHER"

What is the definition of Mistress?
Someone between the Mister and Mattress

Husband asks , "Do u know the meaning of WIFE??
"Without Information Fighting Everytime"
Wife replies," No, It means ,
"With Idiot For Ever !!!"

Three Feelings:
What's the difference between stress, tension and panic?
Stress is when wife is pregnant,
Tension is when girlfriend is pregnant, and
Panic is when both are pregnant.

Teacher: u know the importance of period?
Kid: Ya, once my sister said she has missed one, my mom fainted, dad got
heart attack & our driver ran away.

Why did they stop printing Pamela Anderson stamps in the U.S?
B'coz people started licking the wrong side.

Women asked man who is traveling with six children, all these kids are
urs??
No, I work in a condom factory & these are customer complaints.

Two men met while both where looking for their lost wives.
1st: How urs look like?
2nd: She is 5"7, 36-24-36, Fair, Black eyes. Wat abt urs?
1st: Forget mine. Lets find yours!!

Sons asks difference between confidence and confidential
Dad says, you are my son, im confident. ur friend is also my son,
that's confidential!

Received emails from my big sister recently.

I find this cool.

Moreover it was published on my BIRTHDAY.

A HOLY FISH.

My family turned against me.
And somehow I felt like a stranger to them.

Argy bargy between us had started since yesterday.
Where's the bolthole in this world?
Since I'm not needed by them anymore?

IN MY LIFE,
I wish no one to correct me except my parents.
If u're not my parent & u want to correct me,
Correct yourself before u correct me.

Look at yourself.
Saying its shameful to gossip, yet u gossip about me.
Saying u're scared of God, yet u do sinful acts.
TALK BIG ONLY!
[apa lagi bulan Ramadhan yer]

Unhappy with my looks?
Look at yourself again.
Are u way better than me?
Look like a model & no excessive fats bulging out?
If u are, I have no comment.

What & Who I want to be, it's my choice.